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 Nov 2013 reyna
AJ
I can't breath.
I can't ******* breath.
I feel like I should be freaking out.
Like the
Kicking
Screaming
Lock me up
Because I'm going crazy
Kind of freaking out.
I just feel really calm
And ice cold
And slow
And shaky.
I can't breath though
I CAN'T ******* BREATH.
I can't
brea
th.
Please help me.
I don't know what happened.
I don't know what he gave me.
I don't know why it happened.
I don't know why I did it.
I am an awful person.
I CAN'T ******* BREATH.
It was so slow.
I can't
remem
ber
it
all.
I don't remember when he came back
In the room.
I really don't.
I can't remember
The point where he
I CAN'T ******* BREATH
Got on top of me.
He was just there.
I don't know.
I DON'T REMEMBER.
I was almost asleep.
WHAT DID HE GIVE ME.
I can't remember anything
With any detail.
I ALWAYS REMEMBER DETAILS
I CAN'T BREATH.
I don't remember it all.
I can remember the things he said
And I can remember where he
I CAN'T BREATH.
I CAN'T ******* BREATH.
WHY IS NO ONE COMING TO HELP ME.
started to **** me.
Why did I let him do it.
I DON'T REMEMBER THIS.
I NEED HELP.
I don't remember screaming.
I really don't.
I don't remember them coming in.
I don't remember all of the guys tearing him off me
And throwing him against the wall
And starting to hit him.
And Adam rushing me out to his car.
I don't remember hearing him scream in pain
As I left the room.
I don't remember falling asleep in the back of the car.
I don't.
I ruined my life.
It's all my fault.
I CAN'T BREATH.
SOMEONE ****
ING COME HELP
ME I CAN'T
*******
BREATH.
PLEA
SE.
I don't remember everything.
It just feels like.
I don't ******* know.
It's just so unclear.
There's one thing I do remember.
But I promise
I don't remember when I started to scream.
I just felt like I wanted to die.
I didn't know where anyone was.
WHERE IS EVERYONE.
I don't remember screaming.
PLEASE
******* SOMEONE.


I can remember him covering my mouth.
I CAN'T ******* BREATH.
WHY IS NO ONE HELPING ME.
I
CAN
'T
****
ING
BREA
TH
PLEASE
SOME
ONE
*******
HEL
P
M
E.
 Nov 2013 reyna
AJ
Up to a point
We spend our whole lives searching for superman.
He's hard to find,
But his cape isn't completely invisible.
You can see a tiny bit peeking out from his collar.
He's already been about a kajillion people.
A mom who made you
Macaroni and cheese when you're sick.
A teacher who yelled at the other kids
When they said your glasses were stupid.
The little boy who sat with you at lunch
On your first day at that new school.
The big brother who threatened to beat up
The creepy boy who gave you your first kiss.
That first boyfriend who was there
When your cat died sophomore year.
Superman is almost impossible to find.

But then you hit that point.
Remember when I said
"Up to a point"
Well this is the horrible part.
I mean, it's god awful.
Superman gets really annoying at this part.
It's going to make you want to scream.
Just bare with me on this one.

He puts the cape
On you.
Oh yes.
Now you're superman.
Could anything be worse?
Now there is no one to save the day.
Now you must make your own macaroni and cheese,
Stand up for yourself,
Make your own friends,
Deal with your own relationships,
And handle your own emotions.

I bet your mind is churning now.
You see what I mean.
You've probably hit this point.
Now by this point,
I was furious.
I bet you are too.
You see,
You don't want to be superman.
So this is what you do.
You reject the cape.
But unfortunately for you,
Superman used some super glue.
This is permanent.

Ugh, right?
And now you're going to put all of your time
And all of your energy.
Angrily trying to figure out
Who put this cape on your back.
But you don't really want to know who.
What fun would that be
Just to scream it out
And still be left with the responsibility?
It's good to have a faceless name.
What you really want is to be mad.
I know that my favorite game
Is the blame game.
And I'm willing to bet yours is too.

What we really need to do
Are you ready for the plot twist?
Is realize that we were already Superman!
Remember the time
You did your little sister's make up for her first dance,
Or when you stayed up all night on the phone
Listening to your friend vent about her stress,
Or when you picked up the flyers
That the lady at the restaurant dropped in the street,
Or when you lent that kid two dollars
So that he could buy lunch.
Or when you went home for a visit
Just because your mother missed you.

It's been us all along.
Did you see that coming?
I sure didn't.
*****, *****, *****, *****, ***** and moan
about us drinking all the milk
that you didn't help pay for
and then drink each last beer
that you didn't help pay for
while the guy who bought them and got to drink none
is busting *** at work
making him able
to buy yet more things
for you to take for granted.

With friends like these..

By the way,
where's the last few months' rent?
You know, for all the months sense your parents stopped payin' it?
Oh, I'm sorry,
I didn't mean to assume
that you would assume some responsibility
like the rest of us
to whom you ceaselessly complain
about how un-*******-fair
your spoiled ******* brat lifestyle is.

You can't even keep a plant
you want for personal reasons,
so how is it even fair to assume
you could get and keep a job?

How foolish of me!

