As deadly as sepsis
It makes your world so small
Creeping in
Inch My inch
Until you suffocate within yourself
OCD has made my world so small
I'm not sure there's any world at all anymore


But I will fight back
Push back
Against the walls
That suffocate me
I will push back and
Kick and
Scream and
Swear and
Fight.
Until I can see the world again
"OCD no longer engulfs me.
I engulf it."

I think you like watching me go insane.
You'll start fires out of nowhere
to watch them engluf me in flames.
Engulf us.
You like the feel of a burn.
You enjoy the scent of scorched memories.
Charred shadows where
we used to live and love.
Your bed is gone,
the porch is obliterated.
The house is collapsing,
Fire licking everywhere we've been.
An everlasting light that I can't escape.
Everywhere we've ever been...
I can't go there anymore.
I can't bear to see it;
can't handle the heat.
I'm jumping ship.
I'm a creature of water,
Gently ebbing and flowing...
So I'll wash my hands of you,
swim away from the memories
and see where the current takes me.
But, baby, it sure as hell won't lead me
to you.
We know better.
The sea and I know love.
This was never it.
lmt