drifting along
I allow my feet to take me
forward into the unknown
hoping for only the best
as i try to lift my head
only to keep it afloat as
my eyes immediately
look back to the ground
the weight on my back
grows heavy while the cloud
on my shoulders falls lower.
short shallow breaths define
my unsettled state
the uneasiness that is keeping me
i desperately close my eyes
praying to vanish in the
evening dusk fully blending
with the trees and thick air.

All i want is for you to sing me to sleep

rock me back and forth ever so gently

like the waves of the deep blue sea



All i need is your peaceful lullaby

healing the wounds i have inside

taking me over like high tide



You be the water and i'll be the land

you be the ocean and i'll be the sand

we'll stay side by side year round

even when the waves come crashing down



All i need to hear is a guitar strum

my silly fears i'll overcome

and you will warm me like the island sun



All i want is a tiny spark

to continue the beating of my fragile heart

and protect it like a great white shark



You be the water and i'll be the land

you be the ocean and i'll be the sand

we'll stay side by side year round

even when the waves come crashing down



Can you sing me to sleep my dear?

your voice is all i need to hear

Can you sing me a sweet farewell?

I'll listen to you like I do the shells



You be the water and i'll be the land

you be the ocean and i'll be the sand

we'll stay side by side year round

even when the waves come crashing down



and when your loving melody

sends me out into the sea

do not try to rescue me

for that is where i want to be

I dread these days
where the weather changes
and my new found family
falls away.
Each year it begins the same
colors changing, the air cooling
I cringe inside hoping to
hold on to each member.
Ultimately I am left alone.

Bare, naked, exposed
to the brutality of the
cold winds flowing
every which way as
thick white fluff surrounds
my base, lengthening
my chill for weeks.
Every now and then
I am filled with hope
as the sun rises.

Beams of light are everywhere
warming me to the core
as the icicles melt away.
Continuous showers provide
nutrients so accessible
that eating feels easier than breathing.
I am strong and passing
life on to my new family.

Small buds are now
open in full bloom
creating safe havens
for friends whose songs
tell tales to be passed on.
Each day someone new
comes by to rest in my shadow,
eat from my leaves, or live
among my new family.

I dream of moving

with you into our

own place

it would be marvelous 

to wake up to you

each and everyday.

I close my eyes and

imagine it all coming true

And then I look at my

bank account and my

heart skips a beat

because there is money

there waiting for this

but not enough.

I worry about the future

sustaining each month

on my current pay.

I am ready for more

money to come.

your finger points at me
and my body trembles
my eyes well with tears
as I bury my head to hide
my face - I don't want
to be seen like this
I'm upset for your loss
and feel fully responsible.

my ears no longer allow
the words traveling in the air
to enter.
i don't want to hear this news.
disappointment has consumed
every inch of my body.
i feel as if the clock rewound
and i am now a child
upset because i cannot get
what i want at this moment.
a tantrum brewing inside me.
each breath i contain myself
holding in my rage, anger, sadness.
my mind races for solutions.

The heat left a haze of illusion
As she walked the line between breakdown and motion
The ocean yielded it's breeze
She staggered through hell or so it seemed
Yet around her there was peace

Eyes cast down due to blinding light
That takes so much from her
Yet she's still game to fight
For she knows soon there will be night

Oh distant sun
I ode to thee
While sweating out my impurities
Where once I'd flee
I now welcome rays
Please carry me off to another place

I want a life
With hope
And happiness
I want a life
With love
I want a life
With a blooming spring,
A brighter dawn
And a dream to hug the sky with