If there is a secret
  About me
   I wanna know
  I would be heart broken
  Finding out from the one
  You prefer to be with
   My friend
Just a semi stranger

   Exchanging glances here and there
  I want change my outer
   Appearance
   Different  style
   How I can be stronger
     More appealing
  I myself have the most respect
   I'm not a nerd who is  invisible or unimportant
               I do have people who
Love me

Wanna break the rules
   All the above
   Get little naughty
     Be free with no chains
   Wrapped around  our ankles
   Change my ideas of being a good
    Girl

Weather for the 1st in a while
  Perfect
  Warm sun shining I got my fav
  Shell shirt on
        With my new legging capris
     A nice bra birthday posts
     My option to do what I like
         What I want too
     Feeling beautiful and pretty
      My best for the 1 and only day of the year
       Even tho  I can't walk due to my broken ankle
      I still pretend that nothing is wrong ]
            As if I could jump run skip walk my own way style

YOUR
The
Knife
Never
Ignorant
Fu*ker
Evil
  that struck through
   My heart
       It keeps bleeding but
   I cant tell that

WHen I can no longer see the light
   In a lot of things
   To try care more often
    But being sick
  As well as crippled has made me
  Become a temporary different person
   All I want is for my old self
    WHen I'm in need for help
    Sad how you're not there for me
    I would love help from that 1 person
    You like

You finally broke
  me
  how u feel now
  better that I don't have any feeling
   Towards u
  I wonder though like what would be the point
  Of being friends this point
     I wanted to be more
   I guess I was stupid for believing myself it would be
     More 1 day...
      Looking @ you might drive me crazy
      I've helped u too much that's
          The problem

Do u care for me
  If u did u would talk to
  Me or least try to make an
  Effort
   I'm done doing the work
  Making an effort

This scares me a lot
  Never had it done
  I rather be in a different position
Than being only 1 legged
Scared urgent requesting guys except receiving you

******
Real
Insane
Pain
Please
Leave
Every
Day

I crumble like everyday
  Tears rolling down my cheeks
  Thinking and knowing that I
  can't have u
   That I can't become what you want me
  To be
  Bad thing is there's nothing for me
  To show my inner glow
   my smiles in my eyes
   The brightness in my  teeth

Maybe
Another
Real
Crush
Happens

Your arms could possibly be my jacket
    They can be around my shoulders
   Around my chest
   Such as my waist
   Your stomach pressing against my back
    That's be nice ....
    Warm tooo

You can either be the food
   That's delicious
  Or part of my wing
    That could be on my back
   You could be that other part
     With the idea of flying
    Anywhere

Get
Your
Metabolism
  Moving
  Although mine is slow asf ....

DOn't call my name
   Don't call my name
        DOn't hurt me
   ABuse me ...
           No
   DOn't confuse me ...
       STab me...
    Ricardo
        Dont bring me down no non no no no no
       Why you'd change ?

Your're cupid
   Not in a baby form
    But sometimes you can be
    Your arrow . romantic spell
    Are your eyes
                   Hands

Boy I'll be thinking about you
     WOrldwide
    Yes I may met another kind like you
  But don't you worry cause I fell for you hard
       Hard
         I'll never use you nooo
     LOve you worldwide

Your're like a pencil
   You sometimes have a smooth side and then ur sweet your cheeks r red
    while the other side is pointy
     It's dangerous because you can stab someone
    Who is me
   Your skin is yellow too
  I'm the paper you have written on me
    Although the words become scars

You make me feel
   Low
  Depressed @ times
  Have me thinking like oh I'll never be good enough
    Not only for you but for any one else I
     Encounter
    Worthless of my existence
    We used to be close for a while
      Even kinda promised me oh
      Make you day
            MORE
                              Often,,,,,
              Now we barely talk...
              Don't wanna tell me what flushed down the drain
     My heart has been cut & can't be fixed wounds
          Wish it was bandaged already  
        How can u be sooo cruel
        Like your pouring salt in them
    I can't stop thinking about what I've done
          This month's supposed to be romantic
         I have a little bit of rage too cause of this
        When your eyes have met mine
         The connection is weird
         I can't take
                        it
            When you had called for her name
            My heart had sunken  a few feet to my stomach
            Your voice when you use her name
            Want that sound in tune of MY name
             Asking what's up but not to me...
              I was in the room before her too
                   Maybe her appearance attracted you
              But tell u this
                                 I'm don't got the appearance  
                         Much but I got heart of gold...

