Manx Kronos Pragna: Poems

56 · Feb 2022

Mmm

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Mmm

I'm an open book
you're a closed in castle
i give you the key to each passage
but it doesn't matter
to you
I'm another *******
i bang on the gates
but each assault is a wash
and diplomacy doesn't work any better

55 · Feb 2022

They Can Stay Where They Lay

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

They Can Stay Where They Lay

three fingers of rye
talking about how tired and contrived
everything coming out of hollywood
is these days

cigarettes, burning in the night
watching men get bounced, denied
trying counts, and that's good
at least they say

atop my stool again
back in my booth
a familiar place
to offer comfort
ease and soothe

naked for the world's sight
from all the drugs i buy
no lie, i might stop if i could
let's let the chips ride
and if i die
it was the *****

54 · Feb 2022

Never No More

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Never No More

i care about you
i want you
if you're screaming
i want to be
screaming with you
or breaking down
though
anything to do with me
rest on these shoulders alone
stoic joke
i deserve to die

54 · Apr 10

For These People Barely Understand Themselves

Manx Kronos Pragna Apr 10

For These People Barely Understand Themselves

Don't make the mistake of listening to people who deal only in absolutes. For who everything is either black or white. These people are not intelligent and are likely not looking out for other individuals, rather they are looking out for their best interest as a collective. Whether that collective is as themselves as individuals within one structure or system, or that system or structure itself.

54 · Mar 2022

I'm Sorry?

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

I'm Sorry?

i feel like a *****
every expression
but i carry on
because i won't be misunderstood
i will stand for what i stand
and if you can't
then good

54 · Feb 2022

Good Enough

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Good Enough

i keep trying to write about you
but i don't need to
moreover i think you get
a sick sort of satisfaction from it
i hope it's enough to know
you started it
enough to feed your emptiness

54 · Mar 2022

I.O.U. Meaning

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

I.O.U. Meaning

i am done
with everyone
i know
and the man
in the mirror
can finally die
when i slit his throat
slow
and beads of blood
trickle
before the flood
flows
i greet

rising
crashing
this
warm fuzzy feeling
in my stomach
creeping across me
falling peacefully
in and out
pieces of me
coming out
clinging
just to slip through
i want to shout
but i have no mouth
and prayer
doesn't work
i'm not devout
so i go on
wondering about
free of doubt
free of it all
casting a shadow
as my character

54 · Mar 2022

No More Free Rides Or Meals

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

No More Free Rides Or Meals

you are an *******
and just the most despicable person i know
dad
*******
after all i do for you
when it should be
flipped
what an abrupt end
we're putting to this relationship
but it's good
bud
i'm finished

54 · Nov 2021

Loving Can Be

Manx Kronos Pragna Nov 2021

Loving Can Be

love
they say of you
that our thoughts should never be in vain
even when you cause misery
even when you cause pain
to stay true to the soul
before you're taken by the soil
and not to let your heart be sullied
by the strains of the toil
loving can be
oh, but how wondrous
how absolutely terrific
certainly and undeniably
of all
the greatest thing we can share in
oh but how wondrous
loving can be

54 · Feb 2022

I'm so sad

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

I'm so sad

i'm finally starting to believe
all those things
you said to me
finally feeling like
i can leave
without losing anything
there was nothing ever really there
for the girl who can't ever actually care

but really empty

54 · Mar 2022

Don't Care

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Don't Care

i **** on company time
cause they pay me
pennies to dimes
and if i can't
squeeze it out
fast enough
you're gonna shout
and do what?
hey get loud
i understand
i understand
the pain in the bowels
check it at the door
like the ache, in the hands
want of the finer
ideas of flowers
and a boss,
not an automaton,
but a man
i know
want a job done right?
take it into your own hands

53 · Feb 2022

Sleep Is A Euphemism

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Sleep Is A Euphemism

sleep is a euphemism
for the slicing of throats
for the slitting of wrists
the silencing of hope
voices that echo
shadows imprinted
onto flesh, onto stone
embedded deep into marrow
to cause ache in the bones
of souls long lost
never made whole

euphemism

53 · Mar 2022

Psilocybin

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Psilocybin

"are you okay, you look like you're going to cry"
yes, yes, i'm fine
why, am i red?
i'm okay i swear
i can breathe
i'm aware
i'm getting choked up
frogs in my throat
it's nothing
don't cry
don't cry
till you get home

