we are on the same page, on opposite sides
Red and blue, our colors collide
the world is my dream,
with light between my inner thighs
your dreams are warm, swarmed with me

I wanted to remind them of what it was like
to bite-
you know how ice will shell around water?
still breakable, that was me
but I turned to frozen, and when someone tried
to bite.
into me.
they broke their teeth, froze their tongue,
and was warmed by my skin,
and they would fall apart
this is the path i set for myself.
I'm destructive in this sense

call me your strawberry tea
tell me I taste worst than carrot water
grow me, defend me
savour the way we keep getting softer

puncture the herbs
break the stems
wrap your words
sweep away any trace of the trim

break me, baby
feel my skin, warmer than your water
you're so *****,
and i'll pour a spring shower

I just need to fall asleep
At this point it doesn't seem possible
I'm lost in my thoughts, you see?
In the morning I'll focus on this filthiness
it all seems so unsorted

Thinking holds and keeps
stops me from being at least plausible
my eyes bother me
and their unwillingness
to stop my thoughts from being contorted

you are
a thunderstorm with the sun still shining
you feel like
a freezing house with the warmest bed
you talk as if
they could get drunk off the liquor on my lips
you act like
that past year is probably going to mean nothing
we all know
it's not hard to spot a mess,
and you're drawn to be
closer to me.

please don't fade from the things we said
i don't need you, but you're necessary
to keep me breathing steady,
but sometimes i'd rather be dead

sometimes i think to blame this all on you
and sometimes late at night,
i think about how if i just didn't text you,
or if i just got rid of that ticket,
then i could cut this feeling away

but maybe i love the pain that comes with it
it only makes sense that this would pass me

maybe I'm over thinking this whole bit,
but when I texted you the other night,
letting you know you were one of my favorite people,
It seemed like you shrugged it off.

i don't know, maybe there's a lot of analyzation
i can't catch my breath to know or to think
you haven't been the same since then and
i thought we were just getting close

i mean, we confessed a lot and i felt attached
it's not like i didn't hate myself for feeling like i could lean on you
i'm not in love with you like i used to be
and we don't have the same views but
now i feel like i need you.
its not fair.