this day is full of
fake love
plastic hearts
stress
loneliness
unanswered questions
sadness
and self pity

created by a
brand - name business
so they could
get more money
from the poor suckers
who fall for this crap

most of what they created
is pain and misery


(i'm just in it for the chocolate)

if you would
wrap your arms
around me
and whisper
sweet little things
in my ear

i try not to think about you
before i go to sleep

because then you might
be in my dreams

those few seconds
in the morning,

before i wake up fully
and think that it really happened,
that you really did love me

and then realizing that you don't
all over again,
it's just too painful.

I want to be with you

in the night.

watch the starts
and just
breathe.

together.

i think about you
all the time

i imagine the way
you would look at me if you loved me.
the way you would purposefully
brush past my elbow
when we passed by each other.
the way you would say my name,
cherishing the sound in your mouth.

i wonder if you ever
think about
me.

i want you to love me,
try to deny it,
and fail.
terribly.

i want you to catch my eye
in the hallway
and wink

i want you to give me
that look
when someone is making a fool of themselves
and we are trying desperately
not to laugh

i want you to watch my lips
when i talk
and try to imagine
what it would be like
to kiss them

until you finally get up
the courage
to go ahead and do it

i want you to hold my hand
the special way
with our fingers intertwined

i want you.
i want us.

your hair is so perfect

i love those curls
that you keep mostly hidden
under your
ever - present
hats.

all i can think of
is
kissing you
and running my fingers through
your hair

i want to be the only person
you will let near it
i want you
to pretend that
it bothers you
but secretly love
how much
i would play with it

i want to kiss you
and run my fingers
through your hair