im a violent downpour
And the sound of my voice is a lure
I'll invite you in,
so I can mess with your mind,
Because I'm tired of what's on mine
I'm damaged and damaging all at once

I'll uproot your home
And your family will always ask what happened
in the debris, you'll search for an answer.

A melody will still play in the wind,
And the sounds that run around will stick in your head
You'll wonder how you ended up with no love in your heart.

You'll wonder for years if you're ever going to recover
It's not smart to stay outside in the middle of a hurricane.
But you'll stay forever because you think you love the chaos.

i spent my entire life trying to run from myself,
but these days it's so hard to find myself.
i am out of my head,
becoming a blanket of red.
i am surrounded my caution tape.
and i can't distinguish love or hate

for now i'm high and flying well
it's only a matter of time before i walk through hell

my fingers bleed after touching your skin.
you are made of razor blades,
but i keep coming back for more
your talk is made of cloudy nights
and i drive without headlights.

claim to be open to things
claim to be accepting of difference
claim to be radiating of love and hope
and then show hate at this first chance you get

Lately. It's been easier to keep things to myself.
I don't want your advice.
All I wanted to do was vent
It's so much easier if I don't speak
So I won't have to answer your questions.

Oh no I'm getting too obsessive
He's not even "into me"
He's such a good guy,
I should try to talk to him everyday.
Okay. No. You're lucky you're friends.
This other boy likes this singer I like
It's enough to empty my mind,
Nails into the mattress ..
The way he keeeps digging his way back into my conscience,
he doesnt think about me like this.
I can choose another drink,
This boy in the Nike grey sweats at the gym,
He can help me forget that
this boy is everything I need.

Definitely shouldn't get caught up.

I can't erase the summer I spent,
Where I knew I'd be left behind.
My mind was up for rent,
memories stuck. played on rewind.

sometimes I'm reminded of how You did.
you apologized, anD you cried.
It doesn't compensate for the nights I laid
Face down in a pillow for days, no one on my side.

maybe I get it.
But I don't. All that it was I was ignored
And I think about when we sat in the parkinglot.
And I felt angry at you for crying.

You knew you were ******.
You didn't know I was on the verge.

Someday you'll understand