I don't know me anymore.
Am I a monster galore or
lover's I always bought
without a second thought?

She's a spur in my saddle
  a boil on my ***
  drive 10 hours rattle
  heart attack just gas

  to any question asked
  recites her biography
  point to pain for me
  I was born by the sea

  she's stone in my shoe
  she just wants to die
  I hate to disappoint,
  just can't say goodbye.

I have reached an age
without another page
pay an obscene wage
shouting more rage
on my silent stage
death's final gauge.

I say that lie, but I care
for everyone everywhere.

Your name is so near
my old failing brain
I know we made love
naked in summer rain.
Betsy or Kathy or Jayne,
Georgine or Lorraine?
Soft golf course grass
13th hole water hazard
drunk love piece of ***.

Now or later or never?
Died in forever after?
Death ever ending lever
pulled in loud laughter.

Does it matter
blood splatter
fingers of blame
in ashes of flame.
Lover's arrows
land in crows
frightened flights
drunk midnight's
wake up in rain
watercolor stain.