Shattered dreams, wasted life
Life is such a messy but beautiful rhyme scheme
Tucked in with a bullet or knife
Cracked door, wounded fists
Black and white tilted tiles on the floor
Our existence is a gift
Stop the urge to commit felo-de-se in a feverish haste
Life is too precious for you to waste
Hoping if there is a switch to turn off or on
Depressed mode, traumatized all alone
I’ve been in therapy for too long now
Talking to myself somehow
I find glee and sorrows in medications and IV
Been astonishingly reminiscing of enchanting poison ivy
In my deep sleep, I lie in my deathbed
Don’t ever weep
I will forever be in your head
Praying for my soul to depart
I’m not in my right mentality
Been experiencing aching heart, irrational personality
I’ve got swollen eyes
Due to your intoxicating lies
My whole life seems to crash
I’ve had a painful and traumatic past
Later then I realized, arson comforts me
The smell of the black smoke soothes me
Counting sheep no longer persuades my sleep
I cry myself to sleep
My soul agonizes and burns
In the scorching heat of Hell
I hope they wish me well
It is indeed a twisted fate of takes and turns
I once remember when I was still alive and breathing
You were glad of my existence, of my undying presence
Those memories we spent together, thinking
Remember when I took you the river
It made you shiver
But you gently flowed me down the stream
I was glowing, shining bright like the moonbeam
I treated you like a king
But you only treated me like a fool
And you only used me as a tool
For you to get everything
I’m so immune already with your unkind lies
Hence, I don’t know how many more turns do I have to twist
But why am I facing this bitter strife?
I wish It would no longer last
I hope this does not last forever
Yet it melts me right through my core
Oh, is it required for me to feel this every day
It still feels like a daydream
I’m still facing this unpredictable pain
No need for me to repeat it
I know I’ll never get over with it
You line me up like domino tiles
If I’m fragile as ****, I’ll know I’m fragile
Then stacks me up like a deck of cards
As I slowly sink from the depths of my despair
And realize that it’s not fair, it ain’t fair
As soon as you let me fall in one place as planned
Like a domino effect
I haven’t realized about its cause and effect
You didn’t even care enough
But for you, there is so many things
That I cannot condone or disregard
Hope you remember the note I wrote in capital letters
“I’LL COME BACK FOR YOU” haunting you alive
While karma seems to knock on your door
Masterpieces and evidence were all laid on the floor