no one
i know
likes you
when you're the topic of talk
faces turn sour
with scowls
cause they say
you don't treat me well
unwell
possibly all about
herself
try for so long
but in the end
all i did
was harm
to myself
i relent
letting you go
who knows
if this feelings goes too
please
make sure it do
half of me thinks
you want it so
i never get over you
it's moot
like soot
this friendship leaves
on my brow
cause it just feels like work
burning, just to see me hurt
and i do it too
good luck with things
since you don't keep friends
loose ends
why not just take me out

if whispers
could siphon off
even an ounce
of the love
you made me felt
i'd ramble
into the night

till first light
graced my face
and the sky
was lit up

everyone is her
everything said
is something she wrote
i'm a fool
but you are too
good
maybe separate
we'll learn something
a call away
hop and skip
but i know
i'll never see that day
nice while i could
stomach being the only
one to care
no longer stand
the empty things you say
leave me drained
i understand
you're not a player right
you just crush a lot
top, but i feel like
i'm getting ******
all my life
the worst people
been my destruction
and my own
everyday betrayals
layers of
dis-function

this is hell
i think you will always have my heart
i want you to have it
but it does nothing for you
and you can't love me
so it's wasted

silently crying
driving
the tears come down
welling up
behind my eyelids
streams cut
over the ridges
of my face
smoothly riding

"are you okay, you look like you're going to cry"
yes, yes, i'm fine
why, am i red?
i'm okay i swear
i can breathe
i'm aware
i'm getting choked up
frogs in my throat
it's nothing
don't cry
don't cry
till you get home

cringey stuff
what is it about
my emotions
that i gotta
express them
through this method
say less
in the coming days
shut my mouth
keep my head down
and just stay quiet
until i die
dice roll
snake eyes that cry
next roll, sevens
eleven, slurpees
blueberry ice
nice dreams
chong with the ****
and that makes me cheech
can't never win
gotta stop trying
busted
gambling
love is a high stakes game
leave you
broken, lost, roaming
and rambling
i ain't happy here