ALONE

Alone, no noise
Just peace and quiet
No eyes to peer upon my diet.
No comments on the way I act
No question as to what is fact.
No talk of any kind
To stimulate my empty mind
No words expressed for such a while,
No nods, no frowns, no laughs, no smiles.
No questions, fights, not even a row
Why? No one ever sees me now



Feelings

Pain and torture begin to start
Now my heart is torn apart
Nobody knows I cannot see
When the blackness is surrounding me.
No place to run and hide
Peace of mind I’ll never find.
All around is empty place
Nowhere to find a happy place
Locked inside my prison cell
Will always be a living hell



WHEN

When I reached out to end my life
You comforted me in my strife
When my faith withered and died
You stood by me and also cried.
When I felt that my life was at an end
My actions you lovingly did defend
When I discovered that I loved you so much
My heart longed for your delicate touch
Then I handed over the lock and key
When you opened up my heart
I didn’t know that you would soon depart
When I began to put my trust in you.
When the barriers began to crumble
Our lives together also crumbled
When I lowered all pretence
I should have had more sense.
When our future seemed so clear
You kicked me up the rear
When I finally gave in
You dumped me in the litter bin
You never really love me
I was the laughing stock to see
When I discovered that hurtful lie
I wanted to go around and hide
I wanted to go anyway and die
When will you tell me why did it?
The reasons you give just don’t fit
When will I begin to let go of this hurt?
And leave behind all the dirt

WILL YOU LOVE ME?

Will you love me?
Just for a wee while
I want you
And your cute smile
I want you to love
To help and to care
And if I need you
I want you there
At work I see you
But you turn uyour back
The adys seem so long
The nights so black
The future seems bleak
What will my lie be
Just one questions
Will you love me??

RAINBOW

RED colour of daner and strif
Yet I the Lord will always be in your life

ORANGE the coulour of the sunh shining bright
You as a christian walk in the light
YELLOW the colour of each grain of sand
Spread my word across all the land
GREEN the colour of grass in the field
BLUE
The colour of darkness and
******those around you that jesus cares
VIOLETS the colour of a prerry flower
Follow me and I will give you power

ALONE

Alone, no noise
Just peace and quiet
No eyes to peer upon my diet.
No comments on the way I act
No question as to what is fact.
No talk of any kind
To stimulate my empty mind
No words expressed for such a while,
No nods, no frowns, no laughs, no smiles.
No questions, fights, not even a row
Why? No one ever sees me now



Feelings

Pain and torture begin to start
Now my heart is torn apart
Nobody knows I cannot see
When the blackness is surrounding me.
No place to run and hide
Peace of mind I’ll never find.
All around is empty place
Nowhere to find a happy place
Locked inside my prison cell
Will always be a living hell



WHEN

When I reached out to end my life
You comforted me in my strife
When my faith withered and died
You stood by me and also cried.
When I felt that my life was at an end
My actions you lovingly did defend
When I discovered that I loved you so much
My heart longed for your delicate touch
Then I handed over the lock and key
When you opened up my heart
I didn’t know that you would soon depart
When I began to put my trust in you.
When the barriers began to crumble
Our lives together also crumbled
When I lowered all pretence
I should have had more sense.
When our future seemed so clear
You kicked me up the rear
When I finally gave in
You dumped me in the litter bin
You never really love me
I was the laughing stock to see
When I discovered that hurtful lie
I wanted to go around and hide
I wanted to go anyway and die
When will you tell me why did it?
The reasons you give just don’t fit
When will I begin to let go of this hurt?
And leave behind all the dirt

WILL YOU LOVE ME?

Will you love me?
Just for a wee while
I want you
And your cute smile
I want you to love
To help and to care
And if I need you
I want you there
At work I see you
But you turn uyour back
The adys seem so long
The nights so black
The future seems bleak
What will my lie be
Just one questions
Will you love me??

RAINBOW

RED colour of daner and strif
Yet I the Lord will always be in your life

ORANGE the coulour of the sunh shining bright
You as a christian walk in the light
YELLOW the colour of each grain of sand
Spread my word across all the land
GREEN the colour of grass in the field
BLUE
The colour of darkness and
******those around you that jesus cares
VIOLETS the colour of a prerry flower
Follow me and I will give you power

Im so sorry.
I was a militant Christian.
With honest intentions
Of delivering friends
From the folliez of youth which lead to depression.

we just wanna be free from reproof or suggestion from another man as we give our best effort to a life of perfection in our opinion with what we have been given.

& now i see that in a way, my friends were the ones saving me. They would say things like "Lerch take it easy man." & "You could learn from it but dont go crazy"

On campus at college i was trippin i got the chance to walk amongst salicious  cuties but i thought it best to convince em with scriptures because i thought their behavior could lead them to daner.

& now i $ee that i excluded myself from awesome adventures  
& i read the book too much
But thankfully it has taught me much
& it has left a bright shiny stain on my soul

I cant read it anymore. But i always notice when its around.
& i think i see signs sometimes.
Somtimes their so obvious ya cant deny em. But isn't all in your mind?

So many times i imagine God coming out of the sky. Will he ever come? Ah shadap & Get a job ya ***. If he comes at least he'll find you working ya ***.

Aw yeah just pray every morning & every night before bed, Aha. & when you eat too. That'll make you feel better. Give great thanks. & maybe your god wont be so mad at you when he comes out of the sky.