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Nikki Oct 2012
Destroying my body
Destroying my health
Trying to numb everything I've ever felt
I just want to die, get it over with
Because apparently my love was nothing but a myth
In the name of the father, I tell you my friends
You have ended my life-you brought me to the end
People don't understand how far words can go
They're only interested in the pregame show.
They don't know all the mechanics behind us at all
They're only interested in watching us fall
Our pain and suffering means nothing to them
They all just want to watch something end
They're interested in death, not in life
With their words they're handing us the knife
To make us feel shame for who we love
Putting us down on our knees, surrendering to their gun
Believe what you want
Go ahead listen to them
But when the day is done and over
They are not our friends
Friends comfort and support
Not lie and fall short
Only interested in our downfall
Just so they no longer feel small
So they're relationship grows while ours falters
Making us sick in the hands if doctors
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Nikki Oct 2012
I have to be strong, keep myself busy
All these fake tasks are making me dizzy
But if that's what it takes, then that's what I'll do
Anything to be strong enough to look at you.
I have an overwhelming shame in my heart
So painful and deep, sometimes it won't start.
The pools in my eyes push over
As they fall, getting closer and closer
And they all get together at the very end, flowing together and they finally mend.
If only my heart was as simple as my tears
I would go through life knowing no fears.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Nikki Oct 2012
I have to try and keep my chin up and my head held high, among people that only want to rip me down.
I'm nothing but a side show in their pathetic lives
Please return to your seats the show is about to begin.
And they all lean forward with their eyes on the prize
Their deviance is no longer in disguise.
Looks like friendship, but is only lies to keep themselves entertained for awhile.
Pull at the dangling veins where my heart used to be,
Please stop pulling, I'm begging you, set me free.
For your own entertainment
For your own joy
I am not just some disposable toy.
I've never been more hurt than the pain I feel now
While you eat your own ****, I've taken my head out of the clouds.
You can **** with me all you want, but nothing is going to change.
I've got rage like a lion, and I'm looking for prey.
I won't even eat your body, I want to watch it decay.
My anger isn't centered, it's in different directions
**** all you mother ******* and your misconceptions.
I'm tired of this, you can go eat ****.
Because when I find you, next thing is your dead body in a ditch.
**** your rumors, **** your lies
You're all enemies in disguise.
Giving nothing, Wanting all
I can't wait to watch you fall
Into the darkness, just like me
Oh, wont you keep me company?
Your brown nose tells me yes
So you like when I'm a mess?
Sadistic mother *******, all of you are guilty.
Stop looking at my hands when yours are ******* filthy.
I'm done with these death games you play
You can have each other, I'm not going to stay.
Copyright Nicole L Stowe 2012
Nikki Oct 2012
Raised your hand to me
and summoned me back into your warped reality.
Fell behind the pack
I was wounded and bleeding,
I was weak.
As I lay in the cold darkness
The tears roll down my face
and freeze over ever so suddenly

I burned my skin for warmth
and ate my heart to stop the hunger
poured my blood to keep me warm.

I am stained.
Copyright 2012 Nicole Stowe
Nikki Sep 2012
Every night before I go to bed
I put my hands together and bow my head.
I say aloud, "God, give me the strength to love my life,
and make me an amazing wife."
I proceeded to crawl under the covers next to you,
whispering softly in your ear, "My love, this is all true."
Falling into the deep sleep, picture perfect under your arm,
knowing that there wasn't anything in this world that would give me harm.
And that night i dreamt about something so  unreal,
tears streemed down my face, I didn't know how to feel.
"Baby, what's wrong?" you said to me,
with your beautiful green eye guarantee.
I dreamt about a black sky,
hearing people scream " YOU'RE GOING TO DIE"
Blood was spilling everywhere,
and for some reason I didn't care.
I watched as the blood flowed through the hellish place I was in,
and looked up and saw her menecing grin

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