53 · Mar 2022

Don't Help

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Don't Help

idle spring
the vision of her,
idyllic.

comparatively
it's all nothing
your mood can vary,
mine does not.
make **** look simple,
with a mind
that could ****,
but you don't scare me.
wish you were just
totally open
but i get it
i still can't
help from hoping

53 · Jun 27

Untitled #

Manx Kronos Pragna Jun 27

Untitled #

From the stream, I waded.
Through long strands,
Like tall grass or reeds,
I stood.
From out of the waters, I walked.
In the forests, I awakened.
In the fields, I blossomed.
In the valleys, I bloomed.
On the mountain, I grew.
The clouds parted, the mist evaporated - the fog was lifted.
As I looked to the stars, I knew.

53 · Feb 2022

It's very boring though it should be exciting

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

It's very boring though it should be exciting

i typically don't talk much about myself
like the new job, my second now
or skydiving
getting drunk with new friends
speeding to 121 while driving
cliff diving
the mountainous hiking
or the praise from my manager
and a raise coming
these things feel like they don't matter

53 · Mar 2022

Gitarre

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Gitarre

the heart murmurs
what the mind will no longer hear
it's no longer a need
to just be firmer
or to share,
the hopes and fears
because it doesn't draw you near
and i am left
holding my heart out

52 · Feb 2022

Eyes

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Eyes

there's a picture you sent
that i can't help but stare
at night, when i'm bundled up in bed
i just lose myself in it
cause they're just so deep and
i know i should probably quit
but there's something here
that i wanna stick with

52 · Feb 2022

Leaving The Dog

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Leaving The Dog

please stop reading
into what i'm saying
and just ******* forget me
pretend like you'd never met me
it's for the best

52 · Mar 2022

Heart to God, Hand to Man

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Heart to God, Hand to Man

you are just such a sham of a person
and you say you live
your life for others
but how much you do for yourself
things that serve your self interest
give it a rest
with the self righteous nonsense
or is your head
so far up your own ***
you think yourself conscientious?

52 · Feb 2022

Starry Eyed Liar

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Starry Eyed Liar

you think stoicism stupid
yet you subscribe to it
and love men who are
hypocrite
among many other names

52 · Mar 2022

Last Night, Pre-Flight

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Last Night, Pre-Flight

i am a freak
all i do
is hurt the ones i love
and abandon them
and then come back into their lives
to wreck things more
what is wrong with me
i cry and ask
covering my face
and curling into a ball
i have no trust
for my friends
and the love i have
is sick, obviously
i don't believe anyone can love me
i wish
for so much
and how much do i give
how much do i work
is it enough
or anywhere near
i have no idea
i can't see clear
past, my past
it fogs my thoughts
and dogs me
till they're present,
there in the moment with me
and i subcum
i am nothing more
than everything i despise

52 · Nov 2021

Warmth No Longer Residing

Manx Kronos Pragna Nov 2021

Warmth No Longer Residing

I wake up alone
Something that before, had no affect
Now it chills me to the bone
Took it all for granted, in retrospect

And I'd do it all different
Were time such
That it'd allow me to do what I didn't
But it's better I guess, I'm learning hard

Hardly learning, cause I'm too held up surviving
Afraid of flying, cause all I've done is dying
So I think, I'll just sit for a while
Till I pluck up the courage to fake a smile

I can't say what it is
That causes me to fracture
Like a glass mirror
The reflection is but a static actor

If you want to really know
What exactly is the truth of the matter
At this point I'd say I'm not broken just battered
I'll stay standing
Cause laying down is easy
When I'm ready to go
I'll just be leaving

51 · Mar 2022

Then Leave

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Then Leave

you are a selfish person
i think the worst thing
is you know it
lead me on
because of boredom?
used
like an emotional ******
and discarded just as quick
regarded
as a contact
to complain to
when you're in a stitch
or you've
just got that itch
this is how i see it
if you needed me
for even the most miniscule
i'd drop everything
but this 60/40,
that **** isn't working

