I didn't want to study,
Nor did I want to play,
I just sat motionlessly,
For it was a long day.

I didn't want to get up,
Nor did I want to lie down.
I fell like I am breathless,
I'm drowning in the crowd.

People of all the ages,
People that don't even care,
Won't judge what's in my pages,
Why the hell am i so scared?

And I'm hugged by the dark,
Who invited me to stay.
And I snapped out of bed,
It's gonna be a long day.

End of December,
Comes without a word.
With or without her,
Unchanged is the world.

Dove too deep in life,
Too deep in her eyes.
Been too lost in time.
Too lost to realise.

That the blazing cold,
And the freezing sun,
Makes me feel old not,
Makes me feel but none.

And the new year comes,
Like every other.
And this year is done,
Why do I bother?

And he ponders
Day and night
About the meaning of life

Is it to chase happiness?
Study well, become a doctor,
Marry the woman of your dreams?
To care for your very own daughter,
And sow the next set of seeds?

Is it to fulfill your desires?
Sail the roaring seas, conquer every peaks,
Drive the world on your very own tires?
To find the peace you've always seeked,
What more could one man aspire?

Maybe the path is carved already,
Or maybe it isn't.
He has no way to know, really,
Other than to just keep livin'.

Maybe one day he'll find out,
Or maybe he'll never.
Maybe, that's the beauty,
Of forever.

Every time we walked past each other,
My eyes would trade glances with hers.
"What are the chances?" I'd wonder,
Each time, it ends the way it occurs.

I acted like I didn't notice,
And so did you.
But inside I dreamt of moments,
Of us—do you?

For you and I are no longer,
Like rivers flowing to the same sea.
But I won't go against the currents,
And blame the tide for leaving me.

Growing by the hour,
Smelling like heaven came true.
Love is like a flower,
Flowers I'd give to you.

But I loved a flower so much,
I forgot to care for my own.
Dreamed about its perfect petals,
While mine rotted all alone.

Stared up at the celling,
And then down at my phone.
Don't know what I'm feeling,
Guess it's better than none.

And yes, I am happy,
No, I'm not alone.
Academic achiever,
That's for what I'm known.

But why, then, do I feel,
So pointless inside?
Like a single ember,
In the vastness of skies?

Stared out the window,
And then up at the sky.
Can't see what's up there,
Guess I'm losing my mind.