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sheloveswords Jun 2019
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Painting with a twist
Paint me with your kiss
Stroke me with your brush
Stroke me till I blush

Oil me in your pastels

Your lavenders soothes me well
Hang me on your wall

Until you’re ready to use me...
again

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sheloveswords Dec 2017
My thoughts alone arrest me
Your fresh iron bars fills my vicinity &
it protects me
from my anxious flights
I fight with
with my back against the wall
and an uncontrollable tremble
my body rains this dew of unwavering terror
uncertaint
thoughts of errors
forms theses arrows
and I follow them to my demise
but if he opens this cage
and I can see further than my eyes
I may just as well
walk to my own ****** suicide

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sheloveswords Dec 2017
there's a peace of mind
I'm on a journey for
scavaging and hunting for
what belongs to me
my sanity
I can't let you have
my love
and turn it into profanity
a curse
a joke
my deep passion soaking into your hands
as I watch you carelessly play in the dirt
here it comes
the hurt
races against joy
but insanity has come to steal the race
and the crowd makes the noise
I feel so out of place
I fell so deep into you, I no longer felt the light
then my skin became cold
following my emotions, or lack there of
my soul began to decipher
what feeds and what destroys

I am now waiting for my mind to fall in line
to find peace
my thoughts to find ease
finding a way to re-write our history
your name rings the very bell that controls my tears
when I close my eyes
I see yours
I repaint your lips and each word spoke
I hate you
then I love you
you watch me entangle with my emotions
you feed my despair
you stir my commotion
I feed you your energy that you allow to be stole
I fed you half of me
there's no way I can be whole
playing this game
your poker face is so perfect
and unphased
while I'm on this trip to neverland
a journey alone I never planned.

I need a peace of mind
a peace of mind I'll give you
you were my sickness
I need to heal you
disinfect the wounds you caused
the ulcers of false hope
the emptiness,
you wasted my time
you misplaced my crown
a blue river I have cried
its time for my smile to return now
....because even if you say it's not over
I know I wont die

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sheloveswords Dec 2017
will all the man who will fail me, please stand up.

you will be escorted out of my life.
sheloveswords Nov 2017
he hates me but no more than I hate myself
he takes from me but not more than what I've taken from myself
I feel his pain, anger, and hurt more than I feel his love
but that's because he has none to give
between his own lips he admitted it

its not like I'm worthy of it anyhow
it could all end any hour
because through and out of all this
in his eyes
I am not the same woman anymore

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sheloveswords Oct 2017
Searching for the strength
          to write again . .




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sheloveswords Aug 2017
I dont know if it is the clouds in my head or the souls in my bed

or the tainted pleasures

instead

of pouring
I rather blaze

In place of worry
I rather praise

and pray

that we all find our way

on this cold ground
with this frozen breeze

I don't have parents or

or a grandma to pray for me

so lately my ruthlessness has generously been on display for me
to be able to stand for Him and for myself.
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