Alcohol stole my brain.
  Left me lobotomized
  random pieces remain
  to juggle compromised
  living on a tightrope
  balanced above a crowd
  spotlight blinds hope
  quiet was never so loud.

Happy accident
stole my breath
homework not
done, but death
gave me an A+
my casket desk
a silent pulse
wicked wreck.

I'll write of our pact as novice lovers.
We made our baby to show them our
fierce vows to our communion as one.
Love always lasts forever we believed.
We were West Side Story in suburbs.
If only I could have died like Tony.

I had no idea it was happening.
      The world caught fire and I blinked.
      My skin smelled like cooked meat.
      I was hungry and couldn't help myself.
      When I came to strapped down I thought
      I had died. I talked to you with sorrow.
      We spoke of beaches and sand and sun
      and salt that we would visit tomorrow.

Welcome to the miracle of birth,
all the bloat none of the mirth.
You had your ****** ******* fun
now your misery has just begun.
Weight gain and no more *****
never win you will only lose.
Morning sickness you have to ***
husband works late sets him free
to celebrate his super *****
drink Tequila eat the worm
get a ******* from a friend
doesn't even matter in the end.

Life is real
we lie
we steal
we cry
girl killed me
robbed her womb
too small to see
tiny attic room
we would've
had a ton of fun
you could've
loved your son.

You weren't seen
in my blind spot
too old so young
perfect ink blot
no trouble at all
self absorbed dad
in and out of lust
edge of mind mad.
you were a rock
in my slaughter
never faltered
broken Daughter.