I wanted to express my feelings for you after having such a beautiful and spiritually productive day.

Learning and growing with like minded people who I inspire and who inspire me to keep nuturing my life forward.

I also wanted to tell you that I prayed and thanked God after our call last night for the past few months, for if I had not gone through that experience with another
I would not have seen the truth as clearly as I do and loving your spirit would not be at the level I love it now. 
I mean it.

When something that ultimately feels wrong and unhinged inside both literally and metaphorically disrupts the spirit;

Whatever was ends.
And what is possible resets whats meant to be in motion allowing everything to become and feel right again only to perpetuate new growth and future learning.

It’s not about playing the game of:
“I’ve bared my heart, now you bare yours”
What matters is not how much you Expose about yourself in conversation
but that your soul is Engaged.

Words may feel like they relieve the hurt
As conversation soothes
From the pressures
Of everyday
Activity and decision making
Opening us up to the undisclosed levels of experiences
Vulnerability saves
It can’t be undone
Sickness can be made into such an excuse
But evil can’t
It is aborted
The body requires it and it will
It knows what it needs to do
Just listen to it.
And your Spirit will thank you in love

That is all that is just.

“Every word, every action can be manipulated and distilled down to its essence.
That is how you differentiate between fascination and creating an intentional relationship based on meaning.
It is a practice of will.
Like acting or any art in its natural form:
pure pressed.”

Now is Forever.

Clarity erases all doubt, for it is not only what we believe, but how we assume ourselves to live within the feeling of our conviction that means everything towards finding it. We can easily reverse the sides.

Every single person has something to overcome to become
who they truly they are.

Asking questions
Serves simple reflections
on a platter that was never meant to
be gambled

But what does that mean?

When nothing changes

It is not meant to feel like we know what we're doing

“When I stand before you at the day's end, you shall see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healing”.

"The longing for our perfect mate is a need engraved in our DNA…
We harbor a desire for
restoration and unity, in our search for the piece that is always missing… In our journey through life the search continues for something that can’t be readily found

It is a quest for wholeness… We search for ourselves in others in a quest for healing and integration in the constant pursuit of the final point of balance… Love is the only reality & it is not a mere sentiment. It is the ultimate truth that lies at the heart of creation.”

The one is meant to be in all ways that suit.
A long lost love but in shapes that renew and renew.

~Influenced by Rabindranath Tagore

Is It You Again?

Self- Destruction
Head above water
Emotionally
Physically
Sunken

Is paranoia
Progress
When I draw a circle

Take it back
Start a cycle

Like sandbags trying to keep
The flow of an ocean at bay

I’m afraid
To crash
On top of them

Maybe a cloud will catch me

I wonder. Would it feel like cotton powder?


Watching him close
Finding my way

Anxiety is the cat’s cry
Hoping to connect with a human
Who never sees them

At the same time
Trusting the day
Picking states
In a daze again...
In between
sleep
and creation

Poetry is its own rhythm of
Wisdom in motion

Rhythm in language
Pain performing in its own right

Crushed

Winged

Mission

Pores

This is..

A mind ****

For

Forever is a myth


Eternity is reality

Kept under watch
Released by a cure

Jarred and Always Visible

Intangible at its best

The choice is you and the will through me
Choice + Will = Love

Our moments are the reflections of ourselves not yet pinned against the creations that we seek to create in life and in the worlds we experience every day with those whom we know and do not yet know but are soon to meet.

I would not change my experiences or my destiny for anything as this has been the very thing that has allowed me to create and manifest the best for me.
See this as a truth for you and not once doubt it and it too will come to cross your path.

