I sit here all alone in my cold darken room
writing my famous blues
over You...
my heart breaks at the thought
one day you will be reading them.
Judy Emery © 1982 The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The evidence of my loneliness
is in the tears I cried every year
wishing you were near,
I never found the companion
that was ever companionable,
I love my winter loneliness
because it brings me back to you,
you are still my favorable one
You were all I had
You were all I needed
to feel so completed.
But now I am all alone setting in
my room talking to the moon about you
hoping one day my words will get to you.

- Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My First Love, didn't last very long
it became an old sad song
that kept on playing along
in those cold  icy winds
Alone with no words
to describe the hurt
when I looked at the setting skies
I just start to cry
while the birds sing lullabies
isn't a bad thing
it is just a sad one in spring
a new starting point in my life
to find my own strength
but my heart will always have this longing
whereas the past is accessible to my progress.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My heart is naked and very alone;
people always judge me
because they think their better than I am,
I came out of my own mother's belly
I bleed like anyone else,
But They don’t see things the way I do,
But again, I am The Queen of Darken Dreams
Poetic Judy Emery and the story is about me.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My heart is naked and very alone;
people always judge me
because they think their better than I am,
I came out of my own mother's belly
I bleed like anyone else,
But They don’t see things the way I do,
But again, I am The Queen of Darken Dreams
Poetic Judy Emery and the story is about me.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My heart is worn
it is full of sorrow
tears are fallen
my eyes are swollen
the wind is blowing in its sadness throughout the night.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I open my heart window to set my spirit free.
-Judy Emery © 2004 The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Hand in hand overlooking the gentle waves, it's you I will always crave in this life that has never been nice, so take me for a ride deep inside your mind. let your eyes travel into mine and I will take you to another time. The moon and the stars in full at play where it is we stand in a haze, hand and hand we pray. I want to wake each morning in your love and pray it will never fade away.  being seduced by his knowledge in ways I could never express, but I have tried to do my best.  O what a beautiful day this love has given to me, it is like a dream but it is reality. You right hear with me handing me your class ring, where you have sets us both in the flame of the fire as the night crawls on. I remember the day when you swept me off my feet into the canyons of love like it was sent from heaven above, it was as if I was seeing the doves flying high over us, into the deep realms of dreamy nights you became my knight that shined in my darken life. Oh, how we held to each other for tight in life. The world has come to a standstill the moon looks down upon us, I gently lean to kiss you and with time
I have known this love we have will grow but a sudden gust of wind rushed through our lives and who would have known I would soon lose you. You pressed our bodies together your arms wrapped around me we started dancing so free, you told me with a kiss how much you love me, I smiled just for a little while in spring of a blessing that you have given to me. Death came like that dark cold wind and taken you away from me.

-Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My Loneliness is killing me
No one should have to go through
Something like this;
I could no longer fool myself
or my heart;
Because of my heart and mind
reviles what I’m feeling all the time;
Oh, times sea look at me
I am in way too deep;
my pains are cutting me
I’m bleeding out like ink;
this loneliness left me feeling cold
and very alone;
I can no longer bear
it but I know I must,
loneliness makes me feel
I have no existence
No self-worth;
life of a living Hell of true darkness,
out in the cold all alone
trying to make it on my own;
Oh, how my body craves to be loved
But love was never a part of me,
my empty heart needs to free
to love and to be loved back,
I had read every book after book
to pass the time;
to easy my nights
to ease my mind
my pains of loneliness remain,
but one day it will go away.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My Loneliness is killing me
keeping my poor heart weeping,
this coldness
of true loneliness
is eating away at me
No one should have to go through life like this.

I could no longer fool myself living in a place of happiness
when all I see is the gray hovering over me,
my heart is truly broken
like someone had left me for the dead
I have no where to rest my head.

Because my mind is traveling over time
that reviles what I am feeling,
I know this may sound silly
but really
this has became apart of me.

In my mind I would see a place that haunts me
I am upon a mighty sea
where his eyes are looking at me...
but I never understood what it all means,
I just no I am in something deep
that scars the hell out of me.

In this darkness of my loneness
I have found myself in something deep
that leaving me cold and weeping,
I don't really know if I'm sleeping
my pains are cutting me so bad
leaving me feeling mad.

I’m bleeding out into the sea
because this old loneliness has taken over me
left me feeling cold and very alone;
but I keep hanging on
like an old sad song
that keep playing on.

