I sit here
Surrounded by people
Yet I feel so alone
It feels like I’m suffocating again
Suffocating in my head
I can’t even tell if all these people are here anymore
Any moment now I’ll be gone
When will it be my turn
To feel the warmth that they feel
When will it be my turn to sit here and feel alive
I hope it can be soon
Otherwise I will be back to what I said before
Any moment soon I might be gone
I just want to sit here and feel alive with all of these people

I thought he was fixing me
My light at the end of dark
My own superhero to help me out
But in reality everything was a lie
He was filling up the cracks in my heart with dynamite
Waiting for the moment to blow it up
Leaving me shattered all over again
He was not fixing me

I just want somebody near me
Someone’s heat to share
Someone that will stay with me
I did everything to try and find that someone
And yet again I’ve failed
When will I ever win at this

*******
That’s all I have left to say now
I don’t know what’s left anymore
Are we even still possible?
You started it yet you won’t end it
You keep me in your little spindle
Spinning and spinning
Not quite letting me go
Just using me as much as you can
Are you even using me anymore though
My texts are left on delivered
This time I have 10 hours and counting
Why can’t you just man up and look at them and reply
Is it my fault or are you the *******
You told me you liked me so I allowed myself to hope that you’d be mine
Yet so shortly after you ignore me
I wonder to myself if it’s on me
Yet I can’t think of a single reason
Maybe this is all I am to you
An easy girl who will let anyone step on her
Little do you know you’re just crushing the empathy I have
I took time to understand you
To understand how you act and why
To understand your situation that was so horrific
To understand how I could best help you
It seems however that I was just a toy for you to play with
Replaceable
I don’t even know how much more I can say to you anymore
I think the only thing I can keep saying is
*******