I invite my demons back into my bed,
I let them taunt and torture me
As I kiss their lips and feed them, love.
I beg for them to blacken my eyes ****** my wrist,
And fill the void that rests within my soul.
I’m addicted to the way the pain feels
And they're addicted to the ways my tears taste

Slipping, fading
Drowning into me
Can't swim to the surface
Cutting releases it
But only temporarily
Living ten minutes at a time
For the rest of eternity
Might be longer tomorrow
Feeling so worthless
Feeling so hopeless
Need someone
Anyone to just trust
But I can't
My worth disappeared
And tonight as do I

I feel numb when we're arguing
mad because you can't sleep with me
but how can I hand any more of myself over?
all I see in you are your choices and you chose her
all of this time I've taken the punches for you
but how long can my body stand being black and blue?