I can no longer bear it
but somehow I am getting stronger
I know I must-
standing around in this dust,
this loneliness make me feel like I have no existence,
No self-worth
Oh, how this hurts the worst.

A life of a living Hell
Did that wring someone's Bell?
out in the cold
so very alone...
trying to make it on my own
I have nowhere to call home
all I do is roam.

Oh, how my body craves to be loved
but love was never a part of me,
my empty heart just bleeds like ink
as I wrote my famous lines
for the whole world to read
about a life that kept so many hooked.

So I could set my soul at easy
and my spirit run free
so I could feel a touch of love
and just maybe be love back
instead of always being attacked
behind my back.

It is crazy how so many has read my book
they all wanted take a better look
like they are hooked
but then it was them that wanted to bring on more rain
just to give me more pain.

But when I wrote down my story
of my lonely life
that made me cry
in my own bloodstained ink
where it is my sprit sink's
to pass the time-
to easy my nights
to easy my mind
my pains of loneliness remains,
but one day it will go away.

- Judy Emery © 2017 The Queen Of Darken Dreams Judy Lilly Emery

Into the woods my Master takes hold  
His words are so dark and bold  
His world cut deep within my soul
Into the woods, my Master came to  
Play his game on his new slaves  
shames and guilt he put in their heart  
And upon their minds and truth of light
will never be found their light has gone
Out like a candle without a fire  
Dark Angel cried out the secret is death  
A death you will never get to see  
Death is the teacher of light of what is right
Death is a place you go to rest  
But you will never get that from me  
Dark Angel, they cry out is death like moan  
Of a pain that will never stop but only cut
deeper and deeper that will make them
lose their mind's  
into the woods, my Master takes hold of me  
To give me his pleasurable pain  
that cuts like a razor.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I rarely know what journey my mind will take me on. I set down to write my famous lines, I pick up my pen that is laying on my desk and I let the ink bleed as I gave my best for my heart and my emotions to do the rest as it bleeds upon poetic paper, all that I feel all that I see for the who world to read about me. My mind stars too travel too the unknown places, some of these places I love to have gone, but when it comes to my writing, my mind does the traveling, and my hand moved the ink pen. My thoughts started to take me far and near of long ago,  in a time of '' SHAKESPEARE .'' His words danced around in my head, His words he stresses the magnitude for me too you. It all belongs to ''SHAKESPEARE'', the poet who bleed and wept his heart out to touches our hearts.
''Then my mind jump to the secretes of thoughts .'' I never know where or when are what my mind will plot or where it will Rome. my mind take my attention to a place of unknown, turning from the unreal world of dreams or to a present moment of reality.
If my mind has held a time of my own troubles or thoughts of secretes then it will revile, and this is what I will write that takes off in my mind.


Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

As I sleep I fly on high in my mind as high as birds
angels fly deep in the sky
Then the sky in my mind climbs
My mind starts to discover my heart
has been wounded
I was shot right out of the sky
No clouds
No crying
No time to lose
I didn't want to feel confused
when renewed
One I had known the depth part of me
Was shot cut wounded like a bird
The colorful features
of these emotions
Feeling no hope was
And darkness was trying to make a way in
lay on the face of all things
The air of life touched my heart of history
knowledge of value
style of true reality
I see all the possibilities of what my life could be
Then Love of my true self-worth came rushing in
as high as a bird
I steer these invisible wings
Wishing on reaching as high as angels and birds
could fly sentimental sighs
I escape the realities of being wounded in my dreams
I reach for reality and open my eyes
Like angels to fly on high like birds in the sky
Nature produces the greatest results
the greatest of self-worth the simplest means
These are simply the sun and the air
we breathe the flowers water and true self-love.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, how you love to see me weep the pains that you brought down on me with all that yelling and tell me hateful things fighting with me in the rain it was like the whole scene of it all was giving you a fix that was making you feel stronger about yourself by feeding off on all that my misery.

- Judy Emery © 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

It is my birthright
It is my own written pages of me...
where the story of my past
and the Now!

-Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, how you love to see me weep
in so much pain;
you tell me you love the rain
it gives you so much strength
by living off my misery.
when my life is going right
you would do whatever it takes
to see my heartbreak,
you said the day will come
when someone will put my heart on the run
you call that fun;
I never thought it would be
my own child that would cut me deep,
now look at me I can no longer sleep
or eat because all I do is weep,
soon comes the fear
that hangs near;
Oh, how I truly feel the emptiness
of all those years, I gave my whole life
to the child, I hold dear;
left me in tears,
forgiveness will always be in my heart
even while I’m bleed out like ink
for the whole world to see me broken
but again, this would be my haters token,
where is the respect?
I am home alone
asking myself what is it I was doing wrong
why am I losing everything I love?
my child is now so grown up,
I had never lived a life for myself
all those negative feelings of loneliness
came rushing in like a wildfire of true
the agony of bleeding pains
the cuts are so deep
I felt I could no longer breath
I even thought for a moment
my heart stops beating,
all those memories of my life
beat upon my me until I was broken
deeper than life ever could hand me,
this pain is stripping, taking everything
from me;
drain ever part of goodness from me
leaving me powerless
while I hear the evil ones
laughing at my pains
hoping for rain to come my way to stay,
I have no strength left in me,
this pain of letting go of what I truly love
Is really bringing me down to my knees
begging God to help me,
because this pain I feel
is striping me of all that I had ever live for.
Within the hours my child
walked back in the door
and that was the end of the war.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, beautiful morning how I love you
I pour my coffee set at my desk
making a big mess
Looking at my notebook
ready to start my day
my pen is uncapped
My eyes are gazing at the blank pages
of true mystery that my brain will
set the ink to write what my heart bleeds
for all to read that comes from me
to a world of a poetic mind,

  Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My Poetess Life
there's always challenge's
my true poetess mind
loves to write day and night
most of the time my heart bleeds ink,
My words are deep like the sea
like the candle of my soul
that shines so brightly for others to see
they all love to read about me,
I have two Poetic names
I never feel shame or hold no balms
but when I do I never act confused
I write and play with words for you,
I know great works
comes from intelligence soul
from an active mind
that loves to play with words
that builds the imagination like me,

Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I lead my poetic pen,
to every thought of him,
where our love begins
and to its painful end.
-Judy Emery © 1983 The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Sleep, my pretty queen ;
Dark Angel would whisper to me
let your mind travel like old times
never get me out of your mind,
trouble times will always be
when  you're with me
I will never let you go
music, the art of my heart
blood ink will always be
for others to read
about you and me,
Sleep, my queen
while the night enfolds
what it knows
let winter kiss at your skin
let me come on in
let me rhyme my words out to you
I will always keep you on confused
because I had put a spell on you
write down all your pains
Oh, my love let it rain
Dark Angel keeps on whispering
in my mind on another winter night.

  Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My queen, come to me
Not only in your dreams,
If I must I will cut out my heart
Where you won’t take it apart,
I was once you knight
I never left your side,
Until that cold September night
When Dark Angel has given, you fright
He took over your life,
He had taken away my queen
And that wasn’t any dream,
But you have forgotten me
If only you could see,
I can see you still
And even hear your voice,
At the time, I could hear you call out my name,
I can hear you
Feel you
See you
But you look at me as if I am no longer there,
I have two feet
but I could never approach you,
I could never get close to you
But I can still feel your love from far
You are the queen of my heart,
I cannot go to you
But I want too,
I still crave your lips
to kiss all your sweetness,
I’m speechless,
It’s you I will always miss,
One day I will take hold of you
I will grasp you in my heart
In my soul
In my arms
And never let you go,
My heart will always be strong for you
Because we are not two
We are one in love
You are all my emotions
You are the breath I breath
Oh, my dear queen
come back to your knight
and dance with me for life,
you run through my mind
from my blood that pumps to my heart,
I carry you everywhere I go
Your love is the key to me.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My senseless Love
we have a story to tell when it comes to us
we wove through some hard times
that had truly made us cry;

The Ink on the poet’s sheet had been smeared
with so many tears
The hands that rip the page of poetry  
will find the senseless Love
that was ever written;

Come, come forth into the light
you will find our famous lines
of a Love that died;

Come forth into the light
and let Nature of the poets handwrite
let my words of long ago teach your
weeping soul;

My senseless Love
the Ink is poured on poet’s paper
for thousands to hold our words
in the Lovers mind of all times of you and I
Love never dyes its words will last a lifetime.

Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

we have a story to tell when it comes to us
we wove through some hard times
that had truly made us cry
The Ink on the poet’s sheet
has been smeared with so many tears
The hands that rip the page of poetry  
will find the senseless Love
that was ever written
Come, come forth into the light
you will find our famous lines
of a Love that died
Come forth into the light
and let Nature of the poet’s handwriting
let my words of long ago teach your
weeping soul
My senseless Love
the Ink is poured on poet’s paper
for thousands to hold our words
in the Lovers mind of all times of you and I
Love never dyes
its words will last a lifetime.

Judy Emery © 1990
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

What I had always loved about telling my story
the words were meant to be spread out
the brokenness of my heart bled
where this old darkness fed
while I bled red ink
as my spirit truly did sink
in a place, I call darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I hold my thoughts of you
Playing over and over in my mind,
While my boat is onshore,
I thought so hard about your words,

Oh, how my tears flowed,
When I could still see,
you looking at me with anger in your eyes
because I didn’t want to be by your side,

I don't want to feel this way,
you always kept me so sad,
you always had a way to make me feel pain,
too much pain that brought on rain,

I don't want to stay this away
but if you stay in my mind
in my heart, Fairytale darkness
is what I will always find playing on my mind,

you always tell me lies
just to keep me by your side,
always cutting at my heart
just to see me fall apart,
I would love to forget about you.
So, I take some time to sail the sea,
but you are always given me darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I stand on high most of the time
when others read about me
who speaks of my words aloud
for others to hear and see,
I know my words can be so dark
but never let them stumble you
this is my own written words
that cuts deep into my soul
that burns me to the core
of the red sea that bleeds,
What are words if you cannot use them?
what are dreams if you cannot dream them?
I was a child some time ago
holding the pains of yesterdays
in the kingdom of broken dreams
I had lost many things
most of my life I felt the rain
Love was once strong halfway into my life
but then that one had died
darken paths was handed down to me
like the old crying sea
the velvet moon became a silent friend
even to my very end.

Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

MY THOUGHTS

Just because of my thoughts
runs deep into a dark sea
into a painful darken dreams,
don't make me mean
my soul is clean
I love to read
stay close to the Light
that shine through my life
when things are right,
my heart needs to write
what it is I see
that makes my heart bleed
I let the blood run in ink
that flows from my pen
while my spirit sinks
I write my thoughts down
for the world to read
while they judge me
and drink my words up like tea.

Judy Emery © 1997
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

What makes me scream
is darken dreams
cold winds hollowing in the night
that gives me a chilled fright
in the dark forest
as many different eyes
that keeps sight
the naked skies of summer are gone
winter is taken on a run
the dead sleeps in silence
but the living is being hunted
by he who gives darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2013
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, never reveal who it is you love,
Love is a secrete between two,
Love is something untold,
Love isn’t to be sold.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, let me tell you how this old story goes that has treated me so cold
bruised my soul shattered my heart left me mark then take me down
on the wet ground of the lost, that was never to be found.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Where does it all go when you gave your all where did the love go?
when it all had turned cold. In the next few decades, the detail will never be revealed, our story will never be completed or revised, but we will be made the updated WIDELY NEWS. Oh, don't let the past take its hold we must stand bold and never let this love tale go cold there is a lot to be written and a lot of ink to be spilled, but it will never truly be revealed.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Night falls is where the darkness is
all around me is sadness
a place of emptiness
I look into my own thoughts
were love was once was with me
falling leaves hidden darken dreams
they all are apart of me
days of gray
where love is lost
where memories come across
where every leaf that falls
has a name of pains
on every leaf, I see your name
in my own bloodstain ink
Oh, how you made my heart bleed
At nightfall
I can see your eyes upon on me
out in the rain is all kinds of pains
I think about  all the things
that you have given to me
You have taken me by the edge of the sea
you held me when I cried
but then you let me fall
deep into the night, I do cry
I felt all the pain of that darkened night
you left me out to die
You held on to me tight
why we were looking at the blanket of stars
that was shining on us from far
but then you left your mark
upon my heart
The roaring sea is now a big part of me
the anger of the fall rushes to the shore
broken spirit for share
sadly enough you are always with me
you have given me that
when you cast your spell
to give me a life of Hell
I know this may seem harsh
but I am so glad we did depart.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My voice cries out to the Nile River  
crying over to saying love me little,
love me long even in the strongest storms
scattered dreams you did not hear with me,
destruction in the late sun that makes  me run,
all my hopes and dreams to be set free
from the hurt and hate that stands before me,
frighten at the age of three when my mother
and my father left me puzzled in ignorance,
explore by nature of a darkened world,
I set alone and cry in the heat of the night  
No love insight not in fount of my eyes,
I would cry out to cleanse all my wounds  
that I held in my heart way too long,
humiliation from all strangers,
humiliated by not having no one in my life,
frightened, force in compelling pain  
praying for rain the never came,
touched unloved relationship with faults dreams
exploration with so many questions,
wounded a child of three when my mother  
my father had left me,
The Nile River is what they gave me,
a life of pains and shames that will never go away,
Nile River cry's within my veins.

Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

No darkness is never enough
to extinguish out the Light
God's Love is a gift
even in a dark Life like this.
If love statue a mirror.

-Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Just turn and look
and tell me what you see
he just moved along
like the winter breeze
Then he turns and said
I love to see you bleed
lost into darken dreams of me
I cried so ******* that winters night
he gave me so much fright
almost taken my mind
I had learned so much from him
but nothing of any good
you know he came from the hood
that is no manhood,
In his eyes, all you see is the dark side
nothing nice to see that comes from he
Dark Angel gives out a cough
then he takes his walk
he holds so much envy
for the light of what is right
the bullets of pride reach the sky
he holds no rhythm in his bones,
his life of the unknown is his home
his heart is dark and cold
holds no hope
but every September
he will always remember me.

Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

There is not enough
words for me to put down
when it comes to what I
hold deep within my mind.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Not too long ago,
I did write my famous lines
the power of my pains
did bring more rain to all who reads
my heartfelt words
that I had written down
in my own bloodstain ink,
my words are strong a
yet very deep like the sea
it holds things of long ago
it talks about the pains of yesterdays
I had never denied
my tears for all to hear,
they fall into the cup for all to drink
that will run deep
into your veins while you dream
all about me,
darken dreams will make you feel
you are going to die in a hateful ride
in another time of long ago,
You will scream out so much pain
but no one will ever hear a thing
my pains will arise in everyone’s eyes
that sees me dancing around
in the cold September storm,
to all those who read about me
you will hear the cries
of the foreign tongues
of a mockery of darkening time
that cuts away at the mind.


Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Dark Angel wings that will never fly,
Dark Angel ripped and torn
my heart out from me,
he even has broken my wings,
''Wiggling and whimpering'',
of pain I will never forget,  
Obsession in his eyes over me
with so much jealousy,
his darken soul filled with scorn,
covered with hated tears,
Dark Angel is afraid to let anyone near,
painted fears are what I bared
in my mind over time,
he pains that sears with words doubts,
he touched my body
then started touching my hair
with a touch of lust,
with deep words of hurt,
Obsession of ****** screams
are like a wounded animal,
He read my dreams for freedom,
something he could never see
what it is he truly is looking for,
he loves working on my mind
play around with my heart
my body he loves so much,
He gives me no choice to live or die,
he takes my name and calls me
and changed it to ‘’Blue Moon’’
he changed it again to ‘’Moonlight,’’
He looked deep within my eyes
with fierce anger,
Dark Angel broke my wings,
just to hear me scream,
then he would say,
I will never let you fly away,
He surrounds me and puts me
In a dark cold room,
with heavy chains on me,
in this upper room
in ''Paris ‘‘at the old convent building,
were lies are being told
by a priest of a ghost,
miss leading the way
giving out his voice to a darkened world,
that no one cares to see or hear,
Dark Angel covers me in shame
of his own darken lust,
In the dark, he feasts on my insecurity,
His obsession is what broken him down,
my wings are torn
My spirit is broken,
I feel so shredded and abuse,
My eternal darkness is with he
this is where I'm headed,
No love will ever find me,
I'm trapped in the hands of Dark Angel,
He feeds off my fears,
Dark Angel tells me,
I must obey all his commands,
because I have no love of my own,
You belong to me,
you can't understand
how much you mean to me,
I now became Dark Angels little toy,
I have something to say, my dear,
Come, come near,
I want your all, give me your heart,
I want your body mind and spirit,
I looked at him with a smirk on my face,
telling him it will never happen,
But only in his dreams.

Judy Emery © 1989
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery