I will follow you
to the peace tree
where you jeer
and hang me.
I dared to say
forbidden word
Capital N
and bigger.

what road defeats me?
what breath my last?
what walls my prison?
what tale is my past?
who's left to remember?
who's going to care?
who will light a candle?
who will shed the tear?

Youth's ignorance neglects
grey old men and kissing
women nursed their parents
1930 yearbook is missing.
Listen as they whisper a
warning to live for today
for tomorrow we all die.
Class pictures on display.

I've used substances to balance my tilt.
     Smokes, beer, wine, ****** and Xanax.
     They've helped me to stay in the lines.
     I chose to ignore the rules and live on
     a pinball machine with frenetic energy.
     All I want is a drug to bring me back
     to this earth where I began the journey.
     Please take these cravings from my mind.
     The Chemists come up with carnival rides.
     Up and down and everywhere in between,
     Coney Island madness in their tiny pills.
     Bring me back from this life on Mars.

I understand your madness.
It explains your starry night
humanity so black and white
colors splendid in the light.

I broke my own first
maybe it was worst.
It hurt me from Dad
war's scars were bad.
So much love wasted
Lovers barely tasted.

Sing these poems silent
make them your song
feelings always spent
right a certain wrong.