You look at me
I stare at the ground
Not from fear
but rather disgust
You look at me
I could careless
I wish it was different
but I cannot undo
All the pain you caused
all the lack of love
You look at me
only from photos now
You're dead to me
I hold my head high
Only looking up
because I deserve to
I cannot love you
for all the scars caused
You made me learn
everything on my own
In fact I taught you
solely from trial and error
Not because I wanted to
but because I had to survive
You look at me
but never in my eyes
Because you don't deserve me
nor ever loved me right

A family tree of unemployment
A family tree of
disability
A family tree of
bad credit
A family tree of
high interest paid
A family tree of
we own nothing
A family tree of
alcoholism
A family tree of
drug abuse
A family tree of
mental disorders
A family tree of
grief
A family tree of
divorces
A family tree of
endless debt

I'm just trying
to be a black sheep
and defy all odds
Regardless the roots
or branches I came from

I have no right to judge
nor can I forgive all
Please don't worship me
please don't call me your God

Doctors prescribe what pharma sells, I rather prescribe myself

Market fresh filets
marinating all day
Lazy day, at home
videogames with my son
Fresh powdered roads
plowing driveways
Busy day, at home
riding shotgun with my son
Dogs anxiously await
steady napping away
Lazy day, at home

"Man I've missed being home, there's no place I'd rather be."

You say I'm angry
But that's just not the case dear
You get what you give

You, one of many
You, only feel this way dear
They get what they give