Waiting......... Waiting........ Endless waiting until  the work that has been done can come to fruition. Trusting in the unseen to answer my wishes and desires. Trying to remain strong and hopeful when the world itself is telling you your mission is hopeless. Is it the world that is against me or my own inner demons and anxieties? Patience is learned through times of pain during the waiting periods of despair and delight.

The sands of time are diluted with the tears of the lost, the solution pours faster, increasing the rate at which the sands used to flow, time is flowing by faster each and every day, I blink and a week has gone by.

Every time you speak and reach out, I’m ****** into your motherly ways, then the hope and light is faint and enveloped in darkness and vengeful rage, I pray for the light to shine through it all and I am reminded how easy it is to fall.

Breathe, just breathe, in and out. The pressure of life dawns on you, the strength to get up every day is a gift to be grateful for, in its absence, there is isolation. Remember, breathe, just breathe, in and out. The weather controls your feelings, on days of sun and delight you radiate, on days of darkened sky’s you have the look of sadness in your eyes. Remember, breathe, just breathe, in and out. For the last breath you take will not be a mistake it is written in the stars for heaven sake. Breathe, just breathe.

The stream of light flashes from my childhood night light, as you sneak into my room and do heinous acts that fill you with delight. Tears trickle down my face as the darkness enters I’m forced to embrace. Saved I am by god today, the pain you left I choose not to waste, for no matter how hard you tried, I will never fall far from grace.