Bree - Hello Poetry

Bree 1d

ouch my chest hurts
my head is spinning
all I can think
is what if this is it?

I don't understand.
this has happened before
I've lost you and found you
why does this bother me more

ouch my chests tight
my head is foggy
all I can think
is what if I never see you again

Bree 2d

ouch

there's a pressure in my chest
a chill that spills through my body
my hands are damp and shaking
I can feel this pain throughout me

had another of those days
and last night was one of those nights
got home and went straight to my room
hiding from the sunlight

but now it's dim and cold outside
I can hear the rain and wind
the lights are off, my door is closed
my eyes now red and rimmed

I did a thing I said I wouldn't
yet somehow I don't care
people say they're here for me
but tell me, why aren't they there?

still it hurts, a slow and aching pain
a kind that I don't mind
it reminds me that I am alive
it reminds me to be kind

because the people whom I love
should never have to feel
the pain of being alone and lost
the pain of feeling real

there's a pressure in my chest
as I go about my day
not thinking of the night before
as I fake my fake "okay"

Bree 2d

I'm an idiot

why didn't you listen
to a single word I said
I finally told you what I'd been thinking
I allowed you within my head

I told you how you hurt me
I explained just how I felt
but you ignored my pain
and your bitter words left welts

I may not have been right
but neither were you
and I'm sure as hell
you're not mature enough to know its true

you didn't even see me
just wouldn't ever listened
I loved you as you broke my heart
and saw you while my eyes glistened

I hear your laugh in my mind
it hurts more than you'll ever know
I still need you here with me
more than I'm willing to show

I hate the way you don't care
and how you just moved on
I hate the way you don't need me,
and how our love is gone

but mostly I hate myself
for loving you so recklessly
and missing you so much
stupid me, thinking you'd always love me

I really am an idiot.

my wandering mind as I try to get my math work done lol

Bree 4d

Hey, can you talk?

It's me.. again..
Do you recognize me?
Do you see me at all?

No, I know you don't.
I saw you again today
Not actually though
Yet you were the most you you've been in a while.

I saw you in my mind
Gosh you looked at me like..
Anyways

I saw you last Friday
The real you this time,
But not you you
You haven't been you you in a while.

But that's alright
Cuz I haven't been me me in a while
Honestly, I'm really strug-

I'm sorry, I'm rambling
I'll stop, I'll be less annoying
I promise, just please don't leave..
oh wait, right.

Okay, okay, I'll wrap it up
I know I should stop this
I need to move on, I just can't.

Umm, oh right, I remember now
I just wanted to hear your voice, it's why I'm here again
Stupid, right?
Yeah, I know, stupid of me to still love you.

You're probably thinking "who is this random girl?"

It's me.. I think..
Do you recognize me?
Do you see me at all?

Because I don't anymore.

Literal rambling, apologizes

Also, to them (you know who you are) :
I literally loved you so much, ***** you.
happy yet?

#love

Bree 6d

Insecurities

I need to tell you something
I’ll whisper it to you
It’s about someone you know
But I can’t just tell you who

There’s someone around here
Who’s feeding your delusions
Turning you on yourself
Making false conclusions

The liar here is you
I know you wont believe me
But you don’t need to be perfect,
Self acceptance is what’s key

Wrote a poem based on the words “can you keep a secret?” as a prompt.

#selflove #insecurities

Bree 6d

my friends, my light

Some say stars are ***** of rock
Specks of dust with lack of lore
Or holes, where light peeks in from heaven
But to me they are so much more

See, when I look up at the sky
I see each little burning ember
And late at night when I’m so alone
Their silent guidance gives me a home

Little rocks, so far away
Blocked by suffocating ceilings and walls
Disappearing with the horrors of day
Please say you’ll return when night next falls

You are my friends, you are my light
I look up to you in silence
I don’t shield my eyes, no matter how bright
For you are my everything

I speak and you listen
I yell and I shout
You stay here, never tiring
With you, I’m no cast out

So thank you, my friends
For hearing my cries
For being here each night
I love you guys.

I used the prompt "write a poem as if the stars are your only friends".

#nature #life #love #loneliness

Bree 6d

World, forget me.

I used to thrive,
To laugh and love.
I’d wake up early,
With morning doves.

Everything matter, yet nothing ever did
I’d mess up, then laugh about it
Around you, all my worries hid
I was blissfully well-off

Now I survive
I smile and nod
Sleep as the sun rises
And wake feeling odd,

Nothing matters, yet everything now does
I mess up, then shut down
Without you, my worries always buzz
I’m consciously deprived

I no longer strive
My eyes now fixed low
Please world, forget me
Just let me go.

Wrote a poem with the title “world forget me” as a prompt.

#bestfriend #loss #depression