Sometimes I wonder , what life could've been without me here . Sometimes I wonder if I should be gone or not but the fact is , it's all up to me . Not anybody else .

the world is beautiful but i'm ready to die. i found you but why haven't i found myself? am i supposed to be happy?

"flightless bird"

I don't know what I'm doing
and I'm not sure if I ever did.
These worries wear me down
and sit heavy on my chest,
but I have no plan for my future
because I'm not sure
if I even want one.

I'm confused about a girl
A girl I really love
But I'm a girl
Is it okay to love the same *** ?

I'm confused about a girl
I see everyday
Hoping she'll notice me
But she's too pretty to notice a girl like me

I'm confused about a girl
Who looks at me the same way I do
But doesn't bother coming to me & at least say hi

I'm confused about a girl
Who I can never have
Because she's deserves someone
Better then me

knowing you're 8 hours away doesn't fill the piece of my heart you took with you
it doesn't remove the guilt from the bottom of my gut
and it doesn't take away the empty tissue boxes next to my bed

knowing i found someone new doesn't make me feel better about you gulping back cheap alcohol
and kissing someone else's cheeks

knowing that i could take my life any second and remove all of the pain that demands to be felt
doesn't make me stop wondering if you'd  
even miss me at all
or want to hear the sound of my voice again
or sit in silence while we watch the night sky
as if all of those stars
were equal to the butterflies in my chest