It began to happen during days
Beginners mistake, only adding to the delay
I closed my eyes and the world disappeared
everything I once feared
the dolls eyes are opened wide,
Waiting for a tear to drop from your eye
Perfect perfect
Days are showing their faces
The perfect days are measured by if
You have a foot massage at work

Fast food. No business. Your own hands.
The perfect days are measured by if I can watch a show and have dinner with my coworker.
Close the door. Open the lights.

The nights began to happen during the day.
I felt like I came to life again.    
    Something broke me. Out of the mold

It wasn't you with you cheese splattered canvas
You're a rookie who still doesn't know how to live
My blood came back all at once,
And I'm back full force

It began to happen during the day.
I'd close my eyes and let the waves drown me
Take the happiness and take the sadness
And all at once I let myself feel again.

I'm getting better. I'm gonna be better

I'm breathing again.

I woke up and reality stays by my side,
My new friend and I are determined
To break out of these obstacles
"Keep it real" they say.
Reality is the only friend I can trust anymore.

and everyone began to taste the same
Glazed in alcohol, salted in legal drugs
I never tasted the sunshine again.
they gave me a needle to pick a bone
They gave me a needle to inject my medicine
And my dosage weighed heavily with invincibility.
I told them "no, I never want to feel like that again.
I'm trying to be real. No, I got who I need to get me through this,"
I said. "You want me dead"
And every kiss felt the same.
All their lips were chapped and tasted like
Worn out strawberry sweets.
I said, don't go easy on me, babe.
I love the crazy, it fuels me up
Told you go away, you're insane
He told me stick around, babe
And no one has bit me quite like you since.

girl #1, i'm sorry i hooked up with your boyfriend
you left me all alone with me and alcohol.
boy #1, i'm sorry your ex girlfriend wants me rather than you,
but i don't even want her.
girl #2, i'm sorry i'm going to destroy your marriage with him.
when he's feeling guilty, i hope what he said slips in his conscious.
i hope he can't take the weight of what he did.
oh, it's not your fault, but you'll get by.
you left him all alone and he'll choose me,
besides, you're far far away,
oblivious to what he did.

when I first met you, i hated your voice
i forced myself to love it like i didnt have a choice
i spent all night with you, i dared you to make a move
you did, but it was never enough.

I want to feel your skin pressed against mine
in the worse way, drizzled in vain
Soaked in revenge,
Oh, baby, let me tear you apart
I'm crazy, crazy
unhealthy mindset.
let me teach you love in physical pain is all night,
let me abandon you when you love it
and I'll let your life be ruined
soaked in pain and regret.

theres a boy that just tried to show me everythings gonna be okay
i showed him to pick at my wounds
theres a boy that just tried to love me,
and i showed him how to love anyone that isn't me
it's all in fear, and it's all in good days
when i call a friend up, because i have to think
when i got high with him and tried to stay close
but he came down, and wasn't in the best place
i passed out in the grocery store parking lot
but ****, is this how i want to live?