Food isn't my first hunger
And nights aren't for sleep alone
There's so much in my head to ponder
Like why you are where you are
and I am left to sleep alone.

It's crazy isn't it
Forever started with a hey.
Can you remember what it felt
Did you feel your heart thaw
Or melt.
That call out of the blue
It felt so right
Like you were one out of the crew.
The convos at night
Sleep became a secondary function
I think I've seen the light.
And when I have a bad day
And my heart is broken
You say
If you are sad what would
You have me do and you
Make me laugh
my sorrows away
Not before you would threaten
to mend my heart and beat me
For staying sulky
Now I can't stop laughing.
Laughter may be the best medicine
But you are my physician

I suffered a terrible disappointment today
and while I was writhing through the pain
I had so much in my head to write about
From love to hurt to more pain then anger
Cos somehow my ability to write
More than four pieces in a day
Is dependent on how much pain
I can at least pretend to feel
Today, however, I'm hurt
And I say, take away the pain
Even if it goes with the inspiration
I give up.

Lately I've come to hypothesize

Love is a science

Maybe its the biology of attraction

The hormonal chemistry of lust

Maybe it's the physics of its dynamics

The product of its mathematical variable

That makes it so complex a function

We are left confused

as to what it really is.

Yesterday,
I came across your smile
On the face of another
So beautiful
Yet I could only
Feel guilt as she said hi
Welcome to the show
And her name wasn't yours

Today,
I made a girl laugh in the mall
Just like you did
She tossed back her head and reveled
In its vibrations
As she passed by me
With a wave, of intent
And friends that weren't yours
Another prospective ruined
Just because I can't find
Enough of you in them

Now,
I Just wonder if you
Were my lucky break
Cos at least
I found love with you
Or my damnation
Cos now?
I can't seem to love another.

72 hours back
I spoke of one so peculiar
She was deserving of a band
X
She introduced me to Y
Why?

48 hours forward
Y looks at me and her
heart speaks of ageless desires
Of fantasies beyond that
I Ever have wished for.
Lust; lost

24 hours
There she is
Y
daring the sun to a smile challenge
she has me fixed in a trance
I could marvel in her unravel
But I couldn't look at the sun

Zero hours
X is glaring at me
She could never possibly unsee this
Her eyes filled with regret
Mine a shadow of the same
I couldn't muster a thought
Y;
She is my unraveling
Tomorrow?
X;
My Ex.

You know
Even I am tired
of always looking for excuses
To avoid feeling.
"Give me some minutes"
"I'll call you right back."
"Can we speak some other time?"
I never run out of these do I?
It's getting oh so tiring
"I'll be ready soon"
Yet, soon is never
gon come soon enough is it?