I am only rich because I embrace the opulence of nature in all its beauty, as it lends me mine in all that is possible for me through God's choice manifestations. 😊

I'm careful with courage

I swear to my ceremony

Protect my mind


Whispers in my ear

Don't hurt me

Awakening

To the dream

I ask:


After you Dismiss me
Freeze me
Please

Bring me back to groundedness

———————————————————

Sit me back down on the chair with my

purse dangling

off its arch with red lipstick buried

in between my golden coins

I made a promise to my ancestors

To past achievers who didn’t survive:

The loss that came to me in baskets

Of highlighted

Mystery

I navigated

through

The loneliness that took my life

twisted into breaths of deeply rooted truths  
———————————————————

Chew on this. Wake up!

Look to the mirror of your

distorted views

You’ll see

how

to surpass the flames of insecurity

and shame


Everything I’ve ever wanted

has come to an equilibrium


Nothing more to do

In my eye lives a perfect wish

An improved soul

That we both get to choose:

Take me to the greatest future of my existence.

Acting is about intelligence. It is knowing more than your work. For you are the job and that is to be intelligent without relying on your rational brain to save you.
Your mind will always have an answer, but remember, the spirit led connection you create with your partner contain the wanted or the unwanted result.
Only the responses you have for yourself hold the power to change it.
Keep them light, intentional, and free.

Writing are the thoughts of a playful insightful vision, big or small, stored inside the secrets of its Universe made to effect, swayed to absorb, felt to come alive.

Without internal power, the only thing left on your slate is blank justice.

The artist finds whatever they need to spark their survival and then live it fully:

Speak your Affirmations with coherence and clarity. Then you’ll have confidence.

🦋  I control my state of mind
🦋  I speak my felt convictions into
affirmative authentic beliefs and pour them back out into the Universe on a consistent basis
🦋  I communicate my wants and needs with firm boundaries so that I am purposefully loved, respected, and trusted by others consciously

You’ve accomplished more than I ever imagined to believe

It is all possible.

And yet “just believing” never helps

I was in a phantasy plane


You knew the landing
page would shift


And bring me back to my life

Take me away

Alive and Glowing

Alive and Ready


This is brain fate
taking action

“Life is about turning your Pain into Power.
Take your pain and use it as fuel and turn it into Power.”

The most fearing is the most
frustrating  

The most pressing
comes through the window  
of the knowing  

that I wouldn't be ready for you 10 years ago

The thought that you may have never been able to know me

Even when I could see you in my dreams so vividly so specifically  
in the nature of this life form

I was drawn to so many others I secretly couldn't stand
in front of
without making me sick and quivel
they were never you
not once

They could only attempt to
try  
and  
replicate

Me
  
the connection the electric magnetic  
wires stretched between my teeth

caught up
in the circles of so many dimly lit flames screaming red caution  
splattered out pain  
I didn’t listen

I hadn’t a thing to gain  
except the knowing awareness  
through the respect of them  
All
deadlight, sound blank space
No pulse to work with until the truth came to talk to me during visits to the dentist and there I was just yearning for the attention of The One.  

They came one after the other as does a nightmare with a ***** little secret

It couldn't be
Real
I never told myself anything
I just knew

But what does it mean to know when you are only real
in your loneliness?

When no one can see you for who you really are

Makes you feel kinda lonely…  

This is the real prison.  

When you know that.
And there is nothing to do about it, but wait
pray but trust in Him my God, to let him move you fluidly straight to You in Light and Truth.  

I see you, I see you. And, you're not alone.
You're my best friend.  
One of the most amazing people I've ever known.

Taking Down the Mask with healthy vulnerability:

In order to evolve through each experience you need to evaluate

Pockets of Time.

Without change or experience of time there would be no butterflies

Love is NOT blind. It is very real and visible. I have embodied it and that is why I realize It is magikal.

You will feel it when it happens.
It will not be disguised. And it certainly will not be capable of passing you by without you knowing.

For there are never tricks, excuses, tactics, begets, mind f*s, complaints, or desperate desires involved in this kind of love game.

