Can’t keep up on my level
You created a monster out of me
That makes me a dauntless rebel
Soothing affairs and comforting lies, they got me
You told me what to do, though I never asked,
Said it’s just advice, but it feels like a mask.
You don’t see the pain that I silently bear,
Unrequited love, but you don’t seem to care.
Ready whenever I like to buzzkill
Don’t be such a bitter pill
I’m one to talk, I thought it would give me a rain check
Fooled me once or twice
But I once returned to 2021
Back to where and when you first met me
It caught me reminiscing on something that was already gone
Though everything has been said and done
It was treacherous and killing me
A global pandemic arises
I regretted every moment slowly fading
Slowly turning into a reality of memories
Heard different sides of the stories
It seems tempting, too unrealistic to believe in
It took me back to when you first loved me
It was heaven, but it felt hellish too
You were kept on love-bombing me
I highly doubted it though
Told me comforting lies and unbelievable truths
Yet you made me rot in hell, like my dignity and worth
But now, you keep coming back
You keep wanting me back
How do you sleep at night?
Do you still think of me?
Do you have any right to keep me?
I think not, I want you out of my sight
(3-22-21)