im trying to breathe slow while living fast
I'm taking it all in,
And I'm not angry anymore

we live for the weekend
and all the days in between
I'm not alive just to survive,
We live for the night skies and
We live for the morning breaks.

I couldn't slow down if I wanted to.
I have two jobs, school, and a social life
It's 2 AM and my thoughts don't stop.
Sometimes I wish it all could
Stop.
Most people can't keep up,
But if you relax for a second
You fall apart and
i run off energy drinks and melatonin
But I still can't sleep and my eyes are burning

I don't have time to think sometimes.
I learned how to live off a total of 6 hours of sleep
For an entire two weeks.

I couldn't live any faster than this.

you make me feel like you're all that I need when you text me drunk at 4 AM
and during the day you play with my head,
Sober and able, and
Why did you start drinking so much?
Did you finally realize that you can't talk about my body without the liquor shots?
And you have excuses if your girlfriend asks you
And you can never make a decision

It's terrifying that songs or poems can be written about you
Someone thought about you so much,
They had to write it down,
You played with their thoughts enough
They sat down and thought about it

my eyes are heavy and watering
But I don't remember the last time I cried
I left my respobilities far too early today
I should feel bad,
But instead I'm staring at a television
With animated figures
All this time I tried to be straight forward
And they called me abstract still

I don't want you to be like the rest
And I'm so scared.
i keep telling myself you, if I fall, you'll fall too
I keep telling myself that you won't be the one loving me when I feel nothing in return.
I keep saying it's gonna be alright
You're not using me while you're fiancée is too far away
Please don't act like you care.
I tell myself you won't cut me off and not speak to me ever again
Please don't be like the rest.