Vital

Holistic

Universal

Please me
When I soothe your pain
I will ease your strain
Unconsciously

Trust in the
Profusion

of your insides
Speaking out
Unconditionally
I know

Your health goes further than this certitude

It is reactionary
But precariously
beautiful
To watch  
when you do not expect
The possible
To Manifest its Shine

To You,

I was the page
So no one could put me together

No one could read me
like nobody could read you

I felt like a duplicate script

My life on a dime
with spiral

If I could survive
I think I'd drink my shot at life
in a glass of moscato filled with ice and savor

We have limited moments here on earth
Can you give me a sign from heaven?

Would it be safe to say
that you'll be on my side
In the end?

Is heaven such a thing that truly exists? Because I see sanction and the fruits of life in its eyes.

Only God knows how this life lies in times of trialed errors, mischievous days, in my many moments of masked disguise.

I need to see past the parts of shatter
How two humans can be made and not made
For the other
The disturbing distance
Created in a spin of unique difference
When long-standing oppression comes with mixed emotions
Opportunities never came back to me
They’re out there like glowing stars
But they don’t glitter for ones like me
They haven’t been offered yet

I met you in a world apart.
When you couldn’t reach me
I’ve been treated so long
As if I was becoming Insufferable

Fine winding tendrils that once cradled the heart
They say that promises sweeten the growth
But I don’t need this
I don’t need this

I need the sweetness, the mistrust, the kiss goodnight, the beacon light, the distance lost, the softness, the weakness
A Victory sweet
Love of my life

Oh I need this..

I’m a slow dying flower
At a frost biting hour
Slowly becoming untouchable

Do you remember the way
You missed me before
Your face spoke like promises
whispered like prayers

You better stop your mouth
Bite the words
hold your breath
Find your worth
And find yourself
Under my dress
Naked in bed
I love this
Scene
Cut

“What is discord at one point of your multidimensional being is harmony at its highest level.”

There is no reason as to why one is, that is the function of their chosen reality. To be who one is without knowing is being real. One is because one must be real. How real they are is another matter.

Let my guard down
Then you pulled it around

Close my eyes

I move
And you’re not there
This cage is deep and endless
Makes you insane
Going through the slide
Wake up on the silver lining

A dream maze
Slips through fairy dust
Powdered rain drops
and Power plays
Reappear
Just when I’m unprepared
Why couldn’t I see your actions defused?
This was psychological warfare

I was getting used to it
Someone you love
Is a more than trying on a feeling

It’s a commitment to the truth
Without the repetition of indecision

I can feel where you are.

But how can it be that you ask me to feel things you never show?

Act the way you are meant to
Not the way you are expected to.
That Is
Learning: Mind Body and Soul.


The phase is complete.
As the knife
Shatters the flow
my fears
Through
My compassion outgrows the butterfly out of its cocoon
AND I am saved

Through my forgiveness I am praised
By the message that our hearts bring to meet the brave rawness
That is
The Justice that I made
with what we have become
to one another.
And no one else can ever explain it to you.
From that I have learned…

We are Freedom Seekers
We are Liberators
We are Passion Feelers

We are Truth Finders
At the end of the day
We Are all Unknown Healers


I am a Shifter  
In a precocious bodice

An open follicle for life…
For life..

Part 1:

Mask on
Mask off

I have trespassed and tiptoed through dark roads and unquestionable choices  

I have moved to make the
journey holy
Mortality is identity concealed over time
And brought to life by us for We are.

Just like our masks tied on tight we must keep reviving one another like the heartbeat that pumps through the veins of Goliath.


Part 2:

We are here together in healing.
This Love is unity put back together in solid foundational form.

“A true creator is a dreamer, a visionary, a leader, an entrepreneur, a winner who just won’t give up.”

Learn to be at rest upon life’s shores
Follow your intuition when being fierce with it’s current.
Do not harm it, but correspond with it.
Then you shall find within it, a peace you never knew.
Throw the rocks you find back into burbling waters
The trees will overlook the act as your
friendships do
Let it be that you find a piece of hope
in your faith that carries you through..

