Midnight black eyes
seeing all the evil
breath between my legs
in bed with the devil
hell's demon seed sown
screamed heaven's name.
Hunger for raw meat
****** as hell better
baby furious heartbeat
makes me strong as hell
******* black milk gorged
I crave ****** constantly
his claws tear my button.
birth. our son's fangs
suckle chew for blood.

Midnight black eyes
seeing all the evil
breath between my legs
in bed with the devil
hell's demon seed sown
screamed heaven's name.
Hunger for raw meat
****** as hell better
baby furious heartbeat
makes me strong as hell
******* black milk gorged
I crave ****** constantly
his claws tear my button.
birth. our son's fangs
suckle chew for blood.

It was just another
  womb to betray
  just one more day
  just another mother
  9 long months sober
  last day of October
  in the witch's brew
  it's coming true
  Rosemary's baby due.
  devil's lover knew.

Later can wait. Let's talk now.
   Do you love me? I don't love you.
   You're my sister, not wanted lover.
   Desire burned out long ago, changes.
   Let's live like Royals having lovers
   sleeping in separate beds enduring
   family obligations in a bedroom that
   reminds me cruelly what we used to be.

There must be someway out of here
   said the patient to the shrink.
   I can write a script for ******
   that might help you think.
   Give me your magic I said
   maybe I'll find another door.
   Don't be in such a hurry
   just be grateful for the floor.
   I'll need to see you often
   you're in a fragile mind.
   I'll write your script forever
   as long as you stay blind.

We met drunk in our bar
midnight halos north star
Woke hungover in a bed
naked lovers instead
morning communion
consummated our union
love is a dying Unicorn
never should be born.

we fall in love
it's gooey
we "sleep"
days and nights
****** thin
junior high grin
maybe dead but
we don't care
we stitch our lives
together and take
our love cross the
country to Seattle.
we live in love
and make our Bailey
your Buddha belly
I kiss each night
for good luck and
I'm losing my mind
love's flame is a
flickering candle
I keep falling in love
every day with strangers
I live in purgatory
I don't want to fall in love
with them.

I'm falling into ruins
my body grey stone
drowned herons
died to be alone.
I hold you inside me
promised back then
young we were free
before we had been.

I've run a thousand miles at least.
Am I running to or from the beast?
Do I run away? Am I chasing youth?
I run to the moon looking for truth.
I run from vows the nine to five
paychecks to barely stay alive.
I'm running back to the start
until dreams die in my heart.

I've run a thousand miles at least.
Am I running to or from I wonder?
Am I chasing youth? Do I run from years?
I run from promises I made and I run
to lovers to make more pinky swears.
I will run until I die inside your heart.

I made it to the finish line.
Near dead on my feet still not
sure who won this race of
Pegasus runners not caught.

Runner's High

The first time was sanctified
forever after was mystified
I'm still running until I died.
Bury me with my Nike's.

Wait for the starting gun
then run rabbit run
Chase love for fun
**** me I'm done
I'll miss the sun
I'm happily numb.

Crossing Texas I hear
a voice on my AM radio
sounded like gramps.
A comfort to hear truth
about DC's gaslighting.
He faded in the thunder.
I turn the dial all day
on my way to wonder.
We need his voice
guide us to rejoice.

Crossing Texas I hear
a voice on my AM radio
sounded like my grandpa.
A comfort to hear truth
of DC's gaslight gigolos.
He faded in the thunder.
I turned the dial all day
looking for his wonder.

They took away my throne and stole
    my crown, stripped me of my epaulets,
    spat on my family and killed us all.
    Chaos reigned and rabble took control.
    Crazy zealots fought it out and the
    Marxists won the dice roll and killed
    religion and freedom and got rich
    living like kings selling our rags.

I never believed in anything
as much as I believed in you.
I'll never forget you. Your
heartbeat is still in my own.
You taught me how to love.
You taught me patience and
humility and to be kind when
it wasn't deserved but needed.
I need you more than ever to
help find my way back alone.

I never believed in anything
as much as I believed in us.
I'll never forget dog breath.
You taught me how to trust.
You taught me patience and
humility and to be kind when
it wasn't deserved but atone.
I need you more than ever to
show me the way back home.

I never believed in anything
as much as I believed in you.
I'll never forget you. Your
heartbeat is still in my own.
You taught me how to love.
You taught me patience and
humility and to be kind when
it wasn't deserved but needed.

I never believed in anything
as much as I believed in us.
I'll never forget dog breath.
You taught me how to trust.
You taught me patience and
humility and to be kind when
it wasn't deserved but atone.
I need you more than ever to
show me the way back home.

Sick as hell he needed to
be put out of his misery.
I spilled a river of tears
waiting until his ending.
We laid him on a blanket
and fed him endless treats
while the vet put poison
in him to give him peace.
We're both chasing *****
in our dreams together.

I never believed in anything
as much as I believed in you.
I'll never forget you. Your
heartbeat is still in my own.
You taught me how to love.
You taught me patience and
humility and to be kind when
it wasn't deserved but needed.
God's own Golden Retriever.

