Excuse me?
You? Yes I'm talking to you.
Do me a favor will ya?
If I asked you never to break a girl's
heart,
Never to bring her hopes up too high
Then to smash it back down
To the group so that her
Glass heart
Will just shatter,
Would you?

strings are played in the background,
the lights dimmed,
shadows twirl into fairy tales
and come to life
where I watch
all alone...
you come at me,
offer me a hand and a handsome smile,
i grab it and we do the swing
as i laugh.
giggling i dance the night away,
young and free, for once.

its when,
i feel the most free,
like im a balloon and can now fly away
far far away into the galaxies that await my arrival,
this is when
it disappears.
punched, shooken, everything goes wrong,
guest yell and scream, running away from
me...
he stares at me and backs away from me slowly,
a monster.
i look down.
I have melted off my costume, my mask,
and all thats left
are my scars, the blood,
a living hell.
i look up and away.
I grab his hand and drag him back with me
to the hell that i belong in.

I've been thinking a lot lately,
I miss you.
Remember our talks?
Yea those ones.
They made me so happy,
happier than you would know,
and I was so glad,
that for once,
I was helping someone,
making their day better rather than
******* everything up like I always do.
You moved.
I stayed with you,
your one hopefully long term friend.
Then you left.
You left me with a message from you, written by your brother,
you were in the hospital.
and now you're gone.
I miss talking to you,
that one silly conversation we had
powerful combinations, and awesome magical abilities.
I want to help you,
to keep that promise and be your one long term friend,
get you through those tough times and all that moving.
Let's talk again sometime soon, k?

;* Pauline

How can I show you
How much you mean to me
When all I can do is
tell you?

I will always be okay
when you are here with me.

Just needed to tell all you guys, thank you so much for all your support! :) It means a lot and has really helped me through the tough times!! I love all you guys!!! <3 if you guys ever need help or just want o vent/rant, just message me, and we shall figure things out ;D

^'cause you can tell I'm not good with this type of stuff... idk what to say or how to end this... merp..._ err umm sorry I'm awkward.....?

I'm breathing heavily,
heaving,
unable to face what I have just done.

Here in this day
I can feel the way your breath hitches
on every message
I can see your eyes smile with joy
and the way your mouth curls up
into that smile no one really knows.
The things I live for-

Hey guys,
its been awhile. Things have changed
for me
things arent the same as they were
just only a few months ago
when I was staggering and stumbling
around
trying to figure my way through

I've finally found myself
found the things ive been looking for all along
to feel loved to be loved
to find friends and family amongst thieves and beggars

Ive really hit the gold guys
and im so thankful for all of hellopoetry because you guys all helped me
through my toughest days
and supported me throughout.
it was here that I met my best friends
and my boyfriend,
it was here that I got to meet amazing people and amazing works.
I am grateful.

The know-it-all's don't really know it all.

I want to play you like a record,
trace every groove,
listen to all the secrets you tell me,
treasure you forever.

I always joked about getting run over by a car.
I didn't really mean for it to happen.
So when you got hit by a car who
Couldn't ******* stop at a red light,
I died a little bit as well.
You didn't know it,
But I sat on your shoulder and watched your days go by,
Helping,
Watching,
There.

When you got hit,
I got hit too.
We are in this together.

Sleepless nights lying awake in bed
trying to get another glimpse of the boy
that stole my heart
hoping that something will end the aching soon
knowing that sleeping will only just make me hurt more
for the dreams are too hard to bear-
they remind me so much
of what I want
but can't have-
at least,
not soon enough.

Trying trying ever so hard for a smile,
A flicker of appreciation,
A hint of pride and
Satisfaction.
But who ever said it was easy?

Why do I try so hard, when it yields nothing
But my never ending tears?

Where are you?

Was I really worth it?
All the drama,
All the tears?

Cause you seem genuinely happy
Now that you have let me go.

a chasm deep in my chest
opened up
when i heard you moved on.

that you have a new ******* your arm now
that she has glasses, is short-- kinda
kinda reminds me of me

maybe, maybe
she reminds you of me,
who knows?

but thinking of you holding her in your arms the way you used to,
her fingers trailing your collarbone the way i did,
laying kisses down on it as if she was walking down the line
the way i used to...
you, stealing her away from a quick embrace in a dark corner, a long, passionate and forbidden kiss masked by the darkness and away from the bleary lights

will you love her the way you never did me?

