I'll no more worry myself of this!
For as I've ambled across life's rocky roads, I've come to realize, only one overruling factor matters!
Will it be a positive in my life?
Making me happy?
Then why should I care how others see me?
I'd rather ask myself do I admire myself?
For I need to be the one I'd look up to!
Then surely how others see me would anyhow be of good standing?
Noble actions will result in one owning a clear conscience.

I fear not what others think!

I'd be proud to say I am the person I portray!

They by no means should be!

Yeah

But it's what our lives become!
That awesome unity we once called us❤️
We lead these busy lives forgetting how dear it is!
Truth is is in that survival and need to provide we almost loose that so precious to us, and sometimes sadly do!
As cat Stevens sang~
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not.

How apt lyrics are to our hearts desires, some never expressed
But none the less.
But I need need to write my own!
Providence sang~ "My Dream Is You"
I write from deep within and my closet lyrics so apt ~
"My dream is us"
Yet we pass each other by
On life's busy road with little action taken and given even less fuss!
So I'll write you a love sonnet
Maybe with a bit of a dare
I'll muster up the courage
And even share
Oh yes in a perfect world
My dream is us
I'll shout it out
No more I'll let us pass each other by!
Our love won't just be another whispering secret
Oh no!
I'll shout it out!
No roof tops high enough!
This is real!
This is love!
This ain't a bluff!!!!!
Yeah my Dream is us!!!

Lies have me ripped to shreds,
Not mine! but of me!
As  if I lied!
Guilt be your enemy here!
But clear conscience i do have!
But who cares!
I care to no end and it hurts!
But who cares!
I long for you and it hurts!
But who cares!
Dont want to do the unthinkable and almost cant resist!
But who cares!
Life now so lonely!
But who cares
Been tortured treated like a dog!
As a slapegoat of your own agenda!
Second time this has now been my fate!
Powerless i dont even get the opportunity to defend myself!
You say you angry and wont meet me!
I'm sure rather guilt won't allow you to face not me but the truth!
Worse than all that! I cry in anguish as not for that hurt! But rather in longing for you!
Missing you so much it tears through me relentlessly!
Last time I proved a social misfit I put up barriers as not to allow anyone in, now I think safer to remove myself from society! Don't see how! don't know how!
Everything hurts even breathing! Not an easy task as I have to do it consciously far more than average, as sleep is hardly an option or rarely possible!
But who cares!

As this new year dawns on us and all that's on in my life, it brings me to think, why wait ?
Why do we wait to make New Years resolutions?
Call our friends and family
Wishing them
Surely this should be a daily thing?
We too easily for all the reasons we can think of let this pass us by! Be it busy work schedules and whatever else life puts in our way.
Yet we loose someone and we wish we did so much more!
My New Years resolution is to let my loved ones know how much I love them & miss them! As much as I can!

But why wait

Hey I love you miss you all so much

Been there done that, got the t-shirt, hmmmmm no !
T shirts wear out fade end up in tatters
Life doesn't, it adapts, we just to often far too weak to see it!
Hmmmm maybe the only part relevant to the saying is if we don't take hold that at all we end up in tatters! We the become the t-shirt!

How about been there done that got a trophy to prove it !
Even if I failed there's a trophy
Cause I came back strong here to fight another day!
Sure to find a the way, or get up again and put another trophy on life's mantlepiece,

It grows
Is real

ITS WISDOM

We meet individuals who claim to our friends!
But how many can Really hold that tittle?
For even I find myself falling short at times of what a true friend should be!
However!
If we carry this badge, it should be with much honor and pride.
Yes we can’t always be super friends, we will make mistakes!
But if we hold the virtues of friendship dear and have good values as to what a friend should be.
We can hold our heads high knowing,
We might fail at times,
But I am sincere , and to those I hold dear,
I strive mostly to be:
Caring
Sincere
Fun
Uplifting
Available no matter distance or situation
Understanding
Non judgmental
We try listen
And more so from the heart!
For many thing might be said!

I might not be the richest or most popular!
But I remain Me!
And always strive to be as real as possible!

Yours truly
Your Friend