At least you can roll a good joint
with **** you didn't acquire
and papers you didn't buy.
A ******* professional, you are.

By the way,
that soldering iron
you neglected to leave the house to pick up
would be ******* fantastic to have,
but even a walk half a mile to the post office
is too ******* strenuous
for you.

By the way,
do you want ants?
Because your heap of cans, bottles and dishes
is a great way to get ants,
but you get all vindictive and indignant
if anyone tries to clean "your space"
in my ******* house
you haven't even paid to live in
for many months.

While Money is far from everything,
and I wish it was a non-issue,
kindness and good intentions
will not even begin to pay
the bills, the mortgage
or these exorbitant Californian property taxes;
and, even if they did,
I fear you'd still fall
rather short.

Perhaps-
no, not even perhaps:

I've been far too nice far too long
to people who couldn't be ******
to show some ******* respect.
"You're ***** deep in muddy waters, ******' hypocrite."
-The *** by Tool
Go out and do it
rather than just talking a mediocre game;
take risks, get knocked down, pick yourself back up, proceed.

Hone your ideas in accordance to natural law.
Try your ideas by the fire of reality.

Anyone can spew *******
Anyone can be idealistic
Anyone can be a poser
but it takes a special breed
to take definite risks
to maybe succeed.
The Love you say you seek
is not what you deserve
The Love you seem to need
is the kind you'd throw away
The Love you say you seek
does not deserve your Love, no
The Love you say you have
is not the Love you've handed out

But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again;

How the young
are so eager to drop their pants
and spread their legs
and call it Love;
They, who wouldn't know Love
if it held a gun right up to their heads.

But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again, Lyssa
But then again,
the closest Lyssa,
who am I to say?
Who- am- I- to- say?

**** others
**** the others;
and **** still others up;
tryin' to fill that void
from which you're on the run
inside

But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,

I think you confuse
Lust for Love and
Desire for Need;
or maybe it's that you're
so shallow,
so hollow
that they're one in the same
to you, Lyssa,
to you, Lyssa,
******* Lyssa,
*******.

But then again,
who am I to say?
But then again,
who am I to say that

The Love you say you seek
is not what you deserve
The Love you seem to need
is the kind you'd throw away
The Love you say you seek
does not deserve your Love, no
The Love you say you have
is not the Love you've handed out

**** others.
**** the others;
and **** still others up;
tryin' to fill that void
from which you're on the run
on the inside

Good luck, Lyssa
Good luck, Lyssa
Good ****, Lyssa
Good ******' luck, Lyssa
Lyssa is the Greek goddess of wrath, rage, fury, raging madness, and frenzy.

T'will be a song.. I woke up at 5 am and wrote it down.
 Nov 2013 reyna
Amanda In Scarlet
Dead-eyed doll
Blankly suspended
In suffocating silence
Not waiting
Not wanting
Catatonic
Cold
Benumbed.
 Nov 2013 reyna
Dominique Celine
What is love?**

Is it the warm feeling you get
in the middle of the night
when you simply imagine his face
illuminating before your eyes,
blinding you to realize what's real
or fake?

Is it the uncontrollable smile you have
when you hear him call your name
as the sound of his gentle voice
carries the name as though it were
fragile as a delicate flower
living through a harsh winter?

Is it the butterflies that flutter in your stomach
as he leads you into
one of those breathtaking hugs
which causes your heart beat
to be off rhythm for just those
everlasting seconds?
I reverse engineer English back together.
It's very difficult to do simple well:

Overthinking
is a folly of the Human condition
just as Underthinking
is a folly of these, our modern times.

We must remember
and return to the ways of
the Natural virtues:
Balance, Respect, Harmony, and Elegance.

Wu wei.

Let it be,
it is fine;
it is we
who need to be
pliant and yielding
all the while retaining
our own individual integrity.

Only then can we, as Humans,
reach our full potential:
It is within our ability
to become Gods. Titans.
Transcendents,
Enlightened Ones;
as Humanity,
the Enlightened.

Good Morning,
Global Consciousness.
So happy to see you've survived the unnaturally long Night.
I hope we remember our dreams;
we sure could use some right about now.
 Nov 2013 reyna
CC Arshagra
"1st Hello Poetry poem posted by C.C. Arshagra"

The heart is clear, and the blame unreal
The mirror is
too… the pool reflects you
Your world to ripple to the touch

The moving still beneath the breathing
Thoughts grasp lungs to hold the air
The fault-line’s severing; ‘Is’ releasing

All the windy while long 

By exhalations’ dusk of time
The inhalations dawn and share

For lightness never parted now

A truth too bare
the trust was here

The honesty perhaps --too naked



And so the real of mind and reason
Enemies of songs you’ve written
Melodies of harm composed
By the very world you have conducted
To befriend your hands are now creating
The universe of all applauding
Every silent moment’s rest


Oh what … now chokes your heart’s become
And who has in the end been no one
Ever loved you as you are
Ever remained by your side
To never ever-judge the world whole
Or live to birth no fault or blame
Or ploy away the friendship
you


Your soul awaits the hug you’ve long for





© Copyright November 12th, 2013 C.C. Arshagra
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from the yet to be determined unpublished manuscript series/project/book
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