I remember you, in the night last September.
It was cold, and you tasted
of the alochol we had illegally sipped
Smiling at each other over gem-rimmed bottles

I remember when we kissed, for the first time
That night in September
And it warmed me to my bones, and I could have stayed there
with you
forever

I remember your hands, last September
Touching the burning skin of my cheek, hooked in the belt loops
of my faded blue jeans.
I remember your eyes,
How they found the brightest star in that starry, starry sky,
And how your voice, whispered,
"That one's ours."
Your fingers fluttered at the hollows of my hips,
cold,
because you'd given me your jacket, and you
were freezing.

I remember you last September.
I knew you last September,
And I wish I had known myself.

I remember how it ended, when it ended,
That morning last September, so soon
after it began, "I've been thinking..."
And I remember, last September


hating you.

We are so young yet
Feel so done
Each milestone wraps a bow
Around an old run finalized
Let's take the new one for a spin
A journey untouched is just one to begin

We've waded in the waters of everyday
So boring, so gray
We want alochol!
The ferment of life,
Let me lull in it all
Let me dive in and feel
The bubbles in my nose
The fizzing of my mind
The growing of my carelessness
The numbing of my toes

Sip it, hold the fruit of life
It's heavy and dense but easy to slice
The skin is a facade, a
Surface just longing
To be punctured
Be prodded
Peel away all its wronged

So strange
How the flesh of our lives is repitition unearthed
But from my deirvation,
A new life,
I give birth.

I'm tired and ready.
It's that time in my life
To move on and move forward,
To forget my strife.

Pack up my stuff.
Get ready to go,
the only place that makes sense;
Mexico.

So fun, so sunny,
laid-back and carefree.
tequila shots and beer
lined in front of me.

exactly what I need
yet I still find it tough.
so much alochol
yet somehow sober enough.

Sober enough to remember
you're still in my mind
Pain, heartbreak and self-pity
I wish I  left behind.

I grab a drink and guzzle some more
the last thing to do
is stay sober enough
to be reminded of you.

It pains me to think
I miss you calling me pretty
despite what happened
it still seems a pity

A vacation no more and instead a waste
For I am in my perfect place
And I will never
get to see your face.

It all makes sense now
I'm sober and aware
shots or not,
I still figure it unfair

Mexico was my solid solution
but you had to mess up my perfect plan
im sober, staring at the sunset alone
and  have written your name in the sand.

Only Three Types
Of Drugs I'm Trying
To Stay Away From
****
Alochol
And You.

Sometimes I just get so angry
I am the storms and thunder of planet Earth
Evolving into lava erupting volcanos and leaving cities to dust and silence
As if my screams were tsunamis flooding the world to an end
It only ever damages my beating heart

Sometimes I just get so sad
I am the rain falling on the brokenhearted harbor
which everyday deals with the bipolar pattern of the tides
As if I am a neverending fall and my way of turning the greys to emptiness
It only ever damages my wandering soul

Sometimes I just feel too much
As if my insides burn and I keep pouring alochol on the fire
Sometimes I just feel nothing at all
As if I have become nothing and I will continue to forever float between time and space

If only my soul would wander to the rescue of my heart's beat