Different reactions 
to similar situations 
Different pain
from similar heartbreak
Different decisions 
for similar scenarios
Different answers 
for the same exact questions 
Yeah it's safe to say we all are Different in our own unique way, so let's not judge, so let's not compare because the reality is.....
IT'S JUST NOT FAIR

Relapse around the corner, real laps around the coroner, I'm tired of running, better yet ill just sit and ponder, what is it i desire, yellowish oranges burns to blue, I cannot keep playing with fire, I'm tired of pretending change is on my mindset, rewind......Revisit goals, revisit hopes, maybe wishes do come true if you really try, I want this disease behind me, the rearview had never looked good but it doesnt mean it can't with time, relapse denied.... What do I have to lose, its all gains ahead, regardleds the outcome: IM GONNA TRY

Im a tree without any branches, I have nothing to offer, not even shade, how pathetic, no wonder I keep getting cut down, I hate my roots!

Happy thoughts are to sunshine as teardrops are to rain, someone better tell Noah to build another ark, before my world gets flooded

If steps could be retraced?
if actions could be erased? 
if words could be replaced?
Would you let me come home?
Because I would relive it all, if thats what it meant, to get one more minute with you. Would you let me?

These beats get
further and further 
apart with this 
bitter cold heart 

Her angelic warmth 
the perfect temperature 
to tame temperments 
well not anymore 

Sore loser I remain 
love isnt a game
my soul screams for 
her name its only 
hope for this heart 

It's out of tune 
its out of luck 
my mind reminds myself 
there still is hope 
dont give up yet 

My heart replies back 
"not true, f#ck that" 
"she's forever gone dude
lets not go skipping 
beats out of tune"

"Who cares anymore man?"
the mind replies back 
"we lost our purpose 
whats left to love for 
shes something special "

"AND WE BOTH F#CKED IT UP I couldve been more thoughtful, you couldve been more compassionate, we lacked communication between us two, now your off tune and im stuck with these regretful thoughts,You're in unbelievable pain and I'm in a bad mental state, Were both at rock bottom but lets agree we are not CONFUSED, WE CHASED HER AWAY"(mind)

"Easy for you to say mind, you base things off logic, im over here drowning in these mixed feelings, emotions and lost love! Where was your logic when we still had a chance ? JUST PLEASE SHUT-UP and let me miss my love ."(heart)

..................HoRRoR
         GONE
                 AGONY
          FEAR
                 TEARS
        TOMB
                 REALITY
         LOVE
                 AFFAIRS
         TOOK

HEARTBREAK HoRRoR
 GONE, her presence replaced with AGONY and FEAR, TEARS pouring out ever since, My heart remains hers in HEARTBREAK HoRRoR's TOMB, The REALITY is: She really loved me but her LOVE wasn't enough to conquer my neglected past AFFAIRS,
HEARTBREAK HoRRoR TOOK my LOVE