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  Feb 4 Bree17
souletry
I don't want to die
I just need something to make me feel alive.
what I think of with every attempting thought.
Bree17 Feb 4
****** nails, scraped raw
silent screams, hearts thaw
constant morning, endless night
icy covers, fading light
walls confining, ceiling caves
desperate pleas, useless saves
silent drowning, screaming voice
blistered palms, lacking choice
im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck im stuck  im stuck im stuck
Bree17 Jan 31
i made my mom cry
hurt her again
but didn't mean to
i keep ******* up
nothings holding me here anymore

pointless meds
stupid arguments
damning blades
tempting pills
nothings holding me here anymore

she cried and yelled
i sat and watched
face blank, hands numb
cant feel anything
nothings holding me here anymore
i think im a horrible daughter
i used to hate it, the arguing and crying
hated it so much
now i just dont feel anything
i think im a horrible daughter
Bree17 Jan 30
I'm trying not to let
my oblivous parents know
how horrid I've been doing
as to not ruin the image
they've always seen me through
as to not break the trust
they have put into my sanity
while simultaneously trying
to get the help needed
to not leave said parents, ruined
as I lay seven feet below fresh soil

and yet they have the audacity
to pick and ****
at my failing grades
and "attitudes"
saying I'm
not doing
enough


seriously?
Bree17 Jan 28
We were fairies
Flying far away
Pixy dust covered us
As glitter would rain
The days we spent pretending
All our problems away
Secrete sleepovers where we giggled and hid
Back when I was truly just an innocent kid
Oh I don't want to forget
When I hung our drawing
Littering my walls
Oh, I remember those days like I live in them now
I wish to go back, I just don’t know how.

How many times can I scream before I drown
Has life always been a spiral headed down?

Should I give up if there’s no end in sight
Or just keep on going, trying in spite
I'm alone

Over the years my walls have all changed
My door closed permanently
In hopes to shut out my pain
When did life shift, how can I go back?
Now I’m sinking, I’m fading away
Why should I keep trying if it all ends the same,
Is it I who is truly the one to be blamed.
I don’t want to be here,
Why can’t I just disappear?
I wish to go back, but I don’t know how.

How many times can I scream before I drown
Why won’t my life stop spiraling down

Should I give up if there’s no end in sight
Or just keep on going, trying in spite
I’m alone

Why hold on,
Why not let go?
How many times more will I breathe till I die
If it’s gonna end, why do I still try
And what if I give it all up tonight
Just lay there, content, as my tears start to dry
Surrounded by the walls of my childhood mind
Where we used to dress up as undercover spies
Maybe, just maybe, I’ll give it a try

Should I give up if there’s no end in sight
Or just keep on going, trying in spite
I’m alone
failed attempt at writing a song lol found it in an old notebook, any recommendations?
  Jan 16 Bree17
Brandi
I hate when they say,
“ Now, you truly look happy!”
You never saw me then
  Jan 15 Bree17
Indigo Maroon
Paper
A confider
A confinement
A trap
A relief
Beautiful
Noise
Silence
Screaming
Gasping for breath
Sitting quietly on a page
Flutters in the wind
So much, on so little
Tell it your secrets
It won't betray you
It won’t comfort you
Share with the world
Anonymous, if you want
It wont tell
It will be silent
Heartbreak, relief, sadness, love
On a weightless page
An airplane
A boat
A butterfly
paper
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