All it took
That warm serotonin glow
flooded me, my brain
After all the pain
feeling unappreciated, after I gave blood
with my hours and toil that lead nowhere
wondering how to survive these hours
a conversation continued next to me
I didn't hear it

"He said thank you," I said
I wanted to feel that again
And I did, the ecstasy of it
Of approval
Don't you know how I live for this?
I yearn for it
Pathetically, a little girl abandoned
I don't know what was said, next to me

Shouldn't need this
to live off another's words
like they give me permission
to take another breath
to fill the space and
stay alive

already i wish i never knew you.
never looked at you.
never touched you.
never held you.
never kissed you.


already i wish i never showed you how much you mean.

Forever, on and on
That seems so long ago
Back then what was just a dream
Now remains a painful memory

We were perfect together
That's what everyone said
My friends always envious
That our love was so true

Now that you're gone I'm wondering
Was it all true?
Was any of it true?
What is to become of us now?

I still love you
There is no doubt about that
I used to admire your love of acting
But your favorite facade to perform
Was loving me

If I've learned anything from this at all
it's that
I need to find someone like you
someone who knows what good music is

A free spirit who loves life
following it where ever it leads

Someone who lives, loves, laughs, and listens
as I aspire too

I'f I've learned anything from this at all
it's that
there are people like you
out there in the world

that could like me