Reason for my smile
  I can't stop for a while
Nights made
Days better
Inner beauty lasts forever
Harmarita,  Smitten, to the maxxxx
         Cures my ilness
         Gives me hope
       Confidence I can do it !
     I do it in his name
         As though he's in front of me
      Halycon
         Rapture , helll yea
Words tangible towards me heart <3

Bring
Over
Other
Boys sweetheart

Saying I'm useless
Just gave me power
To do better
Thanks

We use to have that
Bond where it was ionic
We attracted much together
Now were covalent
So I hope you could break
Into pieces like I did

Drugged
***
Up now

I avoid ppl
I've been
Officially broken
Now I have to
Rebuild myself
At home

I crumble like everyday
  Tears rolling down my cheeks
  Thinking and knowing that I
  can't have u
   That I can't become what you want me
  To be
  Bad thing is there's nothing for me
  To show my inner glow
   my smiles in my eyes
   The brightness in my  teeth

Well u had asked me out
But is it true
Yo want to be with me
Or is it just another one of your games
To show off a girl you have
I want you to want me your's
Not just so you can post about me

Value
Eaxh
Inch
Now
Safely

Love
It
For
Ever

Beware
Each  evil demon
Under or over the bed
Could haunt u
Forever or scare u permanently

U wonder
In this night
What u doing
Thinking if me
I wish

So I become pre adult
Wednesday
Supposedly
I don't get hooked on scratch tickets
Hopefully I win some green

Flowers
In eternity
Love daisies

You like to be the
Criminal
  Stealing my breath away
Lock me up
  I have restrains
On my neck
Around my mouth

Guilt is all I feel from you
            eats me up & throws out cold tears
                     making me feel guilt
            telling me oh that wont happen
                    How would you know if it can & cannot
          Honestly my mind wants it to be the truth
                 When maybe its not ?
        Is there a way for me to escape it all  
                Guilt is where u leave me @
         When will truth/hope bring me back ?

Each moment
In order to
Be sorta
Crazy typical
Teen
I must
Have any
Type of
Music playing
Throughout
My heart

You make me feel
   Low
  Depressed @ times
  Have me thinking like oh I'll never be good enough
    Not only for you but for any one else I
     Encounter
    Worthless of my existence
    We used to be close for a while
      Even kinda promised me oh
      Make you day
            MORE
                              Often,,,,,
              Now we barely talk...
              Don't wanna tell me what flushed down the drain
     My heart has been cut & can't be fixed wounds
          Wish it was bandaged already  
        How can u be sooo cruel
        Like your pouring salt in them
    I can't stop thinking about what I've done
          This month's supposed to be romantic
         I have a little bit of rage too cause of this
        When your eyes have met mine
         The connection is weird
         I can't take
                        it
            When you had called for her name
            My heart had sunken  a few feet to my stomach
            Your voice when you use her name
            Want that sound in tune of MY name
             Asking what's up but not to me...
              I was in the room before her too
                   Maybe her appearance attracted you
              But tell u this
                                 I'm don't got the appearance  
                         Much but I got heart of gold...

YOUR
The
Knife
Never
Ignorant
Fu*ker
Evil
  that struck through
   My heart
       It keeps bleeding but
   I cant tell that

Ur the tundra
Cold
Tough
Under
Neath
Dreams
Real
Artic
Then I  became sun that
Set  warmth a little
Higher

Oh how March
When spring has sprung
Mild
Appealing
Roots
Cropped
Heat

Ugly gets
Attention
What r u blind
Look at me
But I not
Recognized

As the tears roll down my eyes
     There coming down like a fast waterfall
     From both sockets
  Although I don't know which is flooding more ?
       They say the left side represents pain well it came first to that
        Afterwards the right
     I over hear what you tell your friends
       I got those ears where they tell me the truth
       I don't mix words around like scramble
         Too scared to tell me to the face that you don't wanna in-box me
          Pathetic plain lame
      How long we've known  each other & still can't be honest
           My hearts caved in turned inside out where its beat is unknown or too fast
           Now for me its a sojourn friendship in my mind and heart
          I'll  give you the same taste of biteress if that's what you've given me
         Never was there anything going on between us but it sure seemed like It almost started
                   How could let myself say No I don't have feelings for you
                      Well here's the thing I know how hes mind is set
             And it would make him feel ashamed and embarrased if he said yes to
                      Any question pertaining to me ....
                      But who cares right on how I feel think wonder about the world
                        That winter dream cant even be thought of now
                                 No point
                                The hot fire warmth for anyone
                                     The cuddling blankets ,  hot cocoa
                             Watching the snow fall or even , making snow angels

Sometimes u can be on the
Ground
3 or 4 sided
Attitude towards me
Green of envy
Crude
Loud
Obnoxious
Vicious
Evil
Riki

Terrible experience shocked them
Tesla expensive sport tire

Oh how everything
Was in my power
I never felt negative
About my presence
Songs got me through
Anything everything
Now it's not the same

With your  knife
     You cut me deep
      I was there for you
  SO oh don't say I wasn't
     Now u replaced me
    my heart my spot
       Cried that it will never
    Be the same again
       U should say sorry
   Not me cause u caused pain
    Maybe I do talk about you
    To other people but its because
      You've mad me this way
      Mad about who you have become as
    A person not the same girl I used to
       Think  
      You were the only one i told anything to
      We hugged I hug no one else ever but you
     I'm just surprised and happy that at least
      you still have my journal I got you
        While you write down ur thoughts
          Like I do

Heaven
Oh
Lord
I
Dreamt
A
Year full of memories

I can feel the heat
When your near
      Ur that good to me
     Like u that much
     JUst stop being so attractive
      All it does is make me nuts
   Over  u
Can't do anything right
                 Beside you
        Heat my interal body
         Meant for you
     Heat my blood
       You do it magically

Love goes toward love as school boys from their books
       *But love from love toward school with heavy looks

U wear mascara over eyelid
Only prove your self
Power
Black is on top little lash
Evil  is  away

******
Real
Insane
Pain
Please
Leave
Every
Day

Mine
Awesome
Never
Cool
Handsome
Eager
Safe
Time
     With my fingers scratching your chest
     Up and down
       I can use some other treats upon the abs
       Whip cream lick
       Strawberries higher
               You could be my plater
           You liking it
                My sweet tooth

My mind over full
Where to restart
My plate staked high
With pain and tears
Long ago I used to have
No plate
My mind full of songs