51 · Mar 2022

Loose Change

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Loose Change

sick of chasing
you're the one
that always
runs through my mind

this field
my makeup
reality
is muddled

eyes that echo
dreamy moonlit eves
i have to let go
if i don't i'll drown

leave, and make it
the last time you do
if you come down
i'm goin too

now i think
i'm happier than
i'll ever be
still in misery

that's the best
i can hope for
a loser like me
it's a mystery

why i still live
i appreciate
the love y'all give
but it's *******

so i'm hunting
this bottom is no peak
doubt i find what i seek
but won't catch me fronting

51 · Feb 2022

M.A.D.

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

M.A.D.

how often do you go around
making beds
but never rest
you please on your knees
begging, baby
don't take out
the anger on me
it don't pay to be meek
but these words
are of no use
while we **** away our youth

51 · Mar 2022

Wretched Existence

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Wretched Existence

probably
i take it all too personally
i'm just having fun
what's the harm
it's only a little
but what's the outcome
look around
this is something
only our parent's parents
could've out done

50 · Mar 2022

First Gen

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

First Gen

66
works harder than i do
is stronger
obviously, vastly more experienced
that comes with the territory
"you get raise?"
hell yeah! $2
"that nice, they only give me ¢0.60."
¿what?
"yea, ¢0.60 and they give you $2. i work here 15 years and i only make $1.60 more. how should i feel?"
i would feel insulted. to give that much of your life.
"yes, exactly. so you tell me max, what should i do?"
i don't know Jay! i understand completely where you're coming from, i would feel the same in your position. do you want $1.40 from me? seriously, i'll gladly give it to you. you tell me what you want to do
silence
acceptance
that we cannot change a thing
from where we stand
that i cannot change a thing today
from where i stand
and it kills me

50 · Feb 2022

Hospital

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Hospital

i wish i could read
your actual thoughts of me
get my leg up
with all my capacity
to walk away
and leave you
in your cacophony

50 · Mar 2022

I I I I I

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

I I I I I

insecure, unsure
i should just **** myself
and get it over with

i am only living for others
it all feels so pointless
it all feels empty

and no one respects me
like everyone hates me
and i hate me

i'm disgusting
and blow up
from the littlest things

i, the fool
**** me

50 · Feb 2022

It Ain't Personal

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

It Ain't Personal

your man
makes me despise all men
even though
i just should despise you
i can't bring myself to
he's just a boy
i guess you're just a girl
can't see clearly
close my eyes, but you still stir
in my mind
reaching out my arm
but it just reminds
of all the time apart
the slits you've cut
that which you done
what was harm
stays with me
putty in your palm
mashed and grated
spliced, and dissected
like your veterinary demonstrations

50 · Jun 27

Amun-Ra/Change/Culmination/Action

Manx Kronos Pragna Jun 27

Amun-Ra/Change/Culmination/Action

I who give choice.
I who give voice.
I who engenders vision.

Who gives life to the senses.

50 · Feb 2022

Silence, Like At The End Of A Hangman's Noose

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Silence, Like At The End Of A Hangman's Noose

solo
cause how often
has that been a way
i have gone
totally on my own
maybe each hit
will be softened
close my eyes to the ****
going on worlds over
disconnect from the news
turn off my phone
it's all over
whatever was going on

50 · Mar 2022

I Know You'd Look Good In White

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

I Know You'd Look Good In White

i read a poem
about limerence
and it probably should've connected
but it didn't
doesn't change the fact
you still treat me like crap
and whatever i am to you
i'd like to know
but there aren't ever straight answers
and you don't feel any need to explain things
i won't be
a solo dancer
to the tune
of a waltz

50 · Mar 2022

Gotta Get Sober

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Gotta Get Sober

everyone is her
everything said
is something she wrote
i'm a fool
but you are too
good
maybe separate
we'll learn something
a call away
hop and skip
but i know
i'll never see that day
nice while i could
stomach being the only
one to care
no longer stand
the empty things you say
leave me drained
i understand
you're not a player right
you just crush a lot
top, but i feel like
i'm getting ******
all my life
the worst people
been my destruction
and my own
everyday betrayals
layers of
dis-function

