I hope one day you’re able to see how I feel everyday, I am alone walking down this dark path. My hearts made of glass and it’s shattering, I waited for the day you were ready to fix the connection we never had. I feel like I’m at the bottom of hell I cry everyday in my room wishing you never picked up those pill bottles but you did mom, I prayed every night to have the old you back but now I can’t even look at your pictures without getting angry. When I used to look you in the eyes you always had a blank stare and that’s when I knew you lost yourself, I know the drugs held you captive. Drugs took you from all of us and we needed you, you gave up everything you ever had for those pill bottles how could you momma? At night I think about everything you’re missing in my life, I need you for all of this but you’re gone forever. I lost nana and that lady meant everything to me, she’s also missing out on my life. I feel angry everyday I think of how I could have saved you but the one day I didn’t wake up is the day you died, I feel broken from all the way down from the bottom of my heart I always cry out to you, you won’t be coming back. I want all of this to end but the voices in my head tell me I am going to end up dead, save me before I fall. I love you to pieces I know I must let the anger out I wish I didn’t feel this way, I miss you until we see each other soon.❤️
-Love Amya-
