Hair the colour of sunshine
Mouth wide open in a loud smile
You remember your feet in white sandals
As she stood beside you, in a yellow sundress
The hot, dusty parking lot
Screamed for release
And after three months together
You cry as you whisper goodbye, hug yourself to sleep

No more than strangers in the crowd
Both too alike to be together
But at least you know

How it is to be in love with yourself.

I wish now
That I had persisted
Wish that I had held on
But I gave up my dreams
For the sake of a phantom I couldn't see
Nor touch, nor hear, nor feel

But I succumbed
And I fell
Down to the depths of my own hell

I've come up again now
Have gathered the broken pieces of the days I wasted
And have pieced them into an amateur mosaic of dreams

And I know I'll hold on this time
Even if
For just a little longer.

Heavy colours
Spill onto the floor
A marred rainbow
Splashed onto the door

Get out of here
Before you lose your mind
Living in a hologram
You lose your sense of time

I scraped away
At the painted ground
Broke my nails
Your blood came out

So go away
Before I paint you black
Go to your land of colours
And never come back

The rat inside laughs
As it thinks of the other rats
Squirming around it

Deleted yourself from my life with a click
Afterall, we were strangers behind the screen
Locked away from reality we talked through the night
And when we ran out of topics we bade a hasty goodbye

He doesn't seem to have much faith, does he?
Well...we have, don't we?
Yes
We do



But for how long...?

The basis of justice is equality

All principles are enmeshed into a tight orb

Thus ignore not one and champion another

For them we bring all of them

To the exact same fall

Tired and yet not weary
Disgusted by myself but still I keep going

Knifes are a welcome escape
But the fear of pain bites stronger

Loved many but do not remember how

I wonder
If we are all such muddled creatures

Why does it seem we are linear

From the outside?

I wonder if it's a problem
That it feels like people who don't know you
Love you more than those you can feel and touch...

Let us set sail
On our humble raft
To no country a d to no end

Adrift in this shoreless expanse
We shall sing to our heart's content
And feed off each other's love

Hurry now
For who knows when the raft shall break it's shackles
And set sail without us?

This morning when I woke up
It was raining
Softly pouring from a gloomy grey sky
My cat came home soaking wet
She had had a bad time.
I closed my eyes hoping the sun would shine
Break through the curtain and bring a hint of warmth
But when I opened my eyes, my cat was gone
It was only me and the rain, the rain and I.

So long as we exist
We will question,

What is freedom?
What is justice?
What is misery?

So long as we remain human
We will want to know

What is life?
What is love?
What is death?

Years will pass
Crowns will fall
Thrones will rise
We'll dance in hell or rise to heaven

And we'll still ask
Why?
Why?

Why?

I close my eyes

The night is heavy on my tired shoulders

I turn to another side to get some sleep

Vacant voices resound in my brain

Numbers fail me

Music fails me

The bed is uncomfortably soft

I am unable to sleep.

If I see emotions wafting by
I'd lean onto their warm, wide back

And let them take me to their wonderlands

Whether they be empty
Whether they be bursting with colours

I'll learn

How to feel better
And look love in the eye

For that's the only truth we can be sure of

We are marionettes
Pulled together by invisible strings
And pulled apart by the same
Rolling in and out of love.

When destiny scorns the road you take
Walk straight ahead

They will fork out my eyes...they said

Peel off my speckled skin

And tear out my lashes

With their freshly cut fingernails

But still I stared

And no one came for me

We weren't strangers behind the screen

You were aware
Of how my hair became oily in the afternoon

And I knew
How I could play tic-tac-toe on your dry arms even in summer

But that was one year ago
One fine day we stopped talking
Don't know why....did we fight?

You were my best friend
I loved you more than any lover and yet
We don't talk anymore

And I know that I should forget and move on
That variety is the spice of life
But...
I can no longer call a person my home

I shall go to sleep, goodnight goodnight goodnight
Hope I wake up to some news
Or I think I'd rather die.

How does it feel
To love oneself
Perfectly
Completely
Without any room
For dissatisfaction

It was a windy day
The hours seemed short and blurred
Weary of work, I
Had started walking downtown.

A long road was ahead of me
But there were no forks
No choices did it offer
So I kept walking straight ahead.

Shall I ever look back?
Maybe I will
But there was
Only one choice ahead of me

Loved your touch too much to forego it

But your warm caress

Could not soothe my aching heart

And so I left

For my heart did not agree with this love of mine

Feels like I could die
No one
No one will know

I could drown in myself
And never
Never wash ashore

These thoughts they come and go
But alas
Alas! I remain
Forever...
Alone...

Could not bring my thoughts
To a common outlet
The mesh of spring
Allows your blood-red flowers
To peek through

I could not help but
Smile
At the soft delicate petals
Which would little by little
Rot away into nothingness

For they were lovely
Oh! So very lovely!

The loneliness of life
Is a hard lesson learned
But once realised
Is one rarely forgot

No one makes it out alive
None of us have a second chance
So go all out in this amusement park
Ride your rides as long as your ticket lasts

Lonely strangers
Sit together in a pub
Knees brushing
Hearts gone numb
They sit and think of the overcast sky
Seek to lose themselves in an ephemeral high.

Lonely strangers
Wait together for the bus
Sharing umbrellas
Separated in a rush
They fall in love in the most unfortunate of times
Prisoners they are, of their own, fickle device.

Unaware of my worth

I have stumbled uneasily through auctions

Never really satisfied

With the price I was sold for

On the foothills of Sahoo
Where the great old man dwells
I sleep all night with broken stars
For in light I walk on pungent egg shells

Nature embraces these blue mountains
But my old friend, the sea, disowns
Might never have both, even if I can
Thus with the stars I live alone.

Just another one of those made-up facades
That I hid in the woods
For the milkman to find out
And parade it
For the people to believe