I use to be the one
To brighten everyone's day
Put a smile on their pretty little face

Wipe the tears
Replace the fears

Be their voice
Their standing rock

Make them sing
Bring happiness

Let them believe
There's beauty in everything

How did I become this weak??

I use to be that one
Most people respected
And looked up to

Everyone wanted to know me
Some wanted to be me
And I'm not vain by saying so

I feel different now
I've lost my sense of direction
I've lost my smile
I've lost my voice

I'm just existing now
Not living anymore
I use to have a cause
Now I'm just lost

I no longer have my own opinion
I don't know what I feel
I have lost my ambition
I've given up on me

I use to bring smiles
Now all I see is tears
What happened to me?
How did I become this mean??

I want to write you a poem
Tell you how I feel
But if I only knew...

Its not that I don't love you
Or wanna be without you
If I only knew...

Pushing you away is what I end up doing
Not that I want you any closer
If I only knew...

I am pretty sure this is what I wanted
Convinced that I was ready
If I only knew...

Am I loving you
Or hurting you
If I only knew

What am I suppose to do??

I'm scared of loosing me
My independence
My friends
My personality

It feels like you're controlling me
Distrusting my every move
No matter what I do
It will always be wrong for you

I wanna be the perfect wife
Be your rock when you need me to
Your friend in need

But I'm loosing me...

I use to be free...

I thought that's what you loved about me?!

Now even my friends you wanna choose
Change the way I think
And feel about things too

I still need to be me...
Not a reflection of you..

I haven't had a reason to write
You're happily engaged
My life has also changed

I fell inlove again
Saw a future with that special someone
Just started building myself up
Thought it would be perfect

Amazing how things can change
In a blink of an eye
Once again I just wanna die!

Heart in pieces
Broken inside
Why no tears falling from my eyes??

Suppose I'm use to the pain by now
I don't feel it that bad anymore
It all gets easier in time

I have what I need
My sons unconditional love
The only thing keeping me alive!!

Never have we gone apart like this
Broken you left in an empty home
With no more or less
Than the one word saying yes..

Yes you've left with her
Yes you're making up
Yes you deleted me
And yes you no longer care

Heartbroken I am not
Suspected this would come
My turn to say yes
Yes you're  gone!

Happy and relieved
No more sorrows for me
I hope she treats you
The way you treated me

Yes your day will come
Like any dogs' does...
Hope you living well
Right there in hell!

My son means the world to me
And you almost mean as much

I cannot help but wonder
Why you'd move to her so quickly
But you never did the same for me
Although I always begged you

It has no relevance
You happy now
For that I'd always be thankful

Wish I could be there with you
For you..

But I know
You know
I will always love you..