With your  knife
     You cut me deep
      I was there for you
  SO oh don't say I wasn't
     Now u replaced me
    my heart my spot
       Cried that it will never
    Be the same again
       U should say sorry
   Not me cause u caused pain
    Maybe I do talk about you
    To other people but its because
      You've mad me this way
      Mad about who you have become as
    A person not the same girl I used to
       Think  
      You were the only one i told anything to
      We hugged I hug no one else ever but you
     I'm just surprised and happy that at least
      you still have my journal I got you
        While you write down ur thoughts
          Like I do

Tis the season where
  Love shows
Yet there is none for me
   Known yet
Where magic is suppose to sparkle all around
Off the snow
      I want something magical before
  Christmas arrives

U sparkle in my eyes
   Shine through my soul
    Ur glittery and I'm the gold
    Were meant to be
  Can't you see ?

Just love em
   Brings on warmth and its super soft
     Like my hair
   If only there was a guy who could join
     In on the blanket its my fav
       It has my scent
      Maybe i'll rub off onto
          Him

Wish there
Was a change among
My life and your life
So then maybe
  we can put it in a picture frame
  to see how we made those
  Changes
    So my life isn't plain like it has been
For the past 16 years

I am thankful for friends more importantly
            Family who love me
       thankful for how i look
                       Nothing is missing it's there

Do we even have chemistry
      Or has it faded away so suddenly
   b.c we should be loving each other
        Being true & open no secrets

WHen you look in the mirror they say
                               Oh you look like 6 times prettier I think ?
                                            But when I look into it there;s nothing thats different
                            Not prettier or uglier just the same
                                   Although I do see a change in how my eyes are
                                      They don't seem to smile as much like they used to
                               WHen I knew who I was

The ring defines power and marriage of love
        The necklace defines the heart and neck
       The pendant styles it up
        The bracelet is wraps around the wrist against the veins
        Ankle bracelet kinda means like I'm Hawaiian
     Earrings resemble how your choices can dangle beyond your life a hole in
      Life where there can be light or darkness

What will it take for me to be normal
                                               ?   to actually enjoy life,,,
                                             Not depression its sort of like that

For me not to worry
                                                         I have to
                                                                     Pretend to have fun in every little
                                                           Thing I do...

Life is sorta like a game
                                               Your're a character of whoever
                                             It has a good side and a wrong side
                                                 Either think positive or negative
                                                 Win prizes in the end
                                                    Ur heart sometimes is played like a game
                                                   For the person you love is betraying you
                                               You chose what you wanna do with it

When you tell me you love me u mean it ?
                                     When you ask me a love question do you mean it ?
                                     Does your smile mean that ur truly happy to see me ?
                                  Render or evoke  some fun with you and I ?
                                   Intermittent feelings   are not gonna happen
                                 But I just hope its nothing frivolity because
                                            its its rude when u mean it

Leaves are just fun
                                            mini scraps of sand paper
                                          that fall off of trees
                                            Get to kick them around
                                           Sometimes they swirl all around
                                            In the form of a tornado
                                          When theres a tree the leaves
                                                     cover the bottom surface of it
                                               Best part is when you have raked them
                                                Into either big or small piles
                                                     Jump right into them
                                                     As if there your mini shelter  
                                                                  Hill

Everyday is a journey
                                                     same routes but different
                                                  times
                                                             Only when I talk with you
                                                it's complete
                                                            My path is paved with golden streaks
                                                      Every moment makes a difference
                                                    When you look my way

I find out to this day that
                                                   I seen you use your skill
                                               In basketball seems like ur the perfect guy
                                        For me when you just make those shots
                                                 DAMMMMMMMMMM
                                                               BOYYYYY
                                                    There's some smitten going on
                                                      Between us ,

I've been slacking its like I used to do my work but
                               Now I've fallen apart
                                    But somehow I've got to pick my self
                                               Up again
                                      Junior year suppose to be best yr of my life
                                 What am I doing worrying
                                    Prom ppl !! Cant even focus
                                  Worst part has anyone have this problem ?
                                         Only me cuz i can't control it... I try
                                               I've caved in too much
                                                  Well least its friday

Idk why but my mind is seriously
                        Twisted with nerves
                      Some how this came about
                           WHy ?
                 I'm suffering through this
                      I tell myself No !

WHat i deserve
  WHat i dont have
what you need to give me
     so i am ur friend

Take back what I feel for you
    I've done too much for you
  What had I been thinking ?
       I must of been stupid to ever give you my love
     My work time and help
       U never did the same for me
         Be with that girl..
   Done being  your brain your heart
             Mine will be pumping hard
       Of this angry you've left
            What my friend has to say
        Doesn't even support my hope  ***
                     Is this ?
          I don't care If your in pain get the work done
              Yourself ,  No longer will I obey
                 You !
                   Wish I could take back everything
                       Your'e words created warmth
                       Smiles in my heart
                     Now it frowns .....  feels cold
                                      Empty
                           Who do I even have to express how I feel
                                        Myself is all
                             Sometimes I can't handle it
                             Need some advice where it's good
                                             Low...

