I slip out your backdoor
like a drunk love ghost.
Irish leave hurts more
but I always need it most.
I hate forever goodbyes
filled with forever lies.

You broke me in pieces
when you abandoned me
sent to an orphanage
you set yourself free
hopping freight trains
postcards of small love
from places in a granite
heart push comes to shove.
You keep guilt ***** quiet
sleeping in bar lover's beds
dreaming of your life's despair
wake hands shake take meds.

Your golden hair is a halo.
     Heat lightening makes it so.
     Our gravity was lost, we go
     in other orbits. I hear things,
     needle marks, attached strings
     bones turn tricks, cheap flings.
     Still my neon saint at midnight,
     need you from bar stool flight.
     You pass by in our neon light.

******'s sin is mine alone.
  She never knew her power.
  Bubble gum puffy nips
  I desired her perfect flower.

  Her mother died to save her
  but she saved me instead.
  She came to our bed in tears,
  that night she finally bled.

  ****** floats wild on the wind
  her cheap perfume my seduction.
  She died birthing our Mortal sin
  causing my Eden's destruction.

I died last night with
my dead family all
laugh eggnog drunk
I pass through a wall

I remember tiny creases
my cavalcade of strife
scattered puzzle pieces
fragments teasing life.