50 · Mar 2022

The Heart Murmurs What The Mind Will No Longer Hear

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

The Heart Murmurs What The Mind Will No Longer Hear

remember our youth
because i will
how i would have killed
for moments with you
given nail, tongue, and tooth
would've done things uncouth
been ruthless
for just a kiss
now that i can
it's out of my hands
but there are things i still control
and a number of things
i now better understand

49 · Feb 2022

Jane's Ladder

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Jane's Ladder

quid pro quo
don't act like you don't know
you only get
if you give a show
turn a trick
or pucker and blow
what's that honey
"qualifications?"
why don't you
bend over
and give me a demonstration
get a role
if you're still pure
like fresh fallen snow
my un-plucked rose
cherry red cheeks
like maraschino

49 · Feb 2022

E=

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

E=

i won't think about before
yesterday
tomorrow be ******
my future, and past
tell after, it's canned

49 · Mar 2022

But His Bench Was Hard Rock

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

But His Bench Was Hard Rock

lunch in the park
on a bench by the stream
babbling
lost in the book i read
while the brook streams
leaves down past
and sunlight
dances, through the trees
to greet me
glided across the pages
like so many before me
through the ages

49 · Mar 2022

Summer Will Be Hot

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Summer Will Be Hot

these days ahead
will be more difficult
than the challenges
we faced only
months ago
younger
naive
of course we didn't know
war lied in front of us
youth like
disturbed snow

48 · Feb 2022

What Else Am I Offered?

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

What Else Am I Offered?

i feel nothing at all
it's good to know
that at the bottom
you can still fall
to give way to new lows
where you thought
there was no more to go
brother, seat yourself in the first row
you're in for quite the show

48 · Jun 27

Atlas/Gravity/"Inaction"

Manx Kronos Pragna Jun 27

Atlas/Gravity/"Inaction"

In the vibrations, I bring coherence;
From "ocean" waves, I bring form.
Amid all the points,
Like stones thrown,
It is I who lift them up
Onto my shoulders.

48 · Feb 2022

Empire Of Dirt

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Empire Of Dirt

use me
as a tool of gratification
comfort at a snap
but that's all i am to you

47 · Feb 2022

Just Thought You Should Know

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Just Thought You Should Know

i was thinking last night
about how amazing you are
an interesting, multifaceted, individual
all you've accomplished with all you've faced
i'm so proud of you
i know your future contains big things
you're going to do great

47 · Mar 2022

Pull You By The Hair

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Pull You By The Hair

still wanna blow your back out
make you shake
eat it all up
holler my name
grab my hair
ride my face
pull my hips
choke you out
and throw it in the air
hear you shout

47 · Mar 2022

I Should Be So Lucky

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

I Should Be So Lucky

he's a grown man
well, that petty much says how you see me
i guess i might be bothered
if i gave credence
to others' thoughts
regarding myself
but i do
yours
does it give you joy
to play on my anxieties
never see me
a faceless joke
for you to stoke
to keep the laughs going

47 · Feb 2022

It's Useless To Try

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

It's Useless To Try

happy hours
in the dawn of day
before it all begins
and i can listen
to the birds sing
the rustle of the trees
from the breeze
rolling through

47 · Mar 2022

No Compassion

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

No Compassion

this is hell
i think you will always have my heart
i want you to have it
but it does nothing for you
and you can't love me
so it's wasted

46 · Mar 2022

Dope

Manx Kronos Pragna Mar 2022

Dope

i go
below
skinning my soul
to depart from the shoal
and the shores of man
all the news of war
and my failing love life
the work that bores
my two real friends
hating me
never accepting
living for nothing
while others die
for everything
but what does any of it mean

46 · Feb 2022

Choke On It

Manx Kronos Pragna Feb 2022

Choke On It

know how "broken" you are
so that's not it
how you can maim me
make me hurt
but i always ask for more
shove another excuse down my throat