preclude the multitude
of thoughts drenched
in savage observations
savagery, like apathy
are better let
to pass you by

I'm so glad you could make it
to think
it never happened if you had hesitated
you better watch out
it's not life on a cloud
if you choose to live loud

and it's not pride
cause I'm not proud
it's just a visage I wear
a mirage, facade, a shroud

foaming at the mouth
can't let it come out
slowly stop the ache
and live
on the edge

somewhere-in the absence of light
carry me out
somewhere out of sight
lay me down
and I'll tell the truth
petals falling all around
you can have them
if you want to

the cringe of nightly thoughts
that linger on past the dimming
of lights on the bedside
it's night like these
that keep alive
the torment I carry
and cannot relieve
no matter how hard
I might try
it's nights like these
I am still happy
to be alive

Sable & satin dreams
she's with me with eyes closed
but dissappears at the break of eve
at the brink of reprieve
you come back to me
every time,
what is it you seek

I know you feel all alone
even with me here
I wish I could be more to you
though I know I alone am not enough
I try to push you out
out of the house
on the road
down and out
my luck is **** with this stuff
and I never get it right with words;
I just want for you to blossom

many intertwined lineages
have I been the result of
from whence my people have come
the wealthes of their lives
the zero and sum
rail-men, bootleggers, c.e.os and c.f.os
simple tradesmen and
practitioners of medicines
and am I of the most reticent
to commitment