I think of you, my icy lover.
As I lie here in bed,
As memories of your glass embraces pounce on me,
But you always loved to drag me down.
I think of you, my dark lover.
And how the thin lines
On my skin
Mesmerized you a little too much,
How you loved to watch me bleed.
I think of you, my distant lover.
And how I was never good enough,
How your words pushed me fast away.
I guess I wasn't "smart enough to get you".
I think of you, my "perfect" lover.
My thoughts were big and dark.
You liked to help me sink into them.
Only you ever wanted me perfect
I think of you, my persistent lover.
Even when you're long gone
I can't shake the memory of your
Words of love and pain coating my tongue like candy.
I think of you, my insecure lover.
Only now do I believe your repeated assurances
" I am not good enough for you" .
You were right.
My icy lover,
He is here now.
He is good enough to hold me tight to reality,
Strong enough to hold me through my pain,
Real enough to hold my imperfection,
And just wicked enough to know me.
With each touch of his hands
Covering my body, the finest gown,
I feel you finally melt from my veins.
I think of you for the last time, my icy lover.