I was gonna give up smoking
when that clock struck midnight.
Rash and unhindered.
But the smoke in my lungs
tastes just the way I remember
you and it echoes the promise
I made a year previously,
when the clock struck midnight
and I vowed to always be by your side.

they say i’m worth it
and to just quit being sad
but if they missed you like i do

never mind you can’t do that

they see a good person
one who’s nice
and sweet
but i need a mirror
to see what they see

never mind you can’t do that

they tell me they’re proud
and that i’ve come a long way
when in reality
i haven’t done much of a thing
so if there’s someone out there to help
i need you to prove

you can do that

You're so far,
I can't breathe.
I need your light,
So I can see.

Keep me warm,
Keep me close,
Hold me tight,
Don't let go.

You love her.
Won't let go.
I love you.
You'll never know.

☆。★。☆。★
。☆ 。☆。☆
★。＼｜／。★
Steal away my oxygen
Can't breathe when I'm next to you
Let me envelope you like a note,
Gravitate closer, be your atmosphere
Pull me around you like a warm jacket
Button me in
To keep out the cold
Of the night
Look at the
Constellations
Aren’t they so bright?

But, you know what I think?
The most beautiful skies
Are inside of your eyes

Stop, don’t blink
Let me sink a little deeper
I don’t need a telescope to see
That supernova
Expanding infinitely

Like a ripple that a pebble makes
The clicking shutter
That takes all of me in
Houston, we have a problem
I can’t escape this black hole
It’s pulling me in

I’ll reach out into that darkness
Brave all of your ice and coldness
For that little cosmos with veins of gold;
Shades of blue,
Green and brown,
So simple,
Nonjudgmental as a penny
That’s been left out in the rain
Many times before

Once more
I’ve caught your glancing flit
Asteroids approaching
I take a direct hit
Falling endlessly, consumed
Among the billions of stars in your eyes

Like Major Tom, I would accept that fate,
To float in limbo
Lost in that space
Out of sight

If worm holes existed
I’d sink through all that
Depth,
Come through the other side

And find that alternate universe--
The dimension where you would have me.
There is no corner of space to call home without you

Three.
Two.
One.

Lift-off.
★。／｜＼。★
。☆。 。☆。
☆。 ★。 ☆.

those of the nobility
of such refinement and susceptibility
they revel in sublime love
expressed in sonnets and exquisite epics
But we, the comics,
the mundane, the ordinary, the clown and the fool
we love like coffee desires teeth to stain
like birds love to poo on cars*


1
I love you like the snail
loves its shell
I’d like to creep into you
and always stay inside

2
And I love you back
like the pig loves its sty
and the mud and the filth it rolls in
I love you like the pig in the wild
loves its leaves, roots and fruits in its diet  

3
O I love you always
like itch loves skin
like dust loves the table
like tongue loves to lick the lips

4
And I love you back
like barnacles love bottoms of ships
like underwear clings to the organs
like the dog loves a bite


*And now that this serenade
of such elemental love is done -
do you fancy we could lie down
on the hay in the barn
and have a vigorous and quick one?

The journey suddenly ends
With truth almost in hand
A truce of silence now put in place
A final veil of silk remains
Glimpses of truth dance on the threads

The journey came to a rightful end

Others took notice
My quest was done
The point was made
That’s all that was needed to be done

The journey came to the right end

One might make a difference
Uniquely my value shined bright
Smiling I thought what a perfect night
My imperfections made it so alright

The journey had to stop that night

I wonder what they saw that night
It hard to see one’s own light
Especially on that night
For rage blinded me that night

It had to stop right there that night

What gave them the ******* right?
They hung me on a cross of pain
Just to see what I might do
Once again I paid the price for all of you

The journey should never have been needed

A smile led to laughter that filled the void
Turning I waved goodbye to them
Surely I must be staking raving mad
One can only hope and dream

*Insanity is a tough cross to bear

Yes she’ll tell him that
next time tell him about
it all but until then she’ll
let him stew let him think

he has it all in the bag let
him think he’s won the
battle but she knows he
knows only half the game

she knows that much more
and anyway the war’s in
her sights now the game
is almost won she draws

on her cigarette lets the
smoke hit the back of her
throat feels the air about
her hears the music from

the other room as out in
the streets others celebrate
the New Year in their fashion
she hears their voices raised


their songs sung drunkenly
but he is but a loose page in
her book a mere footnote
in her book of life as if she’d

consent to be his lover or his
wife he thinks it’s almost on
the cards almost in the bag
but she knows better knows

how the game ends then thinking
back to her childhood as she
blows out smoke her father’s
dull eyes his voice filtering into

her dreams his hand punching
or smacking or lending the black
or blue her mother dull witted
saying nothing not knowing what

to do scars of her childhood leak
and ooze their memories and aches
and pains and dark corners and fears
as she inhales the smoke again yes

she’ll tell next time maybe if the
mood takes her she’ll wait and see.