I can't find the words to explain
This thing I do.
It's not like there's a purpose to it
No real happy ending
But still it continues.
This back and forth repetition
And it works.
Even though it really doesn't.
Because its pathetic,
truly pathetic
That I am so hooked into you
And for what?
A conversation that ends in anger
Or more pain even.
Because you still love her
But I can't get over you so easily
I've tried.
*And I keep trying.
Ever had that one person that was really nothing but your emotions are telling you otherwise? The one who hurt you but you just keep wanting to go back for more? 'Just one more conversation' you tell yourself as the text sends. And it never ends well.
The first two 'I's were originally 'we's but then I realized it isn't really her, it's me.
And for the most part I am over it. But there's those few days when I'm not. And today would e one of them.