cause i like it
cause i like it
when you cry
it's like ecstacy
for every ounce of pain
you've caused me
i don't want you to die
and prematurely
end your suffering
prolong it all
watch you bleeding,
happiness ain't for me,
stab at beauty
it's reflection is ugly
inside
what you hide
festers faster
than if you hadn't
there was never
a happily ever after

you want to be
my world
end all be all
my God
the deity i swear by

you don't even try

little trees
and water running over
swollen streams
broken dreams
splintered from reality

should they have remained
contained in this head
this infatuation
dirt colored eyes
but tombstone shy

why

prone to self righteousness
stubborn headed
and an indecisive *****

i wanna be a leader
hero complex
riding in lacking context

search through the catalogue
and scan the index
find the best and onto the next

keep the heart close
cause rest isn't for the wicked
no shut eye to begin with

i'm beginning
to believe i lost
who am i

when i began
i was sure i knew
but things never go to plan

sick of chasing
you're the one
that always
runs through my mind

this field
my makeup
reality
is muddled

eyes that echo
dreamy moonlit eves
i have to let go
if i don't i'll drown

leave, and make it
the last time you do
if you come down
i'm goin too

now i think
i'm happier than
i'll ever be
still in misery

that's the best
i can hope for
a loser like me
it's a mystery

why i still live
i appreciate
the love y'all give
but it's *******

so i'm hunting
this bottom is no peak
doubt i find what i seek
but won't catch me fronting

i feel the moss
between my toes
and the mud
i fell into
only minutes earlier

loss, is a cost
we all have to pay
suffering
blood on the window
of the lense
we all see through

on your knees
we'll figure it out
it's okay
and we don't pray
but **** do we wish

and each kiss
means everything to me
i know how much they mean to you
and i never have any
intention to hurt you

and baby
i just want to die

should i give up
on thoughts of us
as us
and not separate

call it bust
and quit
cause i'm ****
and a liar

stressin, cause i'm guessin
every moment
what you do
on fire

desire
is you
and pleasure falls through
no kiss compares

spring breath, for these winter lungs
your warm lips
the feeling of your hair
as i run my fingers

and share
every thought
even if you don't
or care

i come correct
and direct
straight from the heart
can pour out my chest

what's in my head
is a terminal of tracks
trains rushing past
with no destination

procrastination
and set my interal clock
back, one time last
rescind the old, new revisions

forget what came prior
close your eyes
when you tire
so close them, forever

no coming down now
trying to reach you
through the silence
has me wondering how
they did it in the past
back in the day
"simpler" times
of things denied
ages long of repression
regression, into what we were
like is the fashion of the day