The turkey isnt the only thing baked at this Thanksgiving Dinner....

Thanksgiving is here 
 the mentally unstable 
gather in one place

Beneath the surface 
well who cares 

Anyone who digs that deep
just uses it against me 
anyhow 

Beneath the surface 
UnKnOwN

Among her various shades 
my favorite by far 
Is when
she can just be herself,
far far away 
from judgement 
Beneath the sheets
skin to skin 
my favorite shade of hers 
among them all 
by far.... 
Isnt a shade at all 
but rather 
just her 
in the rawest form 
All the labels are gone 
appearances lost 
along with the 
namebrand clothes 
her makeup now belongs 
to the bathroom's 
washcloth 
as I enjoy the view 
to who
she really is 
while holding her 
in my caring arms 
Safe and secure 
away from harm 
far far away 
from her various shades 
In my arms 
where she belongs

Holoday 
caust me 
my sanity 
most recent 
memory 
of losing her 
as my soul 
got slaughtered 
spending 
a celebration 
all alone 
shes still gone 
yet i pretend 
that i can forget
that theres no hope 
for a quick second 
then I'm reminded 
She gave up her grip
and 
FOREVER LET GO

My feelings hurt 
my feelings ScReAm
in pain
My feelings long 
for SoMeOnE to 
come along 
My feelings have 
been through alot 
My feelings never 
have forgot 
The past, the worst,
or the best memories 
My feelings are sore 
my feelings are tired 
My feelings lost 
their voice 
My feelings just want to 
RETIRE 
Are you the one 
my feelings whisper 
inside my head 
when my feelings 
are grabbed 
Her voice
her smile 
her lips
her body 
her personality 
her demeanor 
her story 
has my feelings 
going crazy 
inside my body 
"Is she the one?"
My feelings ask 
I reply disappointed, 
"Im not sure yet"
but my feelings 
still keep
FEELING

I swear if they exist 
the next one is mine 
car doors automatic 
OPEN 
****** expressions automatically 
DETECTED 
i , yes lower case
because ill always remain 
INSIGNIFICANT 
to THEIR NEEDS
literally ill bleed 
for them 
i just want someone 
to hold 
someone to show 
how it feels 
to be 
on top of 
THEIR WORLD 
please just grant me 
one woman 
that knows 
who i truly am 
and who i want to be 
and what that means
for them 
Im wholeheartedly 
CONVINCED 
my true love
MAY NEVER 
exist 
BUT IM STILL 
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