“Not knowing the difference between 'acceptance' and 'friendly tolerance' is how we lose out most if not all of the time when we are out of focus”.  #truthsrule

The One for you is all for you. They have been created for you. They will be Everything that you've ever wanted, that you have asked for to the point of exact detail, that you have been dreaming of for years up until now, will stand before you in this reality, when you least expect it. That is the magic of this power of manifestation and creation through God, which is all, for he is the Universe in its grandiosity just inching to create what you can have on any one day out of nowhere in one spontaneous moment in time in a day if you believe you can. The best for you will come forth to you when you least expect it. That is the beauty of it all. When you do not know it has been patiently standing in the shadows to meet you in real time. It takes risk and unawareness to find the truth of your desire, you love, your life. #There is no competition with the reality of their existence if you truly believe in the fact of the possibility that they do somewhere out there in this great big, grand world of time and space and clear sharpened particles in motion. #Nothing will ever be a coincidence for you from then on when you start believing in this greatness, the beautiful trueness of such power to unfold and exist in real time, in this projected reality, as is your life, before your eyes without ever knowing when.
With ❤ and gratefulness, for ya.
Sincerely in the Power of belief.

When you get a glimpse of how much observed pain they have
It makes you want to stay away

Flee the scene

Wither into moonlight
Gaslight the words until they feel like …
A dial never received

Pretzel shell our bodies
Collapsed there

Heart to heart
Here
But not for me

Curve em
When they get too wordy
These stories
are…

Hard
wave crushin
on the ear
Repetitive
Like sound bites
Hardened on the inside
threatening to hear

The tone becomes
More and more unnecessary.


They do that thing with their mask on
Corks in the shame
Lasts the night away

Sick in a bed
On a sofa bench
Physical depletion
Hurts the pain
Covers up the fear when there’s nothing left
To say
and a megabit to share
Nobody to blame but them.

Strike out.

But the past and the pastor who told him to keep on prayin’
Stop the lyin’
Embrace the game

Even though it’s killin’ your brain

Like pop up blocks mergin’
From a black jack in the box

And One big sound wave

I’m like a virtuoso
Crippin’
on the break
But I knocked one down
With 20 years to go

I am an unresolved question
With Responses
Ready to flow
Waiting to go
But unprepared to show

Who I am and why I’ve become so unemotional

So burnt out and broken down
When all those blondies used to know
The real me.. now I’m a different Maverick
On the Hill
Father passing
Nothing really matters
He says: I’m cancelling Life out
“And Life has changed for me once again”

Those times
made my story ill
And now all I have is the fear of existence begging me to feel fulfilled
But I never will

Isolation
Attempts to brush away the flashbacks
Of my life
Calling out for help
When glam was my only pill

They’ll move one step forward.
Unsteadily. Still trying to make it.
Running from the shame of their own shadow

I used to work so hard at love

I’d say things I didn’t want to say
but for some reason
It felt right
I’d look at a man  
And expect him to look back
In my way

I would walk on coals
He tried to make a mad woman out of me
Just so I could take it

Be strong
Stop being so maladaptive I’d say

I was exhausting my truth into something less than
meaning itself
This other version of desperation
A high I could not refuse
But secretly detested  

I was amused
I was excused

I made my fortune and now it’s churning
Like the meltdown of a butter stick emerging out of its cache
The cacophony of life enraptured in its cocoon

Feeling through the infield
unfiltered rays
A new way has come to me

Forever growing
Metamorphosed
in gratitude

“All falsely perceived power can do is make the hand bleed that uses it”.

For all I’ve come across who chose to share their stories with me.

Thank you for giving me a window to transform into a powerful creator who shifts lives for all people experiencing and struggling with life’s challenges.
The act and the art of performance, poetry, and artistic expression has become the motivator and the catalyst for me to create this Shift, as a means for healing through the expressive arts and as a way to understand both humanity and the journey towards resilience in my own life.