At first it was just a caress.
He stroked my throat as I shivered.
His hand came closer,
His fingers reaching further.
And before I knew it
His whole hand palmed my neck.
It was light at first,
Like a scarf, warm and pleasant.
It grew tighter,
And tighter,
And now its too tight,
Wound like a boa constrictor around my neck,
It tightens each day.
Too hot, too much pressure, those sweaty palms clamping down like jaws...
I'm starting to lose conciousness,
Starting to fade and to give in,
To drown in obscurity...

Help...
I need clarity...

It's been such a long time
Since I've actually felt
At ease.
To actually feel calm,
Relaxed,
And excited for what the day has to bring.
All I can do is smile,
And all I want to do is smile.
Mt heart finally landed on cloud nine again
After such a treacherous journey
Up in to the clouds,
It can finally sink into the soft
Whispy clouds,
And be held
And be at home.

Never has the smile been so forced
Perched upon sadness
Teetering into joy
But not quite.

When I was younger,
I had a nightmare,
Filled with enchanting bugs
That overwhelmed my being.
I realize now that it was
Never a nightmare,
But reality uncloaked.

The only crime I can really accuse you of is stealing my heart.

The body that was once
Very much alive
With smiles all around
No wears a butter scowl
Contaminated with festering pus.

You think you've escaped hell?
-cackles-
I've only just got started.

Don't make me the big bad wolf,
blowing down all the houses,
just to get in.
All I wanted was to be there for you.
Not to break all the houses.
But,
I guess if I have to,
I will.

Let me in,
let me help.
I'll scare all the demons away,
I swear it.
I'll make sure that you
are happy,
and smiling.
Just please...
let me in.

She told her that she will save her,
She will carry away all her worries,
Soothe away all her problems,
And bring a smile to her face
always.

She promised never to leave.

She also stopped caring
When the crows came knocking
Kicking down doors,
Tearing her heart apart.
She stopped caring.

Guess that's why she is crying.

What more can wishes do
But to state the obvious?

you, (1)
yeah you, (2)
Is it just me (4)
or is he a *******? (6)
but yet... im addicted to him... (8)

To you, I don't have an opinion any more.

The city is covered in grime,
Layers and layers of dark
Nasty residue and smog
That clothes the air,
Scratchy breaths in and out of our lungs,
Till our heart beats in unison with the sinister things that lurk in midnight alleyways...
It's a leech,
A demon sent from hell to contaminate this once fair city...
It weaves in and out
Through and through,
Possessing
Minds, souls, hearts of the people and anything else it can get its hands on...

One day, I met a girl,
A bright little thing,
Shivering against the imminent
Shadows that were bound to
Overcome her soon enough... She stood afar from me,
But I could feel
the warmth and strength radiating from her...
I stared as she glowed,
Ethereal, but not oblivious.
She has survived the birdcage we all live in, scars everywhere
To tell her story for all those
Struggling, drowning in the utter madness that seemed to claw its ways into all of us.
She turned away,
And the spot of comfort like a warm blanket on a
cold winter night,
Faded away with her.

You only ever used me.
But I'm done being used.

I am in a circle of agony.

As I venture out, I am forever drawn into the center,
centrifugal forces area lie--
I can never seem to flee, but I am rather so attracted
to that pinpoint of melancholy
that seems to resonate with me
too much to be healthy,
too much to make sense.

As I look back at our mess,
the storm we created,
the whirlwind of excitement
and pain and hurt and toxicity
(but the love was there)
all I see now are a mumble of black and red,
the words mixed and blurred,
the meaning nixed.

It is in this chaos,
I feel safe.

Come back to me later.

The figures round about
In and out of my mind
Like tendrils of smoke
Coiling in curls
Turning figures into question marks
That wrap around my fingers like rings
Which I wear and hold with pride.
The rings that shape me
And who I am today.

One day, I hope
We will meet again,
And we will talk all day
And love and laugh...

Whatever happened to all of us?

Who knew?
Just being there for someone
Is enough to make their day
And for them to love you.

It hurts,
A constant aching
Sharp, like a thorn in your side,
Casually corroding you carefully made
Walls away.
It's eating me away,
Heavy on my chest,
Pressure on my eyes.
...
I'm not done with hello yet,
So please don't go.