Because of you
I've learnt to
Punish Myself
       ... Alone...

Through the warp'est of ways
Each day we got closer to the right way
Through all the joy, hurt & the pain..
I still loved you the exact same way
(You are enough ~ for me ~ to stay)

Why just only enough??


Coz why do I want more & be greedy??
If I have just exactly enough?!
For anything less..
We both know we won't settle!

(So what if maybe  we are wrong?
Or  be warped..let is be right together)

Having just a little more
Can be seen as greedy
Just enough is just perfect
Coz just a little bit less..
We would be settling for
Mediocre...

So

Just enough...
Is
Absolutely
Perfect!!!

You're not

Perfect

But then

Perfect
is
the
Enemy
of
Good...

Our whole entire existence
We've been preparing the
The Day
Whether it is yours
We celebrating
Or my own...

We've been waiting for it
Expecting it
Since the first time we were born
Now the last day has come eventually

Whether you were striving for wisdom, knowledge, wealth, health or tender care..
Love...

Every choice you made up til now
Has prepared the legacy you now leave behind..

You may leave money
You may leave nothing
As long as you made an impact on those who are spared

Whatever it is
That brought your own personal
Success
I hope  you travel to your next destination
Content with life's despair..

Whether you drink
Whatever you smoke
Whatever you take up your nose
Or have to inject

I hope you leave this world
Knowing you did
...do your utmost best

You never stopped trying
Never gave up
You held on for dear life
Till it was enough

Before your soul
Finds its fitting place
Whether in chaos
Or at
.. peace...

Forgiveness is the key

Self love
Will set you free..

I do not understand
Why God made me this way
Two persons, personalities
Head and heart
One body...

Good and bad
Saint and evil

Heart of gold
And heart of stone

Compationate
Then ice cold

Loving and caring
To not giving a ****

Conviction. Contradiction
Wish one could win

Put all this confusion to an end

The darkness finally pulls you in
Whilst you lay there pondering about your sins

Knowing who you were before
Realizing what you have become

Embracing both worlds
Figuring out
Who would win...

You know who you want to be...
Falling back within
The darkness sinks you in..

Wishing these contradictions
Would just come to an end..

How did you become so weak
Yet strong in sin

Not ready for this world
Changes are so scary...

You don't want to be boring
Yet this life has no meaning

Once ambitious
Now just lost
Drowning in confusion...

Blessed are those
Who look with beauty in their eyes
Who strive for not wealth
But only happiness inside

Blessed are those
Who offers their helping hand
Despite their own struggles

Blessed are those
Who carry their own demons
Yet still wears a mask!