Roar of the sea on the shore
  like thunder scares my dog
  I rescue him from any more
  carry him up stairs of fog
  he's my last chance to forgive
  my cruelty from way back when
  at war I'll live and let live
  be better than I've ever been.

I died but the clock kept ticking
   and I wished I could start again
   but the second hand kept sticking
   I cracked the code and had to win
   I was buried on Easter weekend I
   thought I'd see the Jesus Christ
   leave His grave and finally fly
   I stayed dead I was sacrificed.

My heart bleeds
Love's old scars,
planted sad seeds
in a sky of stars.

I was born a turtle. Kids put me on
the road and watched me squashed.
I was born a parrot and captured and
broke into an odd pet in your cage.
I was born a duck and cruelly drowned
for your convenience. My father was
at war and lost his kindness and I
was squashed, caged and drowned

We lost our souls
and digits in deep
blue seas saltwater
a deep blue sleep.
Drop a tear in the sea
for my memory
kiss me in Davy Jones
locker just let it be.

I'm so far away from your feelings.
    We exist in different worlds. I want
    this you want that. Let us let go.
    Find your saint. I'll find my sinner.

Gloucester, MA.
       Fish stick man in
       a yellow slicker
       we blew our minds
       in a bed of tears
       naked in a cottage
       on the shore we
       tried too hard to
       hold onto Love's
       mercury bleeding
       through fingers
       empty after all.

Gloucester, MA
       Fish stick man in
       a yellow slicker
       we blew our minds
       in a bed of tears
       naked in a cottage
       on the shore we
       tried too hard to
       really hold Love
       mercury bleeding
       through fingers
       empty after all.

blood cords stand out in my neck
  throbbing with my beating heart
  never a true ending or a true start
  I barely played a supporting part
  water now ankle deep ink blot shark
  waits for Davy Jones feeding at dark.

Never knew his wife
their complex life
look in her eyes
her vows or lies.
Guilt always bleeds
into all our seeds.
innocent grandson
never mind the fun.

We started at the finish line
but never finished it in time
your speed bump totaled my life
I played the part
of a grieving wife
with devastated heart
between the earth and sea
is a perfect place for me
buried in the sun and sand
wearing a wedding band.

The whole world is out tonight.
Dancing and celebrating and seducing
one another over drinks and  taxi rides
to his bed and a disappointing ****.
She wakes early and dresses and flees.
She hopes he'll call her later today.

Look out your window at midnight
through falling snow and see me.
I stand naked a frozen white statue.
I'm dying for your desire. Save me

I have no heart no soul.
  I live in a field of corn
  never empty never full
  never died and never born.
  Clothes stuffed with straw
  to scare away black crows
  until the harvest in Fall
  death beaten chaotic rows.

Can I stop the treason?
No I **** in cross winds
no sense of solid reason
fallout buries my friends.

I have scars of life
mostly self inflicted
bad judgement of youth
just accidental addicted
to a crack ******* pipe
and Satan's debauchery
Eden's fruit now ripe
Eve offers her cherry.

I have scars of life
mostly self inflicted
bad judgement of youth
just accidental addicted
to a crack ******* pipe
and Satan's debauchery
Eden's fruit now ripe
Eve gives me her cherry.
I take it as a treasure
covet as I do her heart
the fiercest pleasure
will tear us both apart.

I keep scarring my heart
with scabs from my tears.
I keep playing my part
for too many years.

We fell in love under scattered night
scattered souls living scattered lives
beneath scattered stars above us
making scattered love after all.

I have to find you
tell you I need you
scattered lovers
under life's covers.

Cremated fireplace ashes in a box
  with my name on it. Is this me or
  an imposter who was a ******* ****?
  Sounds like me anyway just a *****.
  Take my cremains and flush me down
  a favorite throne with a padded seat.

I.

    I disappeared in my shrink's office one day.
    I saw no windows or doors.
    I was trapped inside my head
    full of twisted little passages
    with no sense of up or down  
    and it was like nothing
    I've ever known.

                  II.

    I was in a cruel place of my own design,
    lust my mistress and love the sacrifice.
    My tragedy was going off script and violating
    every moral code that was ever taught me.
    My splice of the film jams and melts and
    my image disappears into only god knows.

Cars hiss by my window in the rain
   sound like snakes living in my brain
   coiled tight to strike my psyche again
   fangs sink deep leave poison and pain
   turn black the madman's telltale stain.
   You signs the papers.  I'm insane.

I swim against God's awful
tide my whole ****** life.
I'm determined to find love
from anything that matters.
My heartbeats a jackhammer
tearing up the concrete in
terrible no name streets we
strolled before our deaths.

I'm living but
I'm dead am I
Schrodinger's
cat in a box?
Maybe I'm just
a loose thread
unravels in time
world comes apart.

You took a small boat
  to the middle of the China Sea
  puking all the way for
  samples of eons ago when
  dinosaurs roamed the earth.
  Science is not for the weak.

I told you how this ends. Fire
  and brimstone. Corpses beyond
  recognition, blood, bones, body bags,
  the kids, and worst of all animals.
There's no escaping the fires
of Hades once unleashed.

You thought you'd live forever
in the ***** of your lover
but she drowned in a river
of her overflowing liver
and you lost your direction
and died in imperfection.