Work never ends
       Always doing something
            Even when i got head pains
      Must be done....
             Life's soo repetitive and we don't know that
          They say it makes you depressed
          For me it's annoying

Yes I shed them too much
  But now I guess u turned into one of those
  Reasons like  I will never be able to have you
     Hold you close to me as u do for me
      Hold hands.... yet u flirt with other girls ?
     Did i do everything for nothing ?
    Yet u never return the favors ..... ;l
Become a little rude too
I listen to what you have to say the words in between
    But u can't for mine ?

I love old music
The good times
  No song is too old for me
I listen it too 1000000000000000000 times it wont get old
    No matter what the day is

I'm
      all
Natural
     Is that y u love me so much
Never seen this before ?
           I'm proud of it
   I wouldnt wanna be anybody else
     Hey !
      Love urself for who u are
     I'm blessed I wake up like this
          Everyday

WOw I've had my name
    In my crushes  English
       paper
     Though I'm a villian
Shows that I actually got him to do something I told him
            Mendacity my brain
       Thanks God
        He ended up loving it
       Helped him out big time
       Told me he loved me
            Caught my mind Gosh
                This is
           New
                       Maybe again my name will appear in  love work
      Happy enough
             Rhemuy can happen
                Evince his careness
             For me
       Night chats the best some way

Reason for my smile
  I can't stop for a while
Nights made
Days better
Inner beauty lasts forever
Harmarita,  Smitten, to the maxxxx
         Cures my ilness
         Gives me hope
       Confidence I can do it !
     I do it in his name
         As though he's in front of me
      Halycon
         Rapture , helll yea
Words tangible towards me heart <3

wish I was myself again
  cause like I always said u never get the day back
            U waste it when ur down so wateves.....
          z'm young everyday is suppose to be great or good at least
                      Once I'm older I work is more stress now its like I need to focous on my own health .....

Leafs are gonna change into 3
          Colors
       Red
                     Orange ,
       Yellow
                  Crispy cold nights
        & I sleep good with u maybe in the dreams
                     The sun makes me smile
            When it's @ the right point in the sky
                              Fall has perfect settings of the sun too

Oh Halloween nights
I just want to be ur vampire
      Who's the hottest one you've seen
      Bite ur neck
      Maybe you can be
                                   my batman
                I feel like a bad girl
                            You don't deny anything I take some of ur candy
                  We exchange in return ,  My
                    Boo

Want some ?
             All I need is you around me
         & I'm already drunk      
                  That's how much you mean to me
                  Drive me nuts out of this world
              ;)

@ the maximum stage of happiness
      Teeth straight now
      & I have a guy who liked my pic
           This time commented as well
             Send me a message
         Holyyy Moly...
        His love does show  
                       I shown him how to open up
        Now I'm @ maximum   :)

I'm a lucky girl
        U know why
       Because there's a guy
      That I like ,
         He likes
                             me back
     Now what are the chances of that
                    happening ? :)
          Flirting time on occlude on
             All parts of my body
         Introspective is bright
            No dissent
               A sidle here & there
                Halycon !!!!!  Yeee Haa

Your word of love means ?
  What
         You've used it soo often for girls
  I feel as though ,  You play it on me
Plan it for me
          Me only
    Reinventing the stage I should be
You seem to  make me alive
As though I'm a beast inside
      With all prayers  said it's
    Predestined he's creating your duty
        This memory won't ever die like you had with your
      Plans I have lot of guys making my heart smile / dance
   But your the one who complete my weakness
Noticed from your vibe
            I have no fear of being shy cause your that one
     Who hides that weird of mine
  Take my breath away let it ,
                                         Drift
                     Seal my lips with a kiss for its more I crave !

All I wanna do is comfort you
I know your pain , so let me make you
  Feel a new relief , not upset just satisfied with us...
   Consider a "thing"
   Touch your hair , stomach
    Our hands intertwine
    Don't move fast for I will stay slow
Is it possible for me to
Cry of all the possibilities
I don't have with you
Well sad to say
It's what I've been doing
Long life dream is us
    Just chillin near a lake
      Or a beach staring @ each other
   Soaking in all 5 senses
Memory being the strongest
Poison , but in a positive way
  I cheer you on If I be mean
Its for fun
    Teasing is my specialty
   Attractive enough for you ?
       Got most where's your's ?

My heart feels it all the time
   Even tho you're with me
  Still the same
         Although its gonna change I have a
          Feeling
    Maybe in my dreams it will go away