You trapezoid my heart
      While I'm a spider who gets caught
   A rhombus who rams butts...
     A square who has perfect sides
     A rectangle who is tall
   A triangle who sometimes can cave in has pointy top
    A hexagon  a guy who can be edgy
        A circle that has an endless loop of love care & passion

u are that 1 monster i cant stand
  Appearing in my dreams even
    I hate how ur claws have made marks on me
Left scar  imprints on my heart too
       My mind is ******* up

You are like my sunshine
         you brighten my face
      When u look @ me
   Your heartbeat is your voice
        In telling me either your in love or not
      But when you have ignored me
          My own heartbeat becomes heavy
         Sometimes you don't wanna talk
       I feel as though I have caused a problem

Sometimes  I wanna be a scarf
   Just using my hands wrapped around your neck
     To keep you warm
        May  seem like I'm choking you but I'm not
     My hands can be your mittens

You & I are like a jump rope
   You take control of 1 handle
   While I take control of the other handle
   Sometimes when it's drop you accidently
      Step on it  
  Your steeping on my heart too

Now to me you seem like dust
   A type of air that is mixed with sand
   You just like to blow away whenever you want to
   With me having to say 1 word you flow right by me

I'm a dice
  A girl with many different  chances
Some are even some are odd
       But no matter how hard I try
      I'll always be just  a simple dice
      Sometime I wished you would roll me..
   In your hands like baking dough

Wanna be my lightning bolt that strikes
   Through my heart
         My soul
          Or the thunder the pounding of my heart ?
           Both can be awesome but
           1  is fine with me
     The flash is white as a camera flash
    I can still see it with my eyes closed

I want you to be my food
      Someone who I crave @ times
       You can be bitter sweet or just salty
         But you'll always be my lover in the end of it all
    Voracious you

Lovely
Interesting
Purloin
Sassy
       Tough         Exterior     Entity         Trace marks          Hygine

Maybe someday u can be my snow
       Soft , White but hopefully not cold hearted
     It can bring me happiness too
       For me to use it the way I want to

Wanna be a part of my pjs
  There can be an escapade
Later on can be a propensitiy
   I can have a deportment
   Because  my pjs are in a **** form
   You go obstreperous on me
   I've been wearing them all day
   For you
          Just kidding there really only soft blue pants
           With a white v-neck t shirt
          My best pj for you is for u to be in ur boxers
           My fav   turn on
        Purloin my mouth and heart while ur @ it

Having
Ultimate
Grief
   well sometimes  Or can mean this
       Hiding
       Ugly
       Guilts

Could you be my teddy bear
      Someone I can hug forever
    & won't let me go ?
        Some of your spots can be soft and warm
        You can be super cute too
       Eh why not have u dressed up too

Last Christmas I gave "him" my heart
     But the very next day
  He ignored me ,,,
Why does this haveeee to happen to meee
       Thought I was someone special
      Special Lalaallalalalalalalallalala
          I'm hiding from you cause you don't feel the sameeee
           Wayyy Oh nooooo
         lalalalala      Oh lalalalalalal
        I thought you were someone to mee
       Like a friend that I knew
          I guess I need a shoulder to cry on nowwww
         Who could that beee
                    That nice person for meeeee
             I'll  never give anymore gifts (arts and crafts)

All I wanna do is be under the mini branch
          Just to kiss you since its the time of the year
        For that maybe then a spark can occur
            Your lips can upon mine and it's a haramita  
      Be smitten by ur eyes when they have locked onto mine
       After the kiss has been done
                 My cheeks turn red as well

Sometimes If feel free
   While other times I feel as though
        I'm confined in a cage
     Although when I see you I'm set free
         All the time there's nothing that hold me back from
      Anything

As the tears roll down my eyes
     There coming down like a fast waterfall
     From both sockets
  Although I don't know which is flooding more ?
       They say the left side represents pain well it came first to that
        Afterwards the right
     I over hear what you tell your friends
       I got those ears where they tell me the truth
       I don't mix words around like scramble
         Too scared to tell me to the face that you don't wanna in-box me
          Pathetic plain lame
      How long we've known  each other & still can't be honest
           My hearts caved in turned inside out where its beat is unknown or too fast
           Now for me its a sojourn friendship in my mind and heart
          I'll  give you the same taste of biteress if that's what you've given me
         Never was there anything going on between us but it sure seemed like It almost started
                   How could let myself say No I don't have feelings for you
                      Well here's the thing I know how hes mind is set
             And it would make him feel ashamed and embarrased if he said yes to
                      Any question pertaining to me ....
                      But who cares right on how I feel think wonder about the world
                        That winter dream cant even be thought of now
                                 No point
                                The hot fire warmth for anyone
                                     The cuddling blankets ,  hot cocoa
                             Watching the snow fall or even , making snow angels

good grades
   good meals
Good life
  Pretty
Good people around/family
  Good guy whos kinda there for me