Expressing my feelings is so hard
The one place where I felt safe
Has been jeopardized

Like all aspects of life
I loose that close to my heart
To the most unexpected

I always preach
Happiness come from within
But what If you have a broken heart
That can not be easily fixed

I don't often feel safe
Only a few got it right

Yet, they are no longer here
Some left in a hurry
The others are in heaven

One day..
I will be up there
And feel safe in His arms

I blame myself for a lot of things
But never blamed myself for loving you
Always wanted what's best for you
I see you are happy now
I always wanted that for you
I always wanted the be the cause of that
Suppose in a way I am
The smile on your face brings happiness to my heart
I'll always be greatfull for the time we had

Its almost been another year
Of excruciating pain endured
Once again
No one realized my fear

I thought you'd always be there
But without you knowing
What happened in my world
You left me out in the cold

Tanya, you were always my number one
That's the one thing I thought you knew for life
Yet, when my world came crumbling down
You left my side without me knowing why

Still sitting in the dark
I lost All my old friends
Never knew getting clean would be this hard
I'm going through hectic changes
All coming from inside

I came to pta
And lost another friend
I was left on the side of the road
With no where to go
No one to phone

Dixon drove by
he felt like my little angel
Tears rolling down my face
He held me close and arranged a hotel

Funny how life turns out
He saved me that night
Even arranged my flight
Going back to PE now
To start my new life

I care for my people ~ just wish they noticed!
I cry when you hurt ~ can't you see my tears?
Feel my presence ~ I'd love to make you smile!
You are my friend ~ therefore I'm blessed!

Broken hearts ~ mend in Time!
Time heals all wounds!
So chin up and smile!
All will get better in a little while!

I've had enough
Its been long enough
I need another
To stray away from you

I came to realize
We have all odds against us
Universe playing jokes with us
Bringing us close
Then ripping us apart

We know we are meant for each other
But can't find a way to be together
So I find another
To stray away from memories with you

But I go home eventually
Just to find myself alone again
Because I can not be with another
I need to be with you!

No matter how hard I try
No matter the amount of tears
Or all the others...
Its still you love!

You are my Lesbian Love
-the only one who could captured my heart-

Tanya ~ it is You I love!

Getting sober has been fun
As being fuckt
It has its pro's and cons
Being fuckt
I knew myself
A was a cold hearted *****
Emotionless I was free
Being sober
Is a whole different me
Its all New
And I can Feel
Being sober
I have realized
Nothing else makes sense
Being without you
Its useless being sober