I am grateful for the opportunity to channel circumstances and expand my knowledge in the cross section between the arts and mental health.

To the mentors (those whom I’ve spoken to and listened to their guidance and to the ones I haven’t met who are no longer with us) thank you for inspiring my consciousness and empowering me to claim my hidden power as a source for healing and creative action, so that I may live this way and pass it onto others.

To Emotional Well-being and exploring all the parts of who you are.
Such is like a beautiful butterfly
unmasked
coming out of its disguise
from out of its cocoon
Finally free from the glass that has tried to keep itself hidden from its true self.
Become that.
🦋✨

With gratitude and much healing your way,

❤️ LannaEvolved

I do not choose a game of mental chess
I'd prefer you show me
By trusting that we can hold the space

———————————————————

Undoing every punch
Lock my voice inside a dial tone of conflicting passions
It’s a curious thing when
You let these buried phantoms master you
They reappear and sweep you up
Into uncharted territories

As you sit and stare at their ghost of a memory
Knowingly
Dissecting the luminosity of your youth
Naive innocence
Still there
No faded imagery or idea is too far away to be
Believed
All is possible
in the mirror
of another world
Or so it seems…

In the box
I am sworn to secrecy

Petrified
His gaze against the shadows of the bars
has grown so weary
it deflates in fades
Suppressing the entirety of his remorse

‘To him, there seem to be a thousand bars
and back behind those one thousand bars no world’.

The soft
The righteous
The other step
runs away with the breath of space
In a time undefined by reason
In the smallest of shifts and turns, circling
moves like a dance of strength around a core
in which an eccentric
stands upright

In time there remains a question
The faith that transcends
The magic curtain slides
from side to side
soundlessly — He is there.

So many possibilities to be free from the beginning, and uproot the past of burden burgeoning like a flower’s ability to withstand change in unpredictable soil and yet still feel alive.

He expands through the tension
the calmness of limbs — and stems
in the heart which fate prescribes to be a mighty will stood parallel to them.  


Love is intentional and unintentional  decision making
The choosing of a
solidified destiny
A clairvoyant
romantic

Bat wings in my heart
Calm bleeding
Smiling full

This life is my teacher
Take me to a room
without an education please

Put down the book that moves the table and reads the script from my last piece

Not the other way around

Spiritual thinking could describe our destiny, the rest is fate

I’m not here to school you

Death happens
And clutter builds into a false enamel
Eventual decay
If not maintained

Fleeing toxicity is a freedom beyond understanding

Outside the peripheral
grief spins me upside down

The last flower petal remains
With it’s scent forever reminding
me
Of our song
In solitude

When the streets are lit with lamp designs
and Arabian nights alive in the instrumentals
My senses
mystified

The perfect combination

of understanding, compassion, and attention to the details
This is an emotionally available man

Sin is a perception
Redemption; clarity
Pure mist
The clearance of past partners
Leaves my space
To make rooms upon the doors newly turned
for an atmosphere of hope

The written letter as I write:

To my love, I love you with all my being.
For you are everything I asked for when
My mind left me
my consciousness awoke for you to be found by me now in this time
On earth. And that cannot be duplicated.
For I am Gratefully blessed. By you.
To our eternity.
Cheers to our eternity.

I’m with you.

We are what survives us.


From the brokenness came an artful way of living
The courageous element of my authentic truth
What is meant for me found me
Out of the disruption and uncertainty

Wonderful works of art came into my life online and on the outside

It is some higher form of amazing
and beautiful at the same time

New discoveries found
Found me during this spiritual global crisis
It was the time of heaven

When God added his voice to a democracy
To a feeling I could dive into and live forever in with you
I’m in gratitude of both your presence and your being

We lift one another up into the light
As Radical resilience
Lives on throughout our bodies
And our minds more than ever before
Why?
Because it
Trusts this love
It has faith in this love

We recognized each other when God placed us into the palm of an
Eternal pursuit
The one we’ve always hoped for
The kind where we can both place our faith in and feel certain of its purpose
The reality of a soul connection uninhibited untainted
Living with no answers is the foundation of
Soulmate spirituality
A rarity that escapes those without faith

Be true to your journey.
Never deny how much you’ve become to reach where you are.
Your authenticity, your curiosity, your passionate power to find your truth
has gotten you back
to you.
Never forget that soul.

Writing poetry has allowed me to let those parts of me (the parts behind the mask)
live somewhere during challenging times.

That is why I have placed them on the page; to be able to move towards them like a wave and flow into something deeper and greater and more powerful:
Shifting these stories of imagery and metaphor as they are and weaving them as a symbol of creating my life.

I see movement in the stillness and my learning to tolerate and move beyond it.
To grow with it to higher places of expectation of myself. And just knowing that enables me to feel better.
I hope it does for you as well.
You are loved and appreciated.



A Butterfly Unmasked:

Our bodies are not blank figures:
We are a composite of creation
Of invisible form
A container of
Thought
of body
in a jar
Of human Spirit
Taking down the mask
Each day
I invite you into my stories of poems.

With Love and Healing,
LannaEvolved

We come from separate lives
And we feel the separation in them

But when we find home...

Home feels the most comfortable peace
Tasting the best kept promise

It is kind of esoteric to look at yourself as the mirror of what was your past
what is and what will be.

Just like your transformation
You are in motion, organic form, occupying time and reconfiguring the shape of your molecules into something your intuition always knew was in you
to become.  

As I explore these waters, I am learning  how to balance humility with edge and strong mindedness.
I will send you my play to read later today.

I was once told “to demount the white horse of my privilege.”

I was once told that my entire community was primed for prejudice, but that I was still a chosen one.


Let me tell you...

To Become a True Woman of Honor
A combination of both
Is when I saw your true colors when you told me you saw mine.  

Seeing the same people come through the same lens
Born in a different time
A decade apart
Nothing alike
The ultimatum of race and social class stares you in the face and you get hit with its reality bold and clear
Incumbent upon disgust for the other
White and Black
Black and White
They were both doomed
The two asked for my forgiveness
to come back and give them a set of wings
anew
Grasping at desperation
And failing
Except I was not doomed

I became.
Knowledge  
I became.
Faith

I became.
Self-Love

I became.
Hope

I became.
My own truth.

I had to.  
This was the realization.

I am new.

Now for this chapter’s beginning
🦋

The world is one crooked expression
always crooning into the cosmos of a lunar addiction
The world waits to unfurl your subjective reality

And I’m just a brave voice in a space
responding to it

A friend told me, once you pin a star, you’re eternally a spear

The next day I heard from God
that his light is just a substitute for gold

According to the world, nobody keeps their promises

So we define a few things:

liquid-  a quench for realisation
solid- self-knowledge
gas- a dense fog circulating around our selfish ideals ___

We are a jumble of our own crooked expressions

In Perfect
Precision

I could **** up your science
With an angle like that

As humility pays homage to the sun’s yoke

Living in a system that is anything but solar

The circle of survival has transformed into a flaming ball of cruelty
A mystery of clouds submerging in unreliable metamorphosis

O, I wish you were still there to
keep me in place
safe away

My thought is a solid wanderer
And the value of humankind:

Human complexity: over esteemed

(Most people would like others to think that they are more than they are)
(That they have a lot more going on than what meets the eye)

The majority; shallow beings

In the face of God
we must judge our own mirror

For he could never be endowed
with more idolatry
than is deserved
None.
in simple praise alone

Be it cracked
or smooth
scraping with innocence
or far removed

Spiralling deep into the underworld

Some mermaid being shall pick it up
and bring it to her face
distorted
in a shell like shape

It remains
a constant
reminder
of who we are

A chosen ending
beneath all things  
ineffable

and above all
wonder
brimming

on